numberphillic

2010-01-22T17:54:00.000+08:00

yesterday, we had our speech for our comm3 class. it's our long exam and i almost flunked it. effin shit. so here's the guidelines; we should make a speech to inform that would last for 5 minutes. we must also apply what we've learned in the class - iconics, paralanguage, haptics, and oculics (i'm dnot sure if this is right but it sounds like this - i don't jot down notes that why i always forget things). my speech was about the emerging social networks on WWW. whew.

it lasted for 6 minutes and 9 seconds. erg. and i didn't even finished the whole speech plus the C- articulation and mastery. i hope it won't be an F. coz if it is. than it would be fail or f***shit.

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Books were never in my vocabulary until one day, I found a book that hooked me up and turned me into a book worm. FACEBOOK.

Facebook is just one out of the hundreds of social networking sites that allows us to create and share our personal profile. This profile is typically composed of information about you, photos, blogs and videos but its most important feature is the ability to find friends and connect with them. But before it hit the mainstream, how did it all started? And before we engage ourselves in the history of social networking, what is really a social network?

Most of us, whether we admit or not, are social creatures. As such, the root of all success from social networking sites is based on a need to connect and expand connections. For most of history, connections were largely limited by geographical or economic considerations. But today, social networks allow people to expand their connections around interests. The proliferation of blogs, for example has shown that people love to share their opinion. I guess there is a deeply rooted need among human beings to share something, whether it is information or opinions. And by this, every social networks appeals to the altruistic side of people by allowing them to share their connection and introduce friends to other friends.

According to Wikipedia, there are at least 300 social network sites or SNS in which 174 are major and active. And based on the survey conducted by the TopTenReviews.com on these SNS, Facebook is the fastest growing SNS in the world as evaluated on the following criteria - profile, security, networking features, search, help/support and legitimate friend focus. FB, as layman would call it, was followed by MySpace, Bebo, Friendster, Hi5 and Twitter. But before Facebook and the rest of its kind took the world by a storm, it all started with one concept – a computerized bulletin board system.

CBBS was conceptualized on January 16, 1978 by Ward Christensen to fill a specific need of informing other members of their group about important announcements. Then series of CBBS came to the scene until the first recognizable social network site was launched in 1997, the SixDegrees.com. From 1997 to 2001, a number of community tools began supporting various combinations of profiles. AsianAvenue, BlackPlanet, and MiGente allowed users to create personal, professional, and dating profiles. The next wave of SNSs began when Ryze.com as well as Tribe.net and Friendster.com were launched in 2001 to help people leverage their business networks. Then like sprouting mushrooms, various SNS existed.

I’m sure you’re quite familiar with Farmville on Facebook and Karma on Plurk. But these are just bit of the features of existing SNS. If you’re an open source software developer, for example, you can try Advogato. If you’re into music, just type Buzznet. If you’re into photo-art appreciation, you can drop by at DeviantArt, and QuarterLife.. If you like plain blogging, Blogster, or OpenDiary, which is the first online blogging community founded in 1998, would be suited for you. Plurk, Twitter and Tumblr are great also for micro-bloggers. If you want blog, photos and music all in one, Multiply, Imeem and Gogoyoko are the must-clicks.

Aside from those, diverse SNSs are also major hits like aSmallWorld.com which is an exclusive site for European jet set and socialites. Care2, for example, is an environment friendly SNS; the world’s largest community of speakers - Livemocha, is language learning site; WiserEarth is a site that promotes social justice; Eons.com is an SNS for baby boomers; Epernicus and ScienceStage are site for young scientists.

SNSs can also be according to religion like Muxlim.com for Muslims, and Xt3 for Catholics; or according to race such as Zoo.gr for Greeks, Sonico.com for Latin Americans, Skyrock for Francs, Renren for Chinese, Orkut in India, Odnoklassniki in former soviet republics, Mixi in Japan, Decayenne for Europeans, Biip in Norway, and many more.

Social network sites (SNSs) are increasingly attracting millions of people. It is simply because we want all to establish a sense of identity. I guess not everyone has a personal website. It may come as a shock to most of you here but for some people, social networks personal pages are the only place where people maintain an identity beyond the fact that the URL is on the service instead of being a personal one.

hell week.

2010-01-07T16:13:00.002+08:00

hell week again and again. kakakuha ko lang ng test booklet ko sa chem 17 and tadaa - here i go again. i sort of hate it but i can't do anything about it. i should've studied and reviewed more in the first place. but then again, what's done is done. thinking the positive side, may 2nd long, third long pa. haha. physics exam was a mess. medyo alam ko yung concept but i don't know if i got it right. sir lim told us that if you failed to answer the first question correctly, then the rest of the items will be marked wrong. isang problem lang kasi pero andaming tanong. kailangan pa ang mga vector addition, forces and work, and energy. at laws of motion. hay. sana di ako mazero. erg.

i have an upcoming exam sa chem 17 lab and math 53. hay. Lord. sana pumasa ako. i need to impose self-discipline and control. masyado na akong nalilihis sa tamang landas. but i'll try to do good things this year. i've been bad last year. i cannot afford to be worse. hay. maglalaro na daw kami ng frisbee. gotta go.

eduardo is out.

new year.

2010-01-01T02:47:00.003+08:00

the net sucks. no, globe bro sucks. sa lahat ng oras at araw bakit ngayon pa?? bagong taon na nga sana eh. hay. well. kakaunti lang ang mga paputok. gusto ko sanang bumili ng marami, kakarating lang kasi ng sahod ko. di pala sahod yun, allowance ko pala sa dost yun. pero tinatawag ko lang na sahod kasi parang sahod nga naman talaga sa pag-aaral. may allowance naman kasing binibigay ang parents ko. haha. so yun na nga, may pera ako pero wala na kaming mabilhan. ipinagbabawal na siguro to sa bayan eh. may municipal ordinance raw, di ko lang alam kung ano. maaga akong natutulog. boring kasi eh. tapos kinakailangan ko ring gumising ng maaga kasi maglalakwatsa na naman ako.

ngayong bagong taon, my resolution is to be more like me and be less like anyone else. i was a copycat last 2009. i was often associated with people i don’t know. i was a shadow. whenever they’re hit with light, there i was. but that’s not me. i was a lame bastard away from my comfort zone. 2010 is a promising year, i won’t waste a single jiffy of it. aside from that, di na rin ako magpapalate at matutulog ng late. di na rin ako maglalasing kung marami akong dapat gawin. haha. iiwasan ko na rin ang pagnight out. magtitipid na rin ako. di na ako bibili ng hindi ko kailangan. magpapakabait na rin akong anak. di na ako magsisinungaling sa mga magulang ko about sa allowance ko.

goal ko naman sa taong ito ang makapunta sa international leaders conference. huli akong nakapunta noong first year hs pa ako. sana makaattend ulit ako. gayon din ang pumasa sa lahat ng mga subjects ko at makapagtravel sa camiguin. nais ko ring gumawa ng isang short story at makabili ng sketch pad. dapat mabili ko na rin ang stuff toy na eduardo latino before matapos ang taon. ang hirap kasing maghanap eh. sana matuto rin ako ng husto sa chemistry. di ko na kasi talaga kaya. T_T. higit sa lahat goal ko na tumaba para rin naman may mawowork out ko.

i never have the chance to express how thankful i am to jue and peyt for the year 2009. jue was the first one i talked to after breaking up. peyt, on the other hand, shared the same emotion kaya i felt na i’m not alone. aside from that, hayskul layp would never be cool and cruel without them. well, i’ve been telling them how much they mean to me and how i value they’re company these past few new year’s eve. idk if they even realized it. but i really mean those words. sa mga up pipx naman, nessa was my first ever friend. i’ve met her on the soep and we seemed to have something in common. she always help me on topics i can’t understand and give me some advises which i usually took for granted. jazer, mel and kevin were also great. they used to accompany me every meal. they’re really great and i hope you’ll meet them someday just to prove that good persons exist.

pasaway ako sa taong 2009. pasaway pa rin siguro ako sa 2010. di na siguro magbabago yun. i’m looking forward na sa loob ng 365 days ay maging masaya ako. i’m a dork t and i’m not making sense but still i’m blogging. idk why. i know i’ll never lose affection for people and things that went before. in my life, i loved them more.

goodbye 2009.hello 2010. XD.

2009is not yet over.

2009-12-31T12:49:00.001+08:00

yesterday was Rizal Day. and i said, what the ef?? why should i commemorate? is there any reason to do so? after passing history 1, i’ve learned that jose rizal is not my hero. i don’t want to be offensive but subsequent to reading books by constantino and agoncillo, it leaved me a mark. it says that rizal was just proclaimed as our national hero because of the American influence. they believed that setting rizal as an example would make Filipinos less aware of their right to fight, using weapons, for their freedom. i’ve also read that rizal was going to cuba to render medical support to Spaniards before he was arrested. imagine. well, you can’t blame him, he is a reformist and that explains all. they were just fighting out philippines to be a part of spain and be given same privileges with the Spaniards. for more data, just scan the books of constantino (philippines: past revisited)and agoncillo.

today is a busy day. i just got a new haircut and ‘ohmehn’; the scissors sucks. i hate the way the barber morbidly hacked my hair. he trimmed it just like trimming the bushes – no sense, no art, just cutting to make it short. ai na. i want to enumerate all the bad words just to express how disappointed i am with the cut. but it’s a public place, i just don’t want to be mean. etiquette please.

so, new year preparations? nothing new. same old story. same old happy story. same old happy and simple story. there are foods (as usual), fruits (as usual), drinks (as usual) and fire crackers (as usual). how i wish we had enough money to buy fireworks. but it wouldn’t be as economical as expected. 2010 should be started with frugality. kung ano lang yung kinakailangan. hindi naman ako mabubusog ng fireworks eh. and to think, our neighbors (for sure but not sure enough) will have some sort of pyro-exhibits. makikishare na lang kami. i mean manonood pala. XD. nywei, i’ll be preparing desserts. i’ll have to pack my clothes. i’ll be leaving for davao tomorrow afternoon. then i’ll have my flight back to ilo-ilo 6:30 am of January 2. by January 3, i’m expected to reach Miami (that’s miag-ao, ilo-ilo; folks used to call it miami because of the shoreline close to that of miami). though, i’m about to leave isulan by the new year’s day, i’ll drop at tacurong first to see anin, betx and norman. i missed them and they missed the get-together-sort-of-party last december 24. i should make the most of my stay here.

as soon as the class unravels on the 4th day of january, i’ll have to set my mind on its proper mind set. series of exams are expected to hit the university. little hell week is just the same us real hell week. hindi pa ako nakastudy sa math 53. my study mode relies on my roommates. there are pages on the book that i can roughly understand, there are pages that i can’t really understand and pages that i just don’t want to read. pimples and eye bags are hours away from me. they are waiting at room 18, balay kanlaon. whew. ate and jazer are transferring to diliman. and it scares me because i’ve been relying on them. pag magstudy sila, magsastudy ako. kung maglalaro, maglalaro. kung maglalasing, maglalasing. i can’t transfer to diliman because my parents won’t allow me. sayang lang ang pagiging CS ko. (i’ve been lying bout my CS-thing because i just don’t want people to put pressure. that’s why tinatago ko at kapag may nagtatanong, sinasabi ko na hindi ko alam. at kapag iniinsist nila, sinasabi ko na hindi. liar me.) so back to ate and pareng jazer, uhm, i’ll have to stand on my own.

oops. tumatawag na ang nanay ko, magluluto na raw ako. as if nagluluto talaga ako. manonood lang po ako sa nanay ko. andami ko pang lilinisin. gusto ko pa sana magshare ng mga resolutions ko at new year wishes, must-haves, must-dos, and must-nots. kaso paubos na rin tong globe broadband eh. erg. ang gastos kaya nito, prepaid kasi. yan talaga pag naghihikahos sa buhay. ciao for now.

latino heat signing off.

(wrong grammar and typo error - my apology.)

what the ef?

2009-12-30T11:59:00.002+08:00

2nd sem sucks. assignments, problem sets, exams, quizzes. erg. they gave me loads i can't handle. if only i can blog using my mind, like you're just thinking and then it will automatically appear on the screen. hay. i'm tired. the nerves. erg. ciao for now. happy holidays. advance happy new year. :D

emote.

2009-12-29T00:42:00.002+08:00

i didn’t dare think of the future; the past was still happening.

i’ll be honest. i’m hurt because i just can’t imagine that i can’t be happy with the choices i made. i’m hurt because she can’t love me back because she had found a new love. i’m hurt that i loved her but it doesn’t make sense. i’m hurt that though how much i wanted to be happy, i just can’t because i’m hoping for something to happen. i’m hurt because she’s happy and i can’t be. i’m hurt that though how much i wanted to flirt and love someone, i just can’t because at the end of the day i know it will still be her that i loved, that i’m loving and i will love. ohmehn, this sucks.

hayaan mo na lang sana na mahalin kita kasi hindi ko naman maggawang magmahal ng iba. at huwag mo sanang isipin na ngayon ay nagkukumahog ako na bawiin ka ngayong hawak ka na ng iba kasi hindi naman ganyan talaga. ako ang lumayo, ang may sala, pero hindi ko naman sinabi na hindi kita mahal. hay. ayoko nang maging tanga. people often tell me that i’m bitter. eh talaga naming bitter ako. sinabi ko bang hindi. emo daw. naman siyempre, sino ba naman ang hindi sa taong mahal mo. kaya nga tama nga siguro na love lives for a reason and never leaves without a lesson. baka nga nakita niya na ang true love nya. pero di naman ibig sabihin na hindi siya ang TL ko. gusto kong maging masaya gaya ng gusto niyang mangyari, gusto ko rin siyang lubayan para maging tuluyan siyang maging masaya. kaso sadyang di ko maggawa. paano nga ba ako magsisimula?

after ko malaman na parang may bago ka na, andami kong sinabi na ganito ganyan. pero kinain ko rin sa huli. dala na rin sa emosyon at bilis ng pangyayari. and to think na friend ko rin yung nawalan. kasalanan naman talaga naming dahil kami ang unti-unting bumitaw. pero di naman kami nagpalit eh. so nababasa naman toh ng mga friends mo. sasabihin nila na losers-blah-blah lang toh. well, oo. pero wag naman ipamukha. kasi the truth hurts eh.

i saw you recently in a snackbar. di ka pa rin nagbabago, lalo na yung voice mo. you look so happy kaya kahit gusto kitang kausapin, di ko ginawa. di mo rin siguro ako nakita, wala na rin siguro sayo kung nagkita pa tayo. at bakit ba hindi ko maresist na makipagchat sayo sa facebook. tinanong pa nga kita kung ikaw talaga yun kasi di lang talaga ako makapaniwala. pero kalimutan mo na lang siguro. napapahiya na rin ako sa mga post ko. parang mabigat talaga sa akin na tanggapin na may iba ka na. pero wala na talaga akong maggagawa. kung alam mo lang na ikaw pa rin picture ko sa wallet, andami ngang nagtatanong bakit di ko raw palitan. sinasagot ko lang ng pabiro pero ang totoo, wala naman talaga akong ipapalit. kasi wala naman talaga. naibigay mo na lahat ng bears ko sa gawad kalinga. yung isa dyan ibinigay sa akin pero binigay ko pa rin. yung isa, napanalunan ko lang, first time pa nga yun. pero ok lang yun. basta masaya ka, to suportahan ta gid dapat ka. nalusaw na rin yung soap flower na binigay ko, baka nga expired na talaga yun. tagal na nun. itapon mo na dapat kung hindi mo pa natatapon. tsaka yung charcoal, malayo naman yun sa hitsura mo kaya di bale na lang.

sana habambuhay na kayo ng nobyo mo. sana rin makita ko na yung hinahanap ko. baka iunfriend na kita sa fb, fs, plurk, multiply at ym. baka lang naman. yun lang kasi ang first step na nakikita ko eh. buburahin ko na rin yung number mo, pati yung mga pic na gusto mong burahin ko na.

i don’t want to see you because everytime i do, mas lalo lang akong nahuhulog sayo. simula ngayon, sisimulan ko na ang operation-limot. pero for sure di ko yun maggagawa, ningas cogon ako eh. but still i’ll try, for you i will.

from bitter to better. ai naku Lord. sana nga maisakatuparan na toh. di ko gusto magsalita ng patapos pero sa tingin ko, di na ako ready sa love na yan. pero i’ll be happy if ever love will come on my way. oh siya, matutulog na ulit ako. good night. ciao for now.

thought of the day. zZz.

2009-12-11T23:54:00.005+08:00

Thoughts of the day.

If people from Poland are called Poles, why aren’t people from Holland called Holes?

If horrific means to make horrible, does terrific mean to make terrible?

If man evolved from monkeys and apes, why do we still have monkeys and apes??

How come they call them buildings if they’ve already been built?

Would a fly without wings be called a “walk”?

Doesn’t expecting the unexpected make the unexpected become the expected?

If pro is the opposite of con, is progress the opposite of congress?

Isn’t it a bit unnerving that doctors call what they do “practice”?

Is there another word for synonym?

If one synchronized swimmer sinks, do the others have to sink their selves too?

The statistics on sanity are that one out of every four persons is suffering from sort of mental illness. Think of your three best friends, if they’re ok, is it you?

What on earth is a “free gift”? Aren’t all gifts free?

Why does wise man appear to be the opposite of wise guy?

Why are they called “stands” when they’re made for sitting?

Why does overlook and oversee mean opposite things when in fact look and see are same, and over in oversee and overlook are same in terms of reflexivity property?

Why do fat chance and slim chance mean the same thing?

Why are they called apartments when they are all stuck together?

Why do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries are dead?

Why does your nose run and your feet smell?

Why is it called a tv “set” when you only get one?

Why does flammable and inflammable mean the same thing?

Why do people order double cheeseburgers, large fries and then a diet coke?

Why is the man who invest all your money called broker?

Why is it that, whether you sit up and sit down, the result is still the same?

If the #2 Mongol pencil is the most popular, why is it still #2?

Why is it hard to remember how to spell “mnemonic”?

Why is it that when you transport something by car, it’s called shipment; but when you transport something by ship, it’s called cargo?

Why is it that if someone tells you there are one billion stars in the universe you will believe them, but if they tell you a wall has went paint you still touch it to be sure?

Why is it that to stop and end Windows on your PC, you have to click on “Start”?

How can there be “self help GROUPS”?

Why is it good to be a Daddy’s Girl but bad to be Mama’s boy?

Why doesn’t the hair in your arms grow as fast as the hair on your head?

Why do they call it taking a dump? Shouldn’t it be leaving a dump?

Where in the nursery rhyme does it say humpty dumpty is an egg?

Why are toe nail clippers bigger than finger nail clippers when toenails are smaller than our fingernails?

If love is blind, how do we believe in love at first sight?

Why do water bottles have “best if used by” dates?

Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in binoculars to look at things on the ground?

Why are there flotation devices under plane seats instead of parachutes?

Why do we wash bath towels? Aren’t we clean when we use them?

Why is it called rush hour when you don’t move?

How come people tell you to stay as a kid for as long as you can yet the moment you do anything childish they tell you to grow up?

Why are there pictures of the sun wearing sunglasses when the purpose of sunglasses is to protect your eyes from the sun?

Why are boxing rings square?

If hardware overheats, does it turn into software?

If you take Oriental person and spin him several times, does he become disoriented?

Why do crackers have holes not cracks?

Why do mattresses have designs on them when they’re always covered with sheets?

Why don’t the hairs on your arms get split ends?

Do infants enjoy infancy as much as adults enjoy adultery?

Why do we have to pay a toll on “freeways”?

Why do people call a good nap as “baby sleep” when babies wake up every three hours?

Why do we sing “Rock a bye baby” to lull our little ones when the song actually ended up as the wind crash the cradle to the ground?

Why are both Spongebob’s parents round like sea sponges while he is a square like a kitchen sponge?

If 4 out of 5 people SUFFER from chronic heart disease, does that mean the fifth person enjoys it?

[i was out for two months, blogging as a revenge is a dish best served cool. good night. i'll start to make out with my sanctuary tomorrow. haha. :D]

THOUGHT PAPER. :]

2009-09-09T11:27:00.002+08:00

[first exam ko sa social science 1, 9/10. haha]

THOUGHT PAPER 1 - Man and Beyond Man.

“Nothing is constant except change” - Heraclitus. Today, physico-cultural changes exist in the form of technology. It has substantially affected the society, the family and mankind. In this scenario, I can say that human is undoubtedly the most plastic of the living world, the most adaptable, and the most educable since he has coped up with change.

In my point of view, man, being the most complex form of all organisms, is the ruler of the world. Yet, to maintain that post and play his role to survive he should not only adjust to the environment but also dictate the environment what should it be according to his task. Relating what Niccolo Machiavelli’s idea in “The Prince”, a man should do what he has to do as long as it’s for his own good though that would mean degrading and violating other’s rights. He should be a fox to recognize snares, and a lion to shoo away wolves. It’s in the same way that he should familiarize the environment where he dwells but at the same time eliminating those factors that limits its survival. Man’s adaptation is reciprocated to the alteration of society; we adapt because the modification of environment dictates us to do so, but the environment is being modified because of our manipulative actions. It’s ironic but it’s true. Here is an example; due to technology, increasing rate of obesity is manifested among the youth, however technology is essentially considered as a unit for existence. Certain features of our body are brought by the effects of geophysical configurations. Yet, inadvertent and unpremeditated by-products and accelerated environmental hazards are consequences of man’s abusive deeds. There should always be equilibrium on survival and adaptation.

The issue of technology has imposed a gap between people especially in the aspect of communication. We know that any means of communication is a key factor to harmonious society. But as observed, in the development of mobile phones, the ideas being conveyed are misunderstood and not as effective as the personal communiqué. “I love you” is nakakakilig when it is said personally because you can adjudge his sincerity compared to an SMS which is more likely a cliché. Another problem is the increasing rate of unemployment and fiscal crisis. Unemployment occurs when companies invest to machineries and replace the human power. We all know that unemployment pulls down the economic status of a country, and when the economy is at stake, social relationship between countries is significantly affected.

Since the society is affected with the occurrence of change, its basic unit, the family, is involved in that change cyclically. Family is a crucial instrument for the development of personality. It is here that we first become involved in social life, absorb its values and norms of behavior, its ways of thought, language and certain orientations vital in establishing society. When social problems such as economic crisis occur, problems in the family also arise. It includes child labor, child abuse, negligence of duties, battle between siblings, creation of stepfamilies, poor communication etc. Significantly, the problems in family are the main reason of the predicaments the in community. It suffices greater societal dilemmas like murder, theft, etc. Another is the Oedipus or Electra complex, in which the child does not only exhibit parental love but also sexual attachment towards his/her parents opposite to his/her sex. This inflicts the child’s growth and maturity, and at the same time, his/her interaction to the society because it is not acceptable and will just result to discrimination. Remember, the family generates open opinion; it sharpens and polishes the mind and shapes the character and will. Through this a person rises to the level of a personality.

As we realized the interrelatedness of environmental changes, the society, and the family, we should also consider the root of these – man. The nature of man is questioned but we should not argue on it. By this time, it’s not about how we exist that matters, it’s more on why we exist. Man is a sort of super-dense living atom in the system of social reality. He is a concentration of the actively creative standard in this system. Through myriads of impulses, the fruit of people's thought in the past continues to nourish him and, through him, the contemporary culture also.

THOUGHT PAPER. :]

2009-09-09T11:03:00.002+08:00

[exam ko sa social science 1..]

Thought Paper II – Live. Love. Laugh.

Emote: She wears high heels. I wear sneakers. She’s the cheer captain while I’m on the bleachers. Dreaming about someday that somehow when I wake up I’ll realize that what I’m looking for has been her the whole time. But I guess I have to give up that sort of emotion; I believe that it is impossible for me to be loved back by a girl who has been carrying the pressure of the world on her shoulders. It’s the same feeling you can feel when you’re waiting for a ship at the airport.

De•vi•ance [dvee ənss]; noun – different, unusual or unacceptable behavior; behavior that is sharply different from a customary, traditional, or generally accepted standard. Deviance has been the word that had kept us apart. It is simply because people deem that being an emo, I don’t belong to her world and neither does she to mine. But I don’t get it, why do people have to set standards? Why do they have to label her as “perfect” and call me an “error? Earth is a place for everything where everything is in its place. They should understand that we are unique and we have different views, and they should not use that as a boundary to wall two, already distant, things. Instead, they must bridge it. I am invigorated with the fact that behind the shallows and tides in every affair of human, there has been always a positive side. We should view ourselves like dipoles – partially charged positive and partially charged negative. We can’t exist as positively or negatively charged alone. But despite the fact that we are uneven dipoles, there’s that Van der Waals force that binds us to be one – love.

Youth has been susceptible to love. But they should understand that love and making love are two different things. A friend once told me that she does not need to unbutton her shirt to show how she loves someone. That idea has changed the way I scrutinize love. Sex has been the focus of most of the youth today when it comes to love whether we admit it or not. We are fecund and we are about to be fertile. The capability to produce generation is within our reach, within our grasp, within our hands. We often say that “The night is young and so are we”, and we should be able to do and enjoy things while they are fresh for life is short and age might pass us by. For this, we become impulsive when it comes to our decisions. We usually rush into things like not having a second thought of doing such act. I really don’t disagree with the fact of having sex at an early age because it is normal and biological. What should the youth must realize is the verity that we must be conscientious of our act, and we need to be responsible of the things that we have started. I bet that having sex and being pregnant is not a mistake, negligence of the outcome is. It is like ‘wag mong subukan kung di mo kayang panindigan’.

You can drive at 16, go to war at 18. You can drink at 21 and retire at 65. So how old do you have to be before your love is real? Life is short to enjoy love and we should not make it shorter. Death is a thing we can’t escape but we can hasten so let’s be careful of our deeds. Statistics had shown the major causes of death – the fats, smoke, stress, alcohols, accident accountable of carelessness; but most of us don’t really take that seriously. I mean, we subscribe to that feeling that we are going to die if fate dictates so. But if we can sustain life and really wants to enjoy life to the fullest, why don’t we discard that lifestyle? A happy life is far better off than all the cigarettes or bottles of champagne in the world. We should try to see life as a mirror; once it’s broken you can never fix it.

People believe that to die is not to become dead; it is called buli, to return home. Our church had taught us the thought of eternal life. Yet, what if our religion is wrong and when we die we will all regret on why we subscribed to that religion? What if salvation does not exist and our prayers are just soft words being uttered? I am afraid I shall not find Him; but I shall still look for Him, whether if He exists or not. I believe He may be appreciative of my efforts. But I guess it’s wrong for me to doubt my faith and religion; it is not just a thing imposed on me but a thing I had earned all these time. There’s no such article like benefit of the doubt, all you have to do is trust God with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.

It’s absurd why I end up in God’s word from a thought of being an emo. Quite odd, right? But it shows one thing, they’re all correlated to one another. People might not be aware of the relationship of these things but someday, they’ll all realize it. What matters today is to live, love and laugh.

UP Files: agent 2009-03306

2009-09-01T12:14:00.000+08:00

I woke up as my alarm clock started ringing; it must have been a hard time for me to accept the fact that I’m about to start a new chapter of my life. I went to the bathroom and tried to contact anyone of my best buddies to spare a junk of my time. Then I kept thinking that maybe I could still take back the decisions I came to realize and make some petty reasons to procrastinate the day. I can’t imagine myself on a room sitting right beside the panes and waving my hands to my high school, who are now imaginary, friends. But I guess this is the point of no return – no turning back, no second-thoughts, no coward steps. As I drew myself closer to my prospect, I asked myself if what else would enthrall me. I am captivated of the moment that Heraclites must be right, that things are about to change, as fast as they could, as abstemious and sober like we never expected at all, or just a breath away from what we used to live. This makes me wonder how long does it takes to change someone else’s life, what measure should be used in order to be that accurate to define change, or it is just enough to make things and life worth living for. I am quite cynical and skeptical about the word and the world of change. Being an upcoming college student, there are things that I’m already used to. I might be worn out about these things but at least I’m used to it, I haven’t felt any erroneous about it. Now, what if everything would change when I go to college? Change can strike everyone like a lightning. It may hit you in an open field anytime it wants to hit you. But the thing is how you handle it and how you’ll overcome it. I finally reached it. There’s that sort of welcome as the wind lingered on my skin, like a consolation that everything happens for a reason. The chairs seemed to wave on me saying I’m on the right track. It’s odd but I like it. My first class is about to start. Is this really the University of the Philippines or am I just high?

After almost 16 years in a place close to my heart and my comfort zone, in a place called home, I am now brought to an unfamiliar ground. This is what they named as dormitory – a place with no guardians bugging you, no curfews that would make you worry, no house chores that would batter you and the best of all, no set of rules to follow. A dormitory is quite an unusual sight for me. But this is my home for the rest of my days in college; I shouldn’t feel awkward about it. In a dorm, I can stay late as long as I want and browse the net until I drop. I can even drown myself in bottles of beers and liquors if I want to and regurgitate as frequent as I love to. In a dorm, I am entitled with liberation which is limited and sometimes debarred when I’m at home. My parents would require me to sleep and wake up early because I have lots of things to do. I have to sacrifice also Facebook and Friendster because I have to share the internet connection with my siblings. I can’t go home if I’m drunk or else I’ll be emancipated. But I guess, these are insignificant and paltry grounds to choose a dorm over a home. A dorm can never replace the taste of the home foods my mother used to cook just for me when I’m home. It can never drive me to and fetch me from school the way my father always does. I can proudly tell the world that my bed is more conducive for sleeping and have the superpowers to console me when I’m emotionally challenged compared to bunk bed provided by a dorm. Finally, our comfort room really gives you that kind of comfort you ought to deserve unlike the public CR in dorms that I won’t describe further or shall I require you to see it by yourself. Yes, I admit that I am kindled with dorms because I want to be independent but does it really matter at the end of the day? I mean, I’m still going to end up in home, right?

An upcoming college student would define the University of the Philippines as an avenue for learning the vitals of the real world, the current situation of the country and a training ground for the hope of the dilapidating homeland. In the eye of an elementary pupil, it’s the home of the genius, a compilation of the Philippine’s bests and intellectuals. Laymen would eventually associate it with the protests and rallies, revolts and reforms in the country as if all the scholars enrolled here are bound to be activists. For a student taking a degree program in the nation’s prime institution, it’s just a university like any other university. It’s a collection of students who came from different walks of life. Some are jocks, some are badly intelligent. There are loners and there are friend magnets. Some are the future’s next top ramp models; others are the future’s top role models and leaders. But for me, the University of the Philippines is an undefined one. No words can ever define its system. It’s like setting pressure towards its name. There’s no use in putting a simple thought to describe a complex subject. A part can never affirm a whole so as a word that would require all the sentences possible. There are things that shouldn’t be defined because if you do, you’re just painting out a scenario away from what you’re supposed to paint.

College is a great movie - action-packed, full of extra-ordinary performances and breath-taking scenes. This is quite true and it applies to the School of Technology. It’s an indie motion picture shot under the Paho Tree, the sweetest place on earth, and starred by most brilliant and splendid actors in world history; the chemical engineers and the food technologist. The story is about a man named Sotech who starts to make a name in the University of the Philippines, and makes a family of inevitable and unbreakable bond. But like any films, it has villains that undervalues and takes for granted its existence. They are Clovers, Redbolts, Elektrons, Skimmers, Cfos, Tycoons, Scions and Magnates. These scoundrels give spice to the life of Sotech but will eventually teach the lead character to fight and stand on its own. Need more scoops and sneak previews about the movie? Better watch it because I’m petty sure that it is the next big thing.

all here.

2009-06-28T00:20:00.007+08:00

college stuffs i did these past few weeks.

dorm's acquaintance party. God! that was the best party ever. i can't imagine myself wearing clothes i used to wear when i was a kid, then get wild and wet on the dance floor til 4 am. haha. i was a dope there on a knee-leveled short topped with a pink long sleeved polo and a suspender. erg. but still, it's not about what you wear, it's all about what we were that night. so there's this likha thing. it's a talent competition and a team effort. gladly, we won! thanks to them. i was just a bystander there. haha. 'when the cat is away, the mice will play.' yea. that's exactly true. our dorm manager was out and so we were animals that night. tamed animals, of course. i was into this point of desperation to somehow steal the scene, so i stood up in the lounge area, it's a desk actually like in the hotels, and dance. i was not alone, we were two actually. but the oic that night requested us to vacate that area. [how sad :(]. the show went on, so did i.

rotc's second instruction. after the acquaintance party, we hurried up to the covered court for the rotc formation, had i told you that my nstp is rotc and not cwts? okay. now you know. so with eyes closed, mind not on proper set, butterflies turning into dragons inside my stomach, we were still able to attend the second instruction. it was actually great, like the stuffs i used to do in CAT, facing and commands, but imagine, your a vegetable there. being drowsy plus hungry is death. exaggerated, a bit. nywei, we let time pass us by. and tadaa--- time's up. good bye sir. 'sir, yes sir.'

sotech's acquaintance party. i was sick that time. h2n2 actually [naglevel up?? haha]. yet i reconsider because i was the prayer guy. so the theme was a post-summer getaway. i wore an all white attire, with yellow shutter shades and a white vintage beach cap. i'm topped with a sponge bob shirt, paired with a white beach pants. the food was good but waiting for it ain't a virtue anymore. we played games like paint me a picture. our group won one scenario - the exorcism. haha. on our batch presentation, i wish i wasn't there like i can vanish and teleport or make myself invisible. but it happened. haha. then disco til 12. i filed a late permit but i went home early. like what i'd said, i was sick. ahuh-ahuh [coughs*. btw, sotech is my academic org.

rotc's third instruction. waah. the day i won't ever forget. maybe. i was again late for the formation. shaving my beard and mustache is a first time, glad to say it's an aphrodisiac but sad to say it's time consuming. so i was late, and i was given the chance to pick my own punishment. squat thrust [just correct me if i'm wrong with the spelling], i don't know the UP way. push up, i might end up with nothing, no way! pumping, okay.
ed: pumping na lang, sir.
sir: pambabae lang yan.
ed: take it or leave it! sige na, please.
sir: ok.
after that, instructions were given and then the exhausting part. we jogged almost 2 kms around the campus til we reached the covered court and have a physical exercise. passing rate? 40 push ups, 40 curl ups. i tried to pass the push up but i was stucked to 14. i passed curls up. yepee. i thought that was all. but it was just a thought. they still have surprise activities like drills, eating foods we don't know at first because we were blindfolded then finding out it's a banana with catsup, taking off shoes and wearing it again and again. tiresome. zzzzz*.

sotech's group dynamics. in preparation of the strenous activities in the future, we had this group activity. they say that it's away for us to know more of people we are about to work with. foundation day and sports competition are the university's highlight for the first semester. we were grouped into 6 and played a getting-to-know-your-name game. it's all private. i can't blog it. but i won two times in a row with that game. haha. the rest of the story must be a secret. so that would be all. woah*.

more activities in UP's calendar, i'll update you if i have time.
see you.

"say what you want to say, do what you have to do.
be it and i'll leave it all to you."

college life.

2009-06-20T23:40:00.007+08:00

i remember when i joined the pop dance competition way back into my junior years. well, it was actually my first dance competition, aside from cheerdance and folk dance, for school officers are banned to join such competitions. anyways, the title of the dance is "push it" by corbin bleu. as we danced as wild as we could, the only thing that was being puffed on my mind is the fact that we need to dance because it's the only time that we seemed to be less knotty. but, i guess, that ideology was mine and i don't have any idea about what they [my co-dancers kuno :)] think about. and we won the said contest, made the school's last song syndrome, popularized the figure/step.

i guess, you're wondering why i'm in the blogging mode [bragging mode] about that. but it's not like that. i really don't care at all about winning and dancing, but what provoked me to write now is the lyric or line from our contest piece. it says that, "push it. push it to the limit."

i'm currently enrolled in a 5-year course and i'll have to label it because it has a label. toinkx. mkay. so i'm taking up bachelor of science in chemical engineering - an unexpected degree. i've always dreamt of counting paper bills in banks abroad or sitting on an airconditioned office while waiting for someone to approach me and ask me about notarization process. i was admitted in bachelor of arts in political science and i was planning ahead of time to switch to bs accountancy. then, here comes the evil scholarship who ruined the plans of great grandpa eduardo. my interests were not accredited by the scholarship and so i have to be divulged into something to avail it. *sighs. but i believe that somehow i'm destined to love chem eng. it's a mystery and i have to figure it out.

i really hate chemistry. i used to hide my face and my ears in thick books while our chem teacher who was named miley cyrus though she was named after a chemical substance [the hell we care. peace out maam. :)] is in the bridge of her boring concert. i failed also in the eight essential amino acid exams and i just don't find myself within it. but she [our teacher] was one of the reasons why i commit an educational suicide, i didn't choose any fields because i was inspired by the fact that she graduated holding a degree in bs mathematics but she went to school again and studied chemistry. and looking her now, apart from seeing her with whipped chalks on her hair, she is now on her dissertation for her doctorals. see, i can be like her someday if i'll learn to love what i'm holding and taking what is just being served as of the moment.

hmmp. i'm really pushing myself into the limit. after educational suicide, i'm now into social suicide. what would you expect from a promdi in an activist-filled, center of excellence university?? oh God. take my life. just jesting. nywei, i'm not just enrolled in a wrong degree, i'm also enrolled in the wrong school. not that i don't like UP, it was my dream school after all. take note "was". continuation: it feels like it's intimidating and be it. don't drop the fact that you're not solely existing. stepping on the grounds of the great oblation statuesque, is a great decision, i guess. but i had to make a choice and i just did. and i figured out that it would be the best if i won't turn my back. this is the point of no return, i have to swallow my fears. haha. btw, it's an odd feeling, how i hate being here but loving to be labeled as an "isko". it's really a strike. a nerve-cracking one. it just keeps on repeating inside my head like an 'injured' cd - university of the philippines [visayas], one of the homes of the chosen ones. oha.

so now, it turned out that the stuff i hated most, the school i used to dream converges in a single jiffy. i guess this is the so-called karma and i have to love it by hook or by crook. this is not pushing myself into my boundaries, this is discovering that what i thought as my limit is not a limit after all, that i'm not capsulized. for it is the time when we learn to face what we fear most or what we hate most that we know what are ourselves really made of. i'm a bit scared about what lies ahead. i'm hesitant though i'm so desperate. how frustrating!

i'll have to update this site about my current college status, about what i'm into, about what i have to do, about college life itself. that's all for now.

"no matter what i do, what i say, what i believe, i'm bankrupt without love."

uhm, wala ata akong inspirasyon sa ngayon liban sa Diyos at sa aking mga magulang.
sana mayroong dumating o bumalik na aahon sa akin sa kawalang kinatatayuan ko.
the world will fade away, but my song for you remains. :/
good night world.

which tee looks good in me??

i'm planning to order [planning pa lang naman, i might change my mind]. help me naman.

uhm, from sindikatoinc.multiply.com

gusto mo rin buh? astig hindi ba??

speech. :)

2009-06-15T20:58:00.000+08:00

my first speech in UP Visayas.

Good morning.

At this moment, we, the newest set of Iskolar ng Bayan are taking a major switch from our dramatic world of high school to the action-packed, reality-oriented portals of college. College is just a place somewhere in the world. It may look like it’s your world or maybe it’s nothing like it. But, if you’ll look closer, you might see someone like you, someone trying to find his way, his place, and his self. It could be a replica of what you thought of yourself. But whatever it is that we are seeking here in the country’s premiere university, we should instill on our mind that we are here not just to taste what college is but also to take a part of what is it.

For me, being in the University of the Philippines Visayas is both a boon and a bane. Boon, for we are the so-called chosen ones and bane, for the expectations are really stressing us out. It’s absurd to imagine that out of the thousand students who took entrance examination, we are hardly any in here to face the more challenging yet fulfilling college life. This is the real thing and we should make the most of our stay here. We, the freshmen, came from different walks of life. Some are jocks, some are badly intelligent. Some are high school prom queens and kings; others didn’t even go to their school prom. There are loners and there are friend magnets. But I guess, the university doesn’t care much about who we are and who we probably used to be. They are much aware and concerned about who are we going to be years from now and so we should let go of our identity. We can never sail far if we won’t lose the sight of the shore. Anyway, one thing to admire in UP is their capacity to mold our future. When it comes to quality education, there’s nothing to more to ask from this university. What you see is what you get. And I’m sure that our parents made a good investment by sending us here.

Most of us freshmen are still on that homesick mode. Initial feeling, right? After almost 16 years in our comfort zone, we are now brought to unfamiliar grounds and we struggle to cope. But this is our home for the rest of our days in college; we shouldn’t feel ill at ease and tongue-tied. Friends are here to make our stay worthwhile so we’ll have to see them starting today.

Apart from that, we can count on two groups – the first is the upper class. They were right here before and so they can lead and guide us; maybe to the right, where I guess there’s nothing left or probably to the left, where there’s nothing right. We’ve met some on our orientation, and as observed, they let us feel that we are welcome here and we are part of the university. And that’s a good thing to look forward to. Some are familiar to us way back in high school, others are just popular enough that we used to know them by their names, by their faces; nevertheless, there are still lots of faces here we are about to bump along the campus and we should feel free to befriend them. The second group is the university’s personnel, faculty and staffs, it’s early to tell what they look like or what they can do or what they are about to do to us. But I’m quite sure of two things; first, they can really help us, not just in our studies but also on how we will live our life here. Second, I know they’re good because if they’re not, then they’re probably better or the best.

We have so many things to anticipate but let me just share my expectations which some of you expects too. Aside form terrific and stunning teachers, peaceful and conducive place to learn, mile walk from building to the next building, rallies and expressive forums, certified UP activities like the oblation run, meeting new friends, aside from what we are expecting most, we should expect the unexpected. This is UP, and everything is possible.

Finally, I want to end this talk with an inspiring quote from Shakespeare. It says that, “There’s a tide in the affairs of men, which taken on to flood leads on to fortune. Omitted, all the voyage in their life is bound in shallows and in miseries. On such a full sea, we are now afloat and we must take the current when it serves or lose our ventures.” It means that life is too short and opportunities are rare. We have to be vigilant in order to look after them. By this, I mean not only to the opportunities to succeed but the chance to laugh and see the enchanting world. Let’s take every step because time passes us all by one.

We are thankful to the University for their hospitability and the warm welcome they afforded us. It’s nice for us, the freshmen, to feel that we are actually here and we are part of the UP community.

I guess that’s all I can offer. Thank you. Good day and see you when I see you.

boredom.

2009-06-12T01:20:00.000+08:00

1:21 am na pero ang inyong lingkod ay hindi pa rin natutulog.

mukhang pinapagod ang sarili sa kakababad sa magdamagang internet na parang hindi siya nakapaglog-in sa talambuhay niya. pero hayaan na natin si lolo dahil masyado siyang problemado; problemado nga ba siya? o gumamagawa lang siya ng sarili niyang problema? sinong nakakaalam kung ano ang takbo ng kanyang pag-iisip? pero isa lang siguro ang dahilan kung bakit halos ganito siya buong linggo at kung ano man yun, 'believe it or not, just drop it. prying kills a cat, and i hope you're not'. seh. napaenglish ang gago.^^

sa kasalukuyan, maihahambing ko ang aking sarili sa hayden-katrina scandal, o sa a(h1n1), or sa con-ass [or cha-cha wateyber thing na yan]. bakit? pareho kaming may mga isyu. siyempre iba-iba. sa akin, pansarili lamang at hindi yung tipo na ikayayamot ng sambayanan dahil sa pagkalat nito na parang sirang plaka. haha. at ang kaibahan? aside sa parehong nagmula sa mga baboy ang tatlo. haha. [enough. baka masampahan na ako ng kaso sa pinagsusulat ko. feeling:)]. anyway, liban doon. di hamak naman na mas madali itong lutasin. well, ihalintulad natin sa isang algebraic problem, specifically yung kinkailangan ng quadratic formula. unang tingin parang ang hirap, pero madali lang siya yun nga lang masyadong marami ka pang dapat na isolve, dapat unahin para magtapos ka sa tamang sagot [aba, mathematician-wannabe ata.]. at oo, matagal. that's the difference between "hard" and "rigorous" or "exhausting" [at nagyon, parang expert sa linguistics.].

ano nga ba ang problema? ok, magbibigay ako ng sitwasyon. iinom ka ng "wine", ano ang uunahin mo - ang alak o ang yelo? hindi mo pwedeng pagsabayin kasi, dadalawa lang ang kamay mo eh. so kailangan mong pumili, pwede mong unahin ang yelo, tapos isunod ang alak. pwede rin na baliktad. pero ang punto, dapat mayroon kang unahin. sa kaso ko, pwede kong unahin ang alak kaso mukhang useless na siya kasi, unti-unti nang matutunaw ang yelo sa ice bucket o sa kamay ko. kaya ito ang inuuna ko sa ngayon. kasi ang alak, nasa bote naman yan kung talagang paro sayo, diba? di naman yan mawawala. unless, nakawin ng iba or worst, inumin ng iba. pero, siguro nga, hindi kasing dali ng kuwento ng alak at yelo ang kuwento ko. ito ay binubuo ng mga taong mahal ko, ng mga pangarap ko, ng sarili ko.

at sa totoo lang, nasasaktan ako. kasi walang gustong umintindi ng desisyon ko. na kasalanan ko kasi pwede naman ding ipagsabay. well, ikaw siguro makakaya mo, pero ako ay hindi ikaw at ikaw ay kailanma'y hindi magiging ako. nakakapagdagdag lang sa pasanin ko ang mga impresyon na sa katunayan ay hindi ko naman dapat pinapansin pero heto pa rin kasi ako, tao - napapagalaw rin ng emosyon. balang araw, makikita rin nila siguro ang punto ko. but i'm not closing doors to the fact that i might be the one who chose the wrong path. anyways, sinasabi ng ilan na "hindi ko raw siya mahal", bakit, ano bang alam nila sa pagmamahal at isusumbat nila sa akin ang mga katagang iyan? nararamdaman ba nila ang nararamdaman ko sa tuwing kasama ko siya at kapag wala siya? naririnig ba nila ang bawat tibok ng puso kong kumakalabog pagnakikita ko siya? nakikita ba nila ang saya kapag kausap ko siya? kung oo, alam mo bang naging buhay ko na rin siya? kung hindi naman, shut up ka na lang. pls. at ang epal mo para sabihin na sana hindi ko na lang sana inumpisahan para walang masaktan. bakit sino ka ba, ha? sino ka para diktahan ako, kung ano ang iisipin ko? kung ano ang itatakbo ng kuwento ko? kung ano ang dapat kung maramdaman? "palagi ka kasing nakatitig sa mga bagay na gusto mong tingnan, bakit di mo kaya subukang pakinggan ang mga katagang hindi mo pa napapakinggan at mas lalong hindi mo pa nakita? baka sakaling malaman mo kung ano ang dapat mong maramdaman."

at ikaw naman, hindi na ako magsasayang ng load ko para ipaliwanag sa iyo ang lahat. hindi na rin kita kukulitin sa ym at sa friendster. hindi na rin ako magtetext sa cellphone mo, hindi na ako magpaparamdam. pagod na rin siguro ang gagong 'to sa kakahabol sa iyo para makipag-usap. kung ayaw mo, eh di wag. tapos ang kuwento. pero tandaan mo lang sana, na hindi ako nagbago ng pakiramdam, may kinakailangan lang akong unahin. at marahil nga tama ako sa naging desisyon ko, kasi ngayon pa lang, nakikita ko na walang tao na makakapagtimpi sa kung paano ko pinapapagalaw ang mundo ko. at wag mong sabihin na hindi kita minahal dahil sa totoo lang, *wag na lang siguro. wala din naman akong maipagyayabang bilang katibayan baka mapahiya pa ako.

pero hindi naman ako ikaw. marahil nga ay nasaktan kita, at mas marami akong intindihin sa iyo.

haay. nawalan na ako ng naiisip.
masyadong gabi na. aiie. toinkx.
umaga na pala. haha.
manonood ata kami maya-maya sa OWL ng sunrise.
OWL is Ocean Wet Laboratory. [tama ba?]
may dagat kasi doon.
nywei. gutom na ako ngayon.
pringles and fit n right for breakfast.
nagkakahawaan na rin dito ng flu at fever.
next victim ata ako. haha.
paano ba yan?
mukhang inaantok na ako uh.
goodnight na lang :]

naalala mo pa ba?

2009-06-05T22:45:00.003+08:00

kilala mo ba ang mga sumusunod?

si ginang proyekto-niyo-ibubulsa-ko
na mas kilala rin bilang si ginang self-explanatory-aklat-niyo.

si ginang basa-aklat-kain-chippy
na pwede mo ring tawaging ginang bantayan-mo-anak-ko-kasi-may-sipon.

si ginoong box-your-answer-and-wag-hawak-bolpen
pero bantog rin bilang ginoong absent-muna-ako.

si ginoong tago-sa-clearance-period
na nasa katauhan rin ni ginoong study-kayo-nosebleed-exam-ko.

si ginang any-questions?-yan-kasi-di-nakikinig!
na pwede ring tawaging ginang top-five-sa-harap-mag-upo.

si ginang role-play-lang-exams-niyo
na alyas ginang jan-lester-iguhit-mo-mukha-ko.

si ginang libre-ko-kayo-basta-sikreto
na may bansag ring ginang bayad-kayo-library-fee-niyo.

si ginang gupit-ko-mahabang-buhok mo
o si ginang study-kayo-ganito-chapter-dahil-quiz-ako.

si ginoong wag-niyo-na-akong-igreet
na pwede ring ginoong walk-ako-dalawang-beses.

si ginoong makata-kamukha-ako-ni-rizal
na tinatawag rin ginoong kailangan-ko-iskrip-ninyo.

si ginang pagurin-niyo-kamay-niyo-kakasulat
na sikat rin bilang ginang saulado-ko-ang-tinuturo-ko.

si ginang ukay-ukay-pero-fashionista
na maaari din naming ginang dancing-queen-at-cheerleader.

si ginang bura-ko-chalk-gamit-kamay-ko
na kilala ng mga estudyante na ginang makinig-kayo-sa-concert-ko.

si binibining bawal-ako-tawa-malakas
na may alyas rin na binibining sayaw-ako-pero-back-up-lang.

si ginang crush-ko-si-rey
na tinatawag ring ginang mababa-exam-niyo-kaya-wala-smem.

narinig mo na ba ang mga nakakatuwa, makabagbag-damdamin, nakakatakot at nakakaiyak na mga kataga gaya ng sumusunod?

“you want forgiveness? then you’re forgiven. now go!”

“auza, you’re the mastermind. xerxes, you’re a traitor!”

“gusto mo sir ikaw ihaboy ko sa basurahan?”

“ayoko sa mga mango, i’m telling you frankly. damn it. olayt?”

“walang magsagot? walang magsagot? puwes lahat tayo!”

“mr. alido, you’re so HOT.’

“diba class, diba? sabi na nga diba. tama naman talaga diba? diba??’

“copyright. to write the wrong.”

“ti sige eh. 16 kung 16.”

“imu tanan itsura ba! daw ikaw tag-iya sang school paper.”

“ooh. stripes mania!”

“bruno, magbigay ka ng intermission number sa mga kabatch mo.”

student: “mam, may klase ta?”; teacher: “gusto mo may ara aw?”

“yung room niyo tapsitorvee [topsy-turvy].”

“hindi ako igat!”

“bal-an ko man nga ginatawag ko ninyo tupperware buh.”

“hindi ko magklase, basta hindi niyo lang paghambal nga wala ta kamo ginaklasehan!”

“guys, dapat magkaroon na kasi ng unity ang batch natin. makinig naman kayo guys.”

“ako ang bida ngayon – [interruption] thanks. students, let’s see each other next year.”

“mga pan-os nga langaw daw ta? sila gani daw may kanser. with wings japun uh!”

“lahat ng below sa passing score, tayo kayo dun sa likod sa buong period ko.”

“the merror.”

kung wala ka talagang maalala sa mga katagang iyon, siguro ay nandiyan pa rin ang alaala ng mga:

*calean scandal [gross.]
*sleep-over kina niña [3rd yr acquaintance party]
*sleep-over kina tin-tin [4th yr acquaintance party]
*sleep-over kina edwin [2nd js promenade]
*inuman sa nagnal [3rd yr Christmas party]
*open-forum noong second year
*nalate sa forum ng brain train
*nahulihan ng baraha at kinausap ng prefect of discipline
*umiyak sa faculty room [3rd yr hayskul day]
*normal na pag-aaway ni jue at edwin sa pagplano ng sayaw
*out-reach program sa gawad kalinga village
*1st tuka adventure at paliligo sa falls [daw.]
*2nd tuka adventure na nadisgrasya sa motor sila pj, tin at mike
*naligo sa kapingkong dam
*naglaro ng siyatong at patintero
*walang katapusang iyakan sa retreat
*farewell party sa aguacito
*pagpapaiyak sa mga interns
*search for the bebotilicious [joule]
*ang website ng mendelandia
*bagsakan sa calculus at physics
*removal exams sa research biology at biology
*first and last drill ng mga elements sa CAT
*pagwasak sa mga kasangkapan sa laboratoryo
*isang araw na research at investigatory project
*pagtulog sa sahig kung tanghali [3rd yr bago ang PEHM]
*pagtotorch parade ng basang-basa sa ulan
*pagskip ng klase sa research physics at deretso sa kainan
*debate sa rap sa Christmas party [4th yr]
*pagtulog habang kinukuwento ang ‘the mirror’
*pagganap bilang lumnay at awiyao sa ‘the wedding’
*pagpatay ng ilaw sa klase sa values na may multo raw [2nd yr]
*sos, twaylayt at ang walang kwentang hayskul layp [joke lang]
*hindi nakakapagklase sa social studies dahil sa el cuerpo
*nakitang hinimatay si niña dahil sa di malamang dahilan.
*nagdadala ng mga sapatos sa computer room
*nag-aayos ng sarili habang nagtatakip ng ilong sa CR
*at higit sa lahat, ang samahang all for one, one for all!

kung OO, ikaw nga!
marahil ay kasangga ka ng mga nagsipagtapos sa poly 2008-2009.
at dahil diyan, tinatatawagan ka ng republika ng BOYLE!

miss ko lang talaga kayo.
wala na akong maggawa sa buhay ko. ;c

i'll be waiting for you.

2009-05-26T17:09:00.004+08:00

this is a nonsense post. i repeat - nonsense.

but while reading this, just listen and put in the comment box the english line on the track currently playing.

bob ong once wrote -
"pakawalan mo ang mga bagay na makakasakit sayo kahit na pinapasaya ka nito. huwag mo nang hintayin yung araw na sakit na lang ang nararamdaman mo at tuluyan kang iwanan ng kasiyahan mo."

now, judge me. am i that bad to make things so complicated?
btw. how complicated is complicated?

--end.

Time.

starlight tears

the white starlight wraps around my tears

my tears fall against the warm breeze

can you feel it?

the quiet trembling for you.

i draw you on white paper

your warm smile envelopes me is this love?

i see you even when I close my eyes.

i will be waiting for you

i will wait for you

i wont show my tears any longer

you let me know about this false love

i wont let go because it's you.

i'm walking through our memories

tears well up in my heart

what should I do?

i even long for you in my dreams.

i will be waiting for you

i will wait for you

i wont show my tears any longer

you let me know about this false love

i wont let go because it's you.

look at me like the stars in the sky

can't you be the one in my heart.

i will be waiting for you

i will wait for you

i wont show my tears any longer

you let me know about this false love

i wont let go because its you.

what are you?

2009-05-22T11:15:00.004+08:00

•are you a carrot? an egg? or a coffee bean?

in our study improvement session, still at dost summer orientation and enrichment program, we are asked first if how well do we know ourselves. and then, she asked everyone else if fate favors us to be a carrot, an egg, or a coffee bean, what would we be and why?

then she showed up a presentation. we read it and i’ll share with you what have i learned from the session.

a young girl asked her father what’s the difference between people. her father had her at the table then he pick a casserole and put it on fire. he then pour a boiling water into the casserole and one by one lay into it the carrot, the egg and the coffee bean. he told her daughter to cover the casserole and be back after sixty minutes.

twenty minutes had passed and the daughter asked her father what does it means. the father replied – haven’t you noticed the changes? these three will characterize the difference between people. they were all put into the same instance, same adversity, same temperature and same boiling water. the carrot turned squashy and spongy. the egg seemed to break its shell and became a hard-boiled egg. the coffee bean vanished but it is still there, the aroma, the color and it turned the boiling water into a coffee.

the young girl was curious and retorted – so? does that makes people differ father? i mean, what would the carrot and the egg and the coffee bean have to do with people? is it what they eat most? or what they prefer to it?

the father reacted – no, dear. the carrot, the egg and the coffee bean are the people. life comes at us rushing from out of the darkness and when it does, we struggle to find the courage to face it. it is when we are in test we discover truly who are we and find out who can we be.

are you a carrot?

- the ones who seemed to be so strong, well-built and sturdy but once tested and put into life’s difficulty will drastically turned into yielding ones. these are the ones who pretend to be enormous, as if no one could ever defeat them and put them down but they are just dead serious fooling their selves knowing that they are just pretending. they are easily worn out and let the challenges make them weak.

are you an egg?

-the ones who seemed to be on their comfort zone, the weaklings and the soft-hearted but when examined into massive harsh conditions would find out that they can be as strong as anyone else and come up beyond their shells. these are the fragile ones, they are always put into test. people look at them as scrawny and unable to fight for their selves. but when you reach their boiling point, they will suddenly evolve into someone afar from every expectation. they learn to fight back when they have to.

or are you a coffee bean?

-the kind of persons that would change the adversity as something that could be a part of them, that would be positive and look every difficulty as a form of ordeal to make them stunning. these are the ones who are capable of changing the world. they have the solutions to make things better when they are tested. they don’t fight back, they just let the disputation pass by and be who they are until such disputation become its strength.

if i’ll ask you now, what would you be – a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?

•why do you exist?

2009-05-21T11:29:00.003+08:00

•why do you exist?

i was very anxious of what am i going to answer in this question after it was asked on our English class in dost. i told everyone that i exist because i think. i think of God and so i exist because He wants me to exist and He wants me to think of Him. i sat down and tossed down a couple of air. i was into my ceiling and i just conversed of what i’m thinking of as of that moment. i was vague of my own existence and i guess that is totally right – not that i don’t exist because God wants me to, but there is really something wrong about how i look at my existence. i was a bit hysterical, confused and hazy later on that day until i realized things i should have mentioned that day.

i exist because i want to exist, aside from the fact that God wants me to. i exist because that would only be the greatest thing i could ever do for everyone – to be there when they suddenly realize that they need me right then. i really don’t have any idea why do i have to exist but all i know is i want to exist.

i fear that someday i would be asked by the same question and i’ll have to put a question mark on my hand and spank it to my head. i am uncertain of what lies ahead. the future is skewed, it changes as seconds pass by. who knows that i exist to assassinate someone? it’s a bit too early, i guess, to tell that i exist for this definite reason. i don’t want to be embarrassed someday in front of all eyes in the judgment day and looking back to the day i answered the issue of why do i exist, i’ll have to ask myself – what the fcuk have i done to myself?

all i know is i want to exist for me to find out what my existence is bound for.

i missed the old days. ;[

do you miss it too?

vitamin c's burtdei. ♥

2009-05-11T10:06:00.009+08:00

you can drive at 16,
go to war at 18.
you can drink at 21,
and retire at 65.
so how old do you have to be before your love is real?
-mr. james; one tree hill, season 2, episode 2.

so today is may 11, 2009. and you might have forgotten me for a while. but that’s a good thing though, seeing you happy, almost perfect, less problematic of our situation. well, what do i have to say? uhm. i know this day would be great if you’ll just let me out of your mind for a while. so can i ask you a favor? please get me out of your head.

that sounds rude, right. as if i’m very confident. but i know that i’ve been freaking out lately. i’ve been so callous and irresistible about the two of us. it’s just that i don’t want you to miss me more, for you to ask me to be at your side everytime you need me or want to talk to me. coz if you keep on being that, hell, i’ll cross the seas and skies just to be there. i don’t want you to suffer coz that makes twice the impair for me. i don’t want you to solely rely on the two of us for the mean time. i love to hear those words – that you miss me, on how you wish i could be there today, and i love to say that i miss you too and how i badly want to be there too. but that’s the saddest part of all, those words that we love much just impair us, just make us weak, just make us bear the ache. and i don’t want that to happen. i don’t want to spoil every moment of our lives. i want to make you happy coz seeing you that makes me happy too, even if it would mean that i should sacrifice a part of what i really want – you. it’s like that the more you are in contact with the one you love, the more it becomes concealed.

people leave. they leave for one day they’ll have to come back. i don’t want to leave you coz it tears me up inside. but i have to. i want you to be strong coz you’re my strength after all. just keep the faith burning. i’ve had the whiff of you in my head, and i guess it will probably be there forever. but like the aromas of every perfumes, it grows fainter as time goes by unless you have it once again. i’ve grown incredibly and startlingly desensitized, and if i’m away from you for a jiffy, i’ll have to let pass the scent. that will be harder. love never fades, it’s the complications that ruins the whole story. but if you’ll look at it anyway, love is still the way it was. Shakespeare wrote that love is not love which alters when it finds alteration. it’s constant. i hope we are, too.

maybe, i’m just too scared to admit that i don’t want to lose you. i don’t want you to grow tired of loving me but i don’t want you also to suffer the consequences of loving me. let’s stop bothering about tomorrow, let’s enjoy and make the best out of what we have today. i can wait forever. and i’ll have to do my best for you to stay.

hmp. it’s been so yesterday. yesterday, we both held each other’s hand. yesterday, we kept on talking about how good the life God has given us. yesterday, we shared our problems and worries, comfort each other, cry on the phone, and laugh at it. it seems to be yesterday, when i first and lastly kissed your cheeks; when i cried because i wasn’t your first dance at my last acquaintance party; when i was happy seeing you dancing on your first and my last prom; when we showed off that jack shirt on the recent high school day; when we first talked about our status, my third year rejoicing intramurals; when you recorded a song which used to be my ring tone; when you cried for gastric ulcer when we’re in kidapawan city and how much i want to help you but i can’t; when we last cuddled each other’s presence. all seems to be just the day before today.

and in all of those days, i forget to ask myself, who are you?

it sucked that the only thing i know is i love you.

on this day onward, i’ll have to little by little figure out everything about you, aside from the fact that you really like green, that you love to see white flowers (natural and not artificial like soap flowers ;]), that you’re into photography, that you sleep at research bio or environmental science class and wake up when sir valdez asks you to, that you hate people tease you that you speak like a child even if that’s quite true, that you love mr. bean and had memorized all the scenes – live or animated series, that you’re into secondhand serenade’s awake and your call, that you want a crocs, that you want a lens for your digital camera, that you love to play guitar, that you had a great crush with piolo pascual and now with john lloyd cruz, that your favorite subject is values because you’re good at it, that you love dancing but you’re afraid to admit it, that you had a great singing talent like your sister, that you are more beautiful with straight hair, green skinny jeans and tee shirts, that you can’t sleep at night because you love to sleep at daytime, that you hate the SBO governor s.y 2008-2009, that you like Korean, that you loved spring waltz (i don’t know if you still love it), that you love to share chocolates with your friends, that you love to fool me and anyone else, that you’re not allowed to have a boyfriend, that you’re hard-headed because you disobey your parents for that rule, that you can’t cross four-lane streets without someone to help you, that you hate being alone, that you had a good penmanship like an architect, that you love bags courtesy of hmmn inc., that you love your green bag, that you hate math, that you see a mirror everytime you want to cry just to avoid it, that your phone billed more than 3k these late months, and what else? that you love me. lolx.

there’s a lot to be discovered and it will take me years to finally complete your puzzled personality. you’re a mystery and that’s much for me to contain.

on this day, i wish you all the best that you could probably ever have – good relationship with God, your family and to everyone else. i want you to take good care of yourself, don’t skip meals even though you feel like you’re full. i wish that you’ll be a successful individual someday, that you’ll soar up high and people would be proud of you. i want you to make good of your grades on your final year, and at the same time enjoy the company of your friends. i want you to be happy and live your life to the fullest – grab every opportunity that would make you better and give your best like it would be the last. i wish that may all of your dreams be granted.

i love you and that’s the way it is. i love you and i guess i will always. no matter what i say, what i believe, and what i do, i’m bankrupt without love for only three things continue forever – faith, hope and love and the greatest of these is love. loving you always leaves a legacy.

there are no shortcuts to maturity. everything takes time.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Vitamin C - Charlene Mosquera Galenzoga.

ps. pakikuha na lang kay hani ang simple gift ko. it speaks a lot bout who you are. i hope you’ll like it. i’m sorry i have to give it via courier. i wish i could personally greet you a happy natal day. mwuah. ;[

letter to my nanay.

2009-05-10T17:14:00.001+08:00

+++send this letter to my nanay+++

Victor Hugo wrote in Les Miserables – “He who does not weep, does not see.”

Well, this is not about sobbing for having bumbling homesick right now. Neither that I need extra money or any requirements in school, that’s why I happened to be so blogging in this jiffy. I presuppose that you almost forget what the day today is, or what’s the hurry to celebrate, or else you might be reading this tomorrow (Monday on your office if your internet connection is not sabotaged). I mean, seeing you in your office, sinking in ledgers, or drowned to keeping cash not belonging to either the two of us or even the family, or just seeing your nerves and veins as you reprimand them (since i’m here, i’m guaranteed to be excempted) on their wrong deeds and act, would you still bother to look at your calendar anyway?

Mkay. Today is the day for the superwoman – oops! I forgot that you don’t wear undies outside your clothes like wonderwoman or darna, so that won’t make you superman anyway. LOL :] (laughing out loud yan.). But though you can’t qualify for the superhero mom/nanay thing, you’ll surely be my wondermom and the best nanay that i could ever have. Saying this includes the package deal – the nagging moments, alarm clock voice first hour in the morning and unreasonable litanies. But nanay would always be like you, just caring though it seems to be hovering. Like any other nanay, you always look after the best of what we could ever be and the best that we could ever have. But unlike them, aside having you own friendster account, you always try to see to it that we are on the proper positions to look after ourselves. Independence, after all, is the greatest thing for us teens but it stills means nothing without you. And i’m quite sure that you never lacked proverbs and quotations for us to be better individuals. Sometimes, you feel like we don’t really care or listen at all to what you’re saying, but i tell you, i’ve even memorized your lines. I’m on my own right know but that doesn’t mean that I don’t need you and tatay. If fate favors me one day to have a single day with another nanay, I would never ever have a second-thought of declining the offer, coz you will always be the best nanay ever, by hook or by crook, for better or for worse.

So at this point, I want you to hear (I mean, read) 8 letters. 8 letters and this would be over.

First, t-h-a-n-k-y-o-u, for everything you did for people to see me this good, and I’m proud to say that I have the better view of the world for I am standing in the shoulders of the giants (that’s you, tatay and God). This word is too short to contain all I’m about to say but just allow me to gratify all your sacrifices and hardworks, for providing us our daily needs though the world seems to be playful of that, because they deserve a worthy thank you.

Second, i-a-m-s-o-r-r-y. I just want to apologize for my shortcomings, back fighting, and answering in an improper way, for causing you too much pain and too much disturbance. Aside from that, I know I’ve committed lots of mistakes that failed your expectations, but there you are again, right there when i needed you the most and when the world turns their crying shoulders.

Last is i-l-o-v-e-y-o-u. Though it took so long for you to hear (read nga pala.) this phrase, this would always be the best word for the best nanay. I might not be vocal about this but I’m not insensitive about it.

Life is too short, you should enjoy it. Think as much as you can of yourself for thinking now is not thinking always.

BTW (that’s by the way.) you’re doing great with your son named ‘edwin’. ^^

Happy mother’s day!

cuddles and smooches,
eduardo latino.

ps: codename ko na nay. basi isipon mo nga drama lang ni. pero tuod guid ni ya. pati lang baya. halong lang kamo dira kay ginapray taman kamu diri. God bless our family.

ps-to the second power: keep this letter to yourself.♥

LDR? wtf!

2009-05-09T16:34:00.001+08:00

[now playing: i’ll never go by erik santos; time check, 31 minutes passed the hour of 4.; this post is brought to you by kristine’s laptop; and this is your dj eduardo latino saying that life is very boring. erg.]

long distance relationship? not a good topic.

that’s the main reason why 90% of distant couples never last [or if they still in good terms, had a fight-and-kiss-and-make-up kinda thing]. no one takes the issue seriously. it’s like most of them believe that if they are not meant to be, then be it. but come on. love is a choice and not a feeling anymore. people disregard the fact that love should be sustained in a way both parties ought to have. they say that love is joined at the hip by distance. but who knows? who can tell? love and life is a long journey, it might be too early to judge how you’ll gonna end up the story. [point of order – almost out of the topic.].

so, back to the LDR, third parties or lack of trust? which comes first? well, for me, when you lack reliance and conviction to your partner, you start to doubt her/his love. this doubt will little by little eat you until such time you’ll be blind to what’s really the truth behind these uncertainties. and when you let yourself believe these qualms, third parties comes into the scene. mkay, example. you begin to suspect that she/he is in someone else’s arm. that could be probably a falsity but then, since you had reservations, you only trust your instincts. you disregard the situation and the genuine. you heave away her/his explanation. and because of that, a certain proverb applies – ‘if others can do, why can’t i?’. and without further verification that she/he is cheating on you, you’ll start to put in mind that you’ll have to start cheating on her/him too. the making-him/her-jealous move.

but it could be the opposite. it’s like you hate to admit that you’re about to fall for someone. and by that you start to tell her lies – that you still love her and that would never fade. let’s think the way bob ong thinks – ‘kung dalawa ang mahal mo, piliin mo ang pangalawa, kasi di ka magmamahal ng pangalawa kung mahal mo talaga ang nauna’ [that’s not the real text but the thought are almost the same].that’s the breach of trust and will eventually result to willful abandonment of relationship. either way you lose. you still have to hurt two parties. but i tell you, in a distant relationship, your feeling is more likely a superficial feeling. that’s unfair. you are in contact almost everyday with that someone else and so your emotions are subject to change upon isolation. i mean, you think that you’re in love but that’s a thought. yet, who can tell which is which? to whom do you offer that phony desires? to whom do you truly give your heart and soul?

long-distance relationship is a trivial and one-dimensional thing to talk about. but the bottomline is, love will last as long as you know how to commit to someone you think is the right for you.

on niña's birthday.

2009-05-04T18:07:00.001+08:00

Don’t associate with people you can’t trust.
Don’t cheat. Don’t lie. Don’t pretend.
Don’t dictate because you are smarter.
Don’t demand because you are stronger.

Don’t sleep around because you think you are old enough & know better.
Don’t hurt your kids because loving them is harder.
Don’t sell yourself, your family, or your ideals.
Don’t stagnate!

Don’t regress.
Don’t live in the past. Time can’t bring anything or anyone back.
Don’t put your life on hold for possibly Mr. Right.
Don’t throw your life away on absolutely Mr. Wrong because your
biological clock is ticking.

Take care of yourself. Don’t wait for someone to take care of you.
You light up your life.
You drive yourself to your destination.
No one completes you - except YOU.

When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your
life that you’ll never get back.
Your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give to
someone is your time.
Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love is
T-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do or
provide for others, but how much we give of ourselves.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY nheenia nickole.

pac you, hatton!

2009-05-03T11:36:00.005+08:00

flash news:

erg. manny pacquiao di lang man pinagpawisan!

hatton, bagsak sa round two. haha. :]

project in english.
by edwin john alido.

THE EVOLUTION OF TERRORISM

“The public's perception of personal risk, however, often does not fit together with the observable dimensions of the terrorist threat. “

Terrorism has occurred throughout history for a variety of reasons. Its causes can be historical, cultural, political, social, psychological, economic, or religious—or any combination of these. Some countries have proven to be particularly susceptible to terrorism at certain times. Terrorist violence escalated precipitously in those two countries for a decade before declining equally dramatically. Other countries have proven to be more resistant, and have experienced only a few isolated terrorist incidents.

In general, democratic countries have provided more fertile ground for terrorism because of the open nature of their societies. In such societies citizens have fundamental rights, civil liberties are legally protected, and government control and constant surveillance of its citizens and their activities is absent. In broad terms the causes that have commonly compelled people to engage in terrorism are grievances borne of political oppression, cultural domination, economic exploitation, ethnic discrimination, and religious persecution. Perceived inequities in the distribution of wealth and political power have led some terrorists to attempt to overthrow democratically elected governments. To achieve a fairer society, they would replace these governments with socialist or communist regimes. Finally, some terrorists are motivated by very specific issues, such as opposition to legalized abortion or nuclear energy, or the championing of environmental concerns and animal rights. They hope to pressure both the public and its representatives in government to enact legislation directly reflecting their particular concern.

At the same time, for every terrorist success, there are the countless failures. Terrorism is designed to threaten the personal safety of its target audience. It can tear apart the social fabric of a country by destroying business and cultural life and the mutual trust upon which society is based. Uncertainty about where and when the next terrorist attack will occur generates a fear that terrorism experts call “vicarious victimization.” A common response to this fear is the refusal to visit shopping malls; attend sporting events; go to the theater, movies, or concerts; or travel, either abroad or within one’s own country.

THE ALARMING RATE OF UNEMPLOYMENT IN THE PHILIPPINES

The rate of unemployment in the country rises around .2% each year and currently having 9.8% for this year. This is alarming because it implies that other economic indicators were less favorable. A population growth rate of 3.5 percent nullified most of the gain in economic growth. Cost of consumer goods went up, though the government tried to hold the line on the prices of rice, corn, sardines, corned beef, and milk. Wages lagged behind prices. A rice shortage kept the public in a state of uneasiness. Unemployment remained a problem, and the poor were in need of low-cost housing. The success of decontrol measures created optimism among businessmen, but they worried about the future. They were uneasy about tariff, tax, and investment policies.

Unemployment, enforced idleness of wage earners who are able and willing to work but cannot find jobs. In societies in which most people can earn a living only by working for others, being unable to find a job is a serious problem. Because of its human costs in deprivation and a feeling of rejection and personal failure, the extent of unemployment is widely used as a measure of workers' welfare. The proportion of workers unemployed also shows how well a nation's human resources are used and serves as an index of economic activity. The economic position of the Philippines may be said to have gradually deteriorated. Import controls were not sufficiently effective and it was doubly difficult to enforce them in an election year. Imports continued to exceed exports, sometimes at a ratio of almost two to one, and reserves were seriously depleted.

Building continued at a boom level but the entire economic structure was inflationary. Wage increases did not keep pace with rising living costs and there was some unemployment. The influx of foreign capital did not come up to expectations. Industrialization continued to be an emphasized goal, but in many cases projects had to rely upon imports of machinery and even raw materials to get under way. This situation actually hurt the trade balance position.

SCIENCE AND TECHNOLOGY: THE SOLUTION TO MAN’S PROBLEM

Indeed, the concept that science provides the ideas for technological innovations and that pure research is therefore essential for any significant advancement in industrial civilization is essentially a myth. Most of the greatest changes in industrial civilization cannot be traced to the laboratory. Fundamental tools and processes in the fields of mechanics, chemistry, astronomy, metallurgy, and hydraulics were developed before the laws governing their functions were discovered. The steam engine, for example, was commonplace before the science of thermodynamics elucidated the physical principles underlying its operations.

In recent years a sharp value distinction has grown up between science and technology. Advances in science have frequently had their bitter opponents, but today many people have come to fear technology much more than science. For these people, science may be perceived as a serene, objective source for understanding the eternal laws of nature, whereas the practical manifestations of technology in the modern world now seem to them to be out of control.

Technology is classified into two – the appropriate and inappropriate. A classic example of inappropriate technology is that of tractors provided for agriculture in Africa. The necessary infrastructure and specialized skills to keep the tractors maintained were largely lacking, so that after a short period the tractors became heaps of rusting material. A second example is a project that introduced an automated factory to produce plastic sandals. The traditional sandal makers were put out of work, the raw material had to be imported, and, though economic growth according to conventional measurements occurred, poverty increased. Examples of successful appropriate technologies are small-scale hydroelectric facilities in Nepal, Wales, and Peru. Energy-efficient cooking stoves in Kenya and Sri Lanka provide employment for the producers, and save time and money for the users; food-processing courses in Bangladesh include not only the technical aspects of food processing, but the packaging and marketing of products.Today there is a fierce contest between the proponents of high technology and those who increasingly support the appropriate technology approach. Advocates of appropriate technology argue that the high-consumption way of life of the richer countries must be abandoned, and appropriate technologies must be adopted in place of those that increase unemployment and damage the environment.

FIRST STEP TO WORLD PEACE

In attempting to prevent war, peacemakers must achieve four principal goals. A climate of feeling favorable to peace must be established; the potential causes of conflict, inherent in such factors as economic competition, the quest for power, and fear of foreign domination, must be eliminated or minimized; means for the settlement of disputes must be provided, as in mediation, arbitration, and trial procedures; and, finally, ways must be found to ensure observance of the settlements that are made. Several distinctive approaches to achieving these goals have been advanced.

Many other international peace organizations also continue to exist. The greatest impetus to pacifism in modern times was the development and use of nuclear weapons at the close of World War II. Faced with the possibility of total nuclear war, many previously uncommitted individuals joined pacifists throughout the world in working for a ban against the production of nuclear weapons, for the cessation of the testing of such weapons, and for the disarmament of those nations already possessing them.

Less absolute antiviolence advocates other codes of behavior. Some pacifists bar the use of force and urge moral persuasion but also encourage passive resistance to achieve their goals. Two examples of this approach are the resistance offered to British rule in 20th-century India and the civil disobedience of American civil rights activists. Critics of this view contend that even passive resistance provokes frustration, resentment, and further oppression on the part of an aggressor.

Many peace lovers believe that peace can be maintained only by a readiness to use force in certain circumstances, usually characterized as defensive. One approach permits armed defense against attack, but not assistance to other nations being attacked. Proponents of the theory of collective security urge a defensive combination of peace-loving nations against violators of the peace. If such a policy is not to result merely in a system of rival alliances, it must be implemented by international machinery that is able not only to make settlements but to enforce them as well.

[wala lang. wala kasi akong maggawa eh. erg.]

swift change.

2009-05-02T00:03:00.000+08:00

[my last post i guess. :c]

so, you'll probably start reading this while my alarm clock start ringing, or i'm in the bathroom shedding tears for an emotional goodbye, or eating my breakfast talking with my sister [when i say talking, i mean arguing, yelling or the worse thing that could ever happen - stabbing knife on each other back? not a good idea.], or maybe my gums are currently bleeding as i brush my teeth, or i'm on my way to the airport and the vehicle malfunctioned, or i'm on the plane sitting right beside the panes and slowly looking at the port waving my hands to my imaginary friends, or the flash news reported that a plane crashed and only eduardo latino died in the said accident, or i survived the plane and have myself hit by a bus in iloilo city, or i'm having a sleep on my aunt's house and feel like i'm an outcast pariah, or maybe tomorrow when i'm busy cheering for hatton to be knocked out by pacman, or the next day as i visit and try to appeal for my request of degree program, or maybe next week, next month, or next year. but if you happen to check this post the next decade, i want you to be reminded that i wrote it yesterday afternoon and scheduled it first hour this morning.

today as i woke up, i asked myself if what else would enthrall me tomorrow. as if i am captivated of the moment that heraclitus must be right, that things are about to change, as fast as they could, as abstemious and sober like we never expected at all, or just a breath away from what we used to live. this makes me wonder how long does it takes to change someone else’s life, what measure should be used in order to be that accurate to define change, or it is just enough to make things and life worth living for. could it be four years of listening to the senseless world of numbers? could it be a year of seating in your armchair then wait for the bell to signify that the school year is over? can your life change in a month or a week with a friend to hold and tell you they have to go coz it’s getting dark? a single day of staring your girlfriend with her friends being happy, would it be enough? can your life change in an hour of writing posts about change? but i’ll bet that a skip of a minute would change everything. change, change, change.

mr. webster defines change as alteration, variation, or modification, or the result of this. and so? nywei, webster was never been wrong so i’ll have to say that he is right.

there are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at crossroads – afraid, confused, without a road map. but once in a while, we tend to choose a better path. we push ourselves into something better - something found just beyond the feeling of going alone or something just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone else in or to give ourselves the second chance to start it all over again, something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. because it’s only when you’re in test that you’ll truly realize and discover who you are and what are you made of, and it’s only when you’re tested that you can find out what you can be. the person you want to be really does exist, somewhere on the other side of hardwork and faith and belief and beyond heartache and fear of what lies ahead.

i am quite cynical and skeptical about the word and the world of change. being an upcoming college student, there are things that i’m already used to. i might be worn out about these things but at least i’m used to it, i haven’t felt any erroneous about it. now, what if everything would change when i go to college? can i adopt the instant change? would it be positive for me and for my emotional growth or would it be the other way?

change can strike everyone like a lightning. it may hit you in an open field anytime it wants to hit you. but the thing is how you handle it and how you’ll overcome it.

what in the world might i be thinking??

i can wait forever.

2009-05-01T13:15:00.007+08:00

You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So i try to find the words that i could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away
And I cant lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just cant take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

You look so beautiful today
It's like every time I turn around I see your face
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, I wish that I could stay
And I cant lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just cant take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

I know it feels like forever
I guess that's just the price I gotta pay
But when I come back home to feel your touch
Makes it better
Till that day
Theres nothing else that I can do
And I just cant take it
I just cant take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But i can wait
I can wait forever (I can wait forever)
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever
I can wait forever
I can wait forever..

couch potato.

2009-04-30T15:02:00.008+08:00

mkay. the couch potato thing.

just this noontime break, i watched the devil wears prada starring anne hathaway, meryl streep and [kindly fill this section with the rest of the cast]. so, frankly, i enjoyed watching the show. and i have, again, few things to share and impart from the movie.

--- life is filled with regrets, regrets of different shapes and sizes. some are small, like screwing up just to see stuffs going alright at the end. some are medium-sized, like doing something good for yourself and realizing eventually that you have been so selfish all this time and you want to turn things back the way they used to be. but the biggest and greatest of all are the things you need to do but you declined because you are scared and probably afraid to take the risk.
yet, you have always two option. to proceed or just ignore it. in choosing tracks, you have to reconsider always what will make you happy and what will make an impact to modify your visions. life is actually great when you finally had mind that you want your life to be great.---

so, i'm having my own countdown. as if i'll be going to a faraway place and i'm bound to a point of no return. but that always make a sense. i mean, i may not be in that situation after all, but it gives me the idea of what kind of feelings am i going to encounter in the near future. who knows? lil eduardo might got homesick and will shed tears as he comes home.

pictures tell-all

that would be all. bye. :]

songs of the day.

2009-04-29T11:51:00.003+08:00

i had the best sleep for this week. no stress, no assignments and office works, no yells and for the shortest time, no pending circling thoughts to think about. well, that's actually great. i can't be a zombie nor vampire for the rest of my fcuking life. so what's keep me in this mood? i mean, in good track. the answers are the following. good parents!, being loved, and music.

music for me seems to be a therapy. it soothes my senses and let me relax for just a single span of time. it brainwashes all the negative charges in my mind. and the best part, i can develop my singing abilities. lolx.

if you are about to ask what music i'm into this past few days? here are the list. these are great musics by great artists. i keep on playing this track over and over again.

1. if i let you go - diane elise version
"but once again i'm thinking about,
taking the easy way out.
but if i let you go,
i would never know,
what my life would be,
holding you close to me,
will i ever see,
you smiling back at me?
how will i know,
if i let you go."

2. gugmang giatay - the ambassadors
"oh kahayag sa imong panagway
nga naulipon sa gugmang giatay
inday paminawa kabos kong gugma
nga kanimo akong igasa
dili ko man mahatag
ang tanang bahandi
ning kalibutan apan
inday dungga intawon
ang alaot nga naulipon sa
gugmang giatay"

3. jai ho - j. a. rahman & the pcd feat, nicole s.
"you are the reason that i breathe,
you are the reason that i still believe,
you are my destiny,
jai ho! uh-uh-uh-oh!
no there is nothing that can stop us
nothing can ever come between us,
so come and dance with me,
jai ho! (oohh)

catch me, catch me, catch me, come and catch me,
i want you now,
i know you can save me, come and save me,
i need you now.
i am yours forever, yes, forever,
i will follow,
anywhere in anyway,
never gonna let go."

4. keep holding on - boyce avenue
"keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through,
we'll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i'm here for you,
i'm here for you
there's nothing you can say, nothing you can do
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through,
we'll make it through"

5. sandali na lang - hale
"naiinip, nasasabik, kasing bilis
nang isang iglap mahahanap
sa may ulap
nagtatanong, nagtataka
ba't wala ka pa
nakatingala, nakatulala
pero sabi mo.

sandali na lang
at nandito na
at ang panahon
ay wala sa ating kamay.

huwag mag alala
maraming oras pa
ang nakalaan
para sa ating dalawa.

sandali na lang."

that's all for now. that's my song for the day. :]

letter.//

2009-04-28T13:41:00.003+08:00

i’ve few things to share to everyone.. one of these is a letter, superb letter which change my whole life.. it’s hilarious to reflect with this stuff coz it reminds me that i must not assume things.. i mean that i should not suppose possessions the way they shouldn’t be..

this is a sophomoric and jejune sophomore letter from my imaginary bff dated january 13, 2007..

^naging manhid ako sa pagsulat nito! sa bagay manhid na man pala ako!

read dizZ…!

elow, (sana di mo itapon, sana tapusin mo ito sa kababasa)

one morning, when i woke up, narinig ko na magbestfriends tayo. ha? the truth is wala akong naaalala o narinig na “teh, ano? bestfriend na kita?”[so what? are we the best of friends?]. totoo yan, wala talaga. ang naremember ko lang, ang kinuwento ko na sinabi k okay j***. tinanong ako ni j***, “sin.o ang bestfriend mo?” [who’s your bestfriend?], sagot ko “wala pa”. “so sino ang kasama mo parati?” [who keeps you in company?], j*** asked, “uhmm… si edwin”. yun lang sinabi at kinuwento ko sa’yo. but since nagstart ang pagiging [quote&quote] “bestfriends” natin, nagstart na mabuo sa isip ko ang tanong na “sino nagstart?”, pero sa kinalaunan, natanggap ko that we are bestfriends, pero di pa rin mawala ang tanong. everyday na magkasama tayo (daw luv letter ba!) nakita ko ang mga ugali mo na deserving na tawagin na best friend ko. there are times na para sa akin magbestfriend tayo, pero kung minsan hindi. may mali ka, may mali ako. first, mga mali ko. sorry sa ugali ko, iniinsulto kita, pinagsisigawan kita, dinidikitan kita at kahit ano pa dyan na nakakasakit sa’yo. second mga mali mo, grabe na panlait. i have a story during our math. mainit ang ulo mo dahil gusto mo nang magpractice ng sayaw (for Kambuniyan) at naiinip ka sa lesson sa math dahil paulit-ulit kung ituro, mainit rin ang ulo ko that time. tinawag mo ako magpractice, sabi ko “dali lang, gapamati ko kay di ko maintindihan ang math” [wait, i’m listening coz i don’t understand our lesson in math]. sagot mo “ambot ah, baskin ano mo na kaubra di mo gyapon na maintindihan” [damn it, you won’t understand that whatever you’ll do..]. nashock ako, really?!? yah! alam mo, pareho tayo ng sitwasyon, iniinsulto sa bahay, da ba?, sabi mo sinasabihan ka na “alam ka (as in matalino) di mo na maubra?” [you’re smart but you can’t do that?]. teh ako? [how about me?], sinasabihan naman ako nyan eh! lalo na si tatay at mga kapatid ko! “yoots, 7 ka lang sa top 10 niyo?” [yikes, you’re just 7^th in the top 10?]. di ba masakit, pareho tayo ng nararamdaman. in my story (during math), you said last open forum na “joke”. it’s not a joke, big deal yun sa akin, at alam ko na may naggawa ako katulad nun sa iyo. second sa listahan ng mga mali mo, “ginakuha mo self-confidence ko” [you’re taking me away my confidence], ngaa? [why?], alam mo bang gusto ko sumali noon sa ms. smem, pero dahil nga sa mga nangyari pag-e*** natakot ako. pero anong ginawa mo at nila? pinadiscourage mo ako, nanghina ako sa mga contest na iyan “c***** beh ako”. ngunit anong ginawa mo, nanlait ka at “ginsunlog mo pa” [and taunted me], kaya nahiya ako, na maulit yun. that’s why di na ako sumasali sa ‘brain and beauty’ contest. you asked me “diin bestfriend ko?” [where’s my bestfriend?], and my answer, “diin ka man?” [ where are you too?]. i’m telling you frankly, ako ang sumulat pag open forum na “hambog” [arrogant] ka! why? nainis kasi kami ni j****** sa’yo kung math, parang wala kaming pinag-aralan sa math, yung mga joke mo na panglait, nadamdam naming yun, instead na tumawa kami, nagalit kami sa’yo!!! sobarng sakit kasi! sa bagay, halos pareho tayo ng mga ugali, nanlalait, nang-iinsulto, palahikay [lounger critic], mainitin ang ulo, suplada/suplado. a-a-aahhh. don’t say hindi ka ganyan! inaamin ko na lahat ng yan ay ako! di ba? yung mga story ko, big deal yun sa akin, that’s why “sino nagstart???” and i know naman, mas marami kang interesting stories na ginawa ko, na for you, mali!!! di ba?

*and oooopsszzy, di ba you said parang “l****z” tayo? okey na lang yun, kaysa manlait pa ako sa’yo! and one thing. flirt ba ako? siguro nga, sige na lang (kahit di totoo at kahit di pumasok sa isip ko ang magpaflirt) kasi sa mata mo, flirt ako, okay lang, tanggap ko naman. but, i’m really, really SORRY sa lahat. siguro friends na lang tayo, balik sa dati, pero nag-uusap pa rin katulad ng sa meangurlz, nabuwag pero friends pa rin di ba?!!? sorry and thank you! luv yah! mwuaaahh!

huwag mo akong sisihin! pareho tayo ang may kasalanan! hindi lang ako! i’m asking for your sorry! huwag magpatigas ng puso, sa bagay lalambot rin iyan! pagdating ng panahon!

love lots,

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okay.. no words omitted nor added.. that’s all..

so my lesson for my self reflection,

stay on your own.. never ever dare to share valence electrons with someone else..

work as a piece and ride on a solo trip..

less hurt, less pain..

more laughs, more jests..

but there is something wrong playing the role of that so-called jerky ‘everybody’s friend’.

no one takes you seriously..

you can go out of that room and people won’t be aware of that..

that hurts and that sucks..

yet what can i do?

i’m a self confessed loner who only thinks like narcissus or ben zayb..

i hope that someday someone somewhere will realize that they need me and tell me, can i be your best friend.. high school life is almost over and sad to say that i can’t find a best friend that will outstand all the best of friends in the world, that will rock the universe as we laugh on our mistakes, that will make me cry as she/he leaves me, that will make me proud and will change my winding view of my life..

but i’m optimistic that sooner or later, she/he’ll approach me, asking, “mind if i sit?”. maybe in college, or in work..

it’s funny to reconsider that i need someone..

fuck it off! bestfriend na nga lang pagtatrabahuhan ko pa..

[kung alam mo, manahamik ka na lang. haha. peash out.♥]

salamat.♥

2009-04-27T16:29:00.003+08:00

today for me seems to be the last day. everyday provokes me to give my very best shot - to do the things i wanted to do or to try the deeds i'm hesitant to try, to say the words i frequently say or to have that courage to make a tell-all of the stuffs i regret to tell, to value each minute, the seconds and that glimpses. life is short as they say, that is definitely true. but i just want to add some twist to that quote, life is way too short to live that as a bad person. now, what i'm pointing out is, people always do the things that they thought would value their stay here in planet earth, yet never did they realize that in that span of time, most of it are just wasted and if not wasted, it's probably useless.

i have this feeling like the world is about to end, like a planet-size comet would collide and destroy planet earth in just a blink of an eye, or the never-ending global warming would kill all the trees and oxygen-giving organisms that will result into air crisis, or a missile in korea would be launched just enough for the world to vanish. what's worse is, the world would continue on its basic routine - happy, corrupted and sinful; while i was there inside a coffin and they keep on weeping to the fact that i was hit by a bus - that's the time my world ended, i am just a remain, my brain is like a raisin, and i can't think nor see.

i am under paranoia, undisturbed, hysterical. what would life offer me when i'm about to perish?

+++++++++++++++++++++

6:00 am
nagring ang alarm clock ko. it's not the typical clock that you could shut it off with a click, this is unstoppable. well, hindi na ito bago. i mean sa araw-araw na ganito ang routine ko, maninibago pa ba ako? so ganun na nga. the yells, as if they are arguing, or miles away for somebody to hear them. nywei. pagkagising ko, siyempre naligo na ako. haha. after noon, nagbihis. alangan namang kumain nang may tuwalya. so pagkabihis, hindi na ako nag-almusal, nagminindal na lang ako at pagkatapos ay nanood ng tv. walang hiyang tebee ito. akalain mo ba namang halos swine virus na lang ang pinagkakalat. anak ng. . . kung tutuusin, hindi na iyan bago sa pilipinas. hindi lang naman virus sa baboy eh, pati sa computer at kaban ng bayan pa. haha. so nanood ako ng balita.

8:00 am
sus! wala pa ang paertx ko. abalang-abala ata sa mga estudyante niya. ewan ko ba kung bakit niya pa inuuna ang kapakanan ng iba kaysa sa pamilya. pero ok lang naman, naiintindihan ko naman siya kahit papano. dumating na nga siya. idinial ko ang numero ng registrar sa up visayas. hindi na kataka-taka, mistulang sirang plaka na sa pandinig ko ang balitang hindi pa rin alam kung maipapasok ako sa chemical engineering. bakit ba naman kasi hindi ko gusto ang political science? pero, sige na lang. hahabaan ko na lang ang pasensiya ko. baka sakaling maidulog ng Diyos ang panalangin ko sa mga taong makakatulong sa akin. sayang din naman ang scholarship ko sa dost eh.

9:30 am
andami pa palang kumukuha ng baranggay clearance. at isa pa, ang mahal. parang clearance lang aaboy pa ng isang daan piso. grabe naman. pero wala na akong maggagawa, hindi naman ako ang kapitan eh. kaya bilang mabuting mamamayan [ehem, kuno] susunod na lang ako sa patakaran. haay.o buhay nga naman, pagkadami ng kailangan para naman sa police clearance. my mga id pictures pa, pero ok lang din naman. kanina habang andun ako sa istasyon ng pulis, may isang ale na parang gustong magsampa ng complaint sa isang tao, yun nga lang, parang walang pumapansin. kawawa naman. sana naging pulis na lang ako, para tagapagtanggol ng mga naapi. ulol. :/

10:30 am
sa post office na ako para sa postal id ko. haay.o andami palang liham na hindi pa napamimigay ng mga kartero. halos malula ako sa mga sulat na parang hindi ko na makita ang mga opisyal. ibinigay ko na ang aking mga requirements. at yun, postal id na kaagad. yun nga lang hindi nalaminate kasi sira ang machine.

11:00 am
wala pa ata ang teller sa bangko. kumakain na siguro. inilabas ko na ang mga kailangan para sa ATM ko. yung mga postal id at school id. tapos. lagot. kulang ako ng isang litrato. tinakbo ko ang kahabaan mula landbank at agfa studio. at sa mabuting palad ay nakapagpakuha rin ako ng litrato. takbo naman ulit. at ayan na nga, tapos na ang application form ko. ang problema naman, wala pa ang teller. erg.

12:15 pm
kumakain na ako sa kozee ng pananghalian. masarap pala ang manok nila doon. well, choco marble na naman ang partner nito. yan talaga, first time ko kasi eh kaya parang nilulubos ko na. toinks. pagkatapos nito. lumipad na ako sa landbank. toinks. at andun na ang card. iverify na lang at makakapagdeposit na ako. after nun.

1:00 pm
paglabas ko, nakasabay ko si charlene. haay.o sumabay na ako sa kanya sa studio nila, at grabe. andami niya palang pictures. nakatarpaulin pa at ang iba. retratista nga naman oo. makalipas ang kalahating oras ng paghihintay ko. andiyan na siya. sumakay kami ng cab papuntang school.

2:00 pm
nakababa na kami sa wakas. pumunta kami ng hs building kasi kukuha na siya ng kard niya. haha. sana hindi naman siya bumagsak ano. naghiwalay kami ng landas kasi kinakailangan kong magreport. at sa kasamaang palad, wala na namang nangyayari at sa halip ay babalik pa ako bukas. hay. kapagod na talaga.

2:30 pm
nag-usap kami. ♥

4:00 pm
umuwi na kami. nalaman ko pala na hindi siya marunong tumawid. haha. kaya naman pala ayaw na ayaw niyang maglakad eh. takot raw siyang masagasaan ng kotse. erg. haha. so hinatid ko na siya sa studio.

at dito po nagtatapos ang araw ko.

trip mo. trip ko.

2009-04-26T16:02:00.006+08:00

waah. sa wakas. ang inyong lingkod ay muling nakabalik mula sa kanyang hantungan. erg. as if that would steal a scene. nyweis, i'm about to start a new chapter of my life. at para sa ikakatahamik ng lahat ay kinakailangan kong lumuwas sa aking sinilangan. harharlotx. so yung flight ko scheduled na siya sa sabado, kasama ko ang aking ate at paertx. in accordance dito, binalak kong gugulin ang nalalabi kong panahon sa paglalakwatsa. and i did it. hurray! [fyi: kung aalis ako sa sabado, marahin ay semestral break o christmas vacation na ang balik ko.. how sad.. (sound effects pls -- "aaaaaaah :[")].

it's eighteen. at nandito ho ako sa gumasa. hahays. burtdei ng insan ko at guess what? nalasing ako ng todo-todo. hindi ko aakalaing magiging ganito ako. halos iluwa ko na ang aking mga mata dahil sa pagsusuka. pero masaya siya. super duper.

so ganun na nga. nagkaroon kami ng farewell party last april 19. at syempre, nalate ako. well, kinakailangan ko pang kupitan ang ate ko ng perang igagasta ko sa mga sabihin na nating "makabuluhan ding" mga bagay, tulad ng paglangoy, pag-inom at pagsusurfing habang nasa likod ng elf.

after nun, natuloy rin ang debut ng ate ko. at dahil natuloy yun, hindi na siya considered na underage. at dahil hindi na siya underage, malaya na siya. eh ano ngayon? wala lang. nag.xexeir lang naman ng mga pangyayari. haha. hay parang kay bilis ng panahon, ano?

after ng kanyang debut, well, hindi ko maggawang magstay sa house dahil for sure, andami naming gagawin - magliligpit ng mga kalat, at mag-aayos ng mga sira-sirang bagay. so ngayon, kinumbinsi ko ang aking mga magulang na kinakailangan kong pumunta ng marbel para asikasuhin ang aking merit-a scholarship. well, dahil parang pambest actor ang acting ng gago, napapaniwala niya ang mga ito. what a small skinny evil liar. toinks hindi kasi pwede ang big fat liar eh. hahaharharlotx. toinks. so pagdating ko doon, tinapos ko yung gagawin ko, pinirmahan ko na ang kontrata nang sa gayon ay madala nila sa dost at notaryo. siyempre, hindi naman aabot ng buong araw ang contract signing dbuh? nararamdaman ko ang pangangailangan para manood ng sine. waah. need buh talaga? well, siyempre oo. tongikx. so nanood ako ng t2. at ang masasabi ko, "mas maganda ang part two nito." so hindi ko pinangangalandakang maganda, at mas lalong kung hindi pinagsasabi na pangit. so ganun nga, dumating ako ng bahay tapos ay nag-explain ng mga nakasaad sa kontrata. whew!

kinagabihan ay gumawa ako ng mga financial reports - report on credits and debits, mga liquidation at siyempre, mga program of expenditures. at kinaumagahan, ayun, nagstart na ang meeting, ay mali, pictorials para sa yearbook. akalain mo bang two whole page ang mga litrato ng mga loko. haha. mabuti na nga iyon eh. so dahil sa pictorials, nabusisi ko ang picture ko para sa year book. erg. mukha akong grade 6. tsk. after nun, nagkaroon kami ng meeting with the president. and as always, she talks about the PRIZE. and the great news, naisumite na sa senado ang resolusyon para sa pagkaunibersidad ng SKPSC, sana nga ay hindi na ito loko-loko. pero 90% ang chances na maisakatuparan ito by next academic year. aurgh, ouch.

after nun, nagkaroon ng deliberation sa CBL at handbook, siyempre, nasabon na naman ang gago. well, dahil natalo ako sa botohan, kinakailangan na magblack shoes ang lahat ng mga lalaki, pero di naman sinabi na kailangang leather, basta black, yun na yun. marami pang bangayan na nauwi sa masarap na kainan sa enrico's. haha. well, siyempre, busog.

nagpaunli call ako. at yun, wala akong tulog magmula ng debut ng ate ko. haha. pero ok lang, kinaumagahan, natapos ko rin ang report ko, at yun nga, umuwi na ako ng bahay. well, umuwi ako ng bahay para maligo dahil babalik na naman ako sa marbel para manood ng t2, last treat na ito ng SSC. so pinagbigyan ko, actually gensan sana kaso umalama ako dahil hindi ako pwedeng gabihin, at yun nga, hindi ako ginabi, inumaga naman. haha. naantala kasi ang oras dahil sa world of fun. pero it's worth all the money spent and time naman eh. masaya kasi and guess what, napanalunan ko pa si elmo. :]

so since na masyado ng gabi para umuwi, kinailangan kong magpalipas ng gabi sa city of goodwill kuno, ang tacurong. dun ako sa bahay nila pres. camendan, akala ko ay matutulog kami doon. yun pala, nauwi ang lahat sa paliligo sa orion pool. anim lang kami actually. ang saya diba? tongiks. pero habang naliligo kami, marami kaming napag-uusapan, love life, works, school, dreams, mga bangungot at mga maseselang paksa na hindi maari para sa mga bata. haha.

so pagkatapos, umaga na naman ulit. nagplano sana kami ng charlene na magsimba ng mga alas 8 hanggang alas 9, eh kaso, tulog pa siya. kaya yun, hindi na kami nakapagsimba. ang ginawa ko na lang ay nagshopping sa bahay ng president. kinuha ko ang kanyang aklat, jersey. at kung anu-ano pa. siyempre may consent niya naman kaya legal. haha. at.

engk. engk. text ba toh o call? hahaharharlots ulit. she send an SMS saying na "sorry :/"
sabi ko, punta na lang ako diyan, at yun, pinuntahan ko siya. mga bandang alas 11 na ata yun. nandoon ang kanyang lola, dalawang kapatid at ang kanyang pinsan at ang katipan nito. nag-usap kami at hanggang dito na lang. binigay ko sa kanya si elmo. and buhbye. :[

ai mali, bukas pa pala. magkikita pa kami sa school eh. haha. so ngayon, umuwi ako ng bahay, naligo at pumunta sa net cafe para gawin ang basurang ito. toinkx. well, spotted: mayor dado, nanggrocery sa mercury gallego branch. with body guards, he caught my attention.

anyways, i have to go.
sa mga ex-classmates ko:
WALANG IWANAN, sa bayan ni juan.

sa gurlprend ko:
KAPIT BISIG para sa pasig.

haha.
xo, eduardo.

dine and dash.

2009-04-16T15:53:00.002+08:00

i'm with my sister right now. haha.

how silly! we are here just to find someone to be called her escort on her 18th birthday. it's a brother-sister bond i guess. we are like dating. we just have a meal here at kozee rnb planet. actually, we are just here to avail the wifi, less expense for internet and surfing yet total mess for eating. haha. anyways. time runs fast, i couldn't even remember when was the last time we had fun, hanging out like friends and just be together. whew! this summer is really fun and it's always.

so now, i'm having trouble with my schedule. [as if napakagaling ko na tao noh? erg.] so the hectic sched? well, tomorrow, i'll be leaving for a beach party. it's in glan, gumasa ata [i really don't know the spelling.] but i'll bet, i won't be around for that. want to know why? my family wants me to be the incharge for all my sister's stuffs in her upcoming debut. so this is goodbye. on sunday, that's april 19, i'll be with my former classmates to have a so-called farewell party. so this is goodbye, again. haha. i hope it will be fun. next is the orientation and contract signing for dost scholarship. good thing i passed. it will be on tuesday at koronadal. the day after that will be my sister's debut and two days after that will be a special meeting with my co-senators in ssc at general santos city. erg. it's a mess. that's all for know.haha.

i have to dine and dash.

see you when i see you.

vitamin c -

"you're the reason that i breathe,

you're the reason that i still believe,

you're my destiny."

xo,
eduardo.
jai ho!"

nothing part two.

2009-04-13T12:36:00.005+08:00

lunch time joke..

yaya: iho, kain ka nang mabuti ha.

iho: ayaw ko. hindi ako gutom.

yaya: sige na, papagalitan ako ng mama mo.

iho: sabi na ngang ayoko eh. yan. nawalan na ako ng gana.

yaya: bakit ka ganyan? alam mo ba na milyon-milyon ang mga bata na hindi kumakain ng wasto araw-araw samantalang libo-libo ang mga batang nagugutom sa ngayon dahil sa walang makain? alam mo masuwerte ka na sa lagay mo.

iho: kapag kinain ko ba yan, mabubusog ba ang libo-libong nagugutom at milyon-milyong hindi kumakain ng wasto??

[wateyber loser yaya!]

haay. it seems that i've screwing my life badly these past few weeks. lame emotions, critically embarassed thoughts, unhappy decisions, after all, i asked myself if that what makes me happy then why does it goes the opposite way? they say that life is too short, go on with the current. sail. follow your instincts. but i tell you, life is too short to live it as a bad person. so many questions came rushing to my mind, i pondered a bit but i faltered. it's like a caution i disobey- "don't think about it, it might kill you". i am turning into a horrible monster right now. greedy. heartless. selfish.

whew. i really don't know what to say. i run out of things to discuss. there's a lot in my mind but i can't fully express it. it's very confusing. time will heal this wound. i am under rigid self-counselling.

nywei. summer is so hot. so do i.
i am busying myself into watching one tree hill season 1-4 while watching current episodes for season 6 in etc and finding season 5. i also take time in reading books, i'm finishing prodigal summer and after it, i'll have to start twilight, new moon, eclipse, breaking dawn ang midnight summer in pdf. i scheduled myself in watching nba play-offs and planning to exposed myself into the hardcore drama.

my sister's 18th burpsdei is coming. i'm happy for her. that's all!

TIN-TIN

erg. college. college.
i need to comply requirements for college. i'll go to UP visayas this time. i passed ba political science but i had a change of my mind and so i requested a change of degree program. my preference were chemical engineering and accountancy and so wish me luck that my score would just be enough for me to have either of the two courses. results will be posted on may 11-15. aurgh.

i passed dost scholarship merit a. just sharing not bragging.
orientation will be on 21st this month.
i'm so grateful that eldridge and guillian passed too.

graduation post will be posted next time.
so tired and sick of it.

hmp.

2009-03-30T14:40:00.003+08:00

no post this time. [:

busy pa po sa mga dramatic goodbyes.

see you soon.

for SBO's and rey's sake!

2009-03-20T13:48:00.009+08:00

today is friday. and friday is not a school day.

1. work, work, and work.

2. kawawang rey!

1. work, work, and work.
kaawa-awa na naman ang SBO. huhu. bakit 'ka mo? eh sino ba naman ang hindi magkandaugaga sa 2500 pesos na budget sa high school day. ok lang sana kung simple lang siya at parang singing sa baranggay o dance contest. eh battle of the bands yun eh tas search. saan ka nakakita na ang renta ng drum at band set ay mapagkakasya sa 1500 pesos? o ang decoration na worth 300 lang. or worse labing anim na sash at siyam na trophies sa 500 pesos. gym rental na 200 pesos. sound system na 300? aba. kayhirap ng maghanap ng pera. kaya wala ng tao ang makakapagbigay sa amin ng pabor. kabuhayan na kasi ang pinag-uusapan rito. txk. txk. so ayun. pinagkasya na lang namin. at para hindi kami mapahiya sa mga estudyante, gumawa kami ng paraan siyempre.

kami na ang gagawa ng trophy. kinuha namin ang mga basag at pira-pirasong glass na bunga ng mga hindi pag-aalaga ng mga bintana at idinulog sa isa naming kasamahan. siya na ang bahala doon. balita ko ay ipapaputol niya ito sa glass supply shop at ididkit na lang sa kahoy. at least. kahit papano, dbuh? wala na rin kasi kaming ganang pakinggan ang mga negatibong komento ng iilang mga estudyante kung magpapacontribute pa kami. kakaunti na lang kasi ang populasyon ng paaralan eh.
para naman sa decoration, naghanap kami ng magsosponsor ng tarpaulin. campus art ata iyon. so ang mangyayari, kakarampot na espasyo ang ibibigay nila para sa pangalan ng okasyon at ang nalalabing bahagi ay lalagyan nila ng advertisement. ganoon na ho kami kadesperado para mabigyan ng libre at mas maayos na dekorasyon at abubot ang aming hayskul day.

para naman sa sounds, gagamitin ko naman ang aking natatangi at itinatagong talento sa public speaking. siyempre package deal na, kasama na roon ang pag-aartista. konting iyak-iyak, paluhod-luhod at pagmamakaawa. well, it works most of the time. pero yun nga lang, ang dami mo pang maririnig na satsat bago ka payagan. pero sige na lang. no choice eh. public servant. toinkx.
sa band set, nakapag-isip-isip na ako. kung hindi kami makakahiram ng libre sa agape church ng mga instrumento, kakausapin ko na lang ang tatay ko na manghihiram kami sa school nila ng kahit drum set na lang. kung wala pa rin, magrerenta kami ulit sa agape sa halagang 1500. at kung wala pa rin. nakup! ang instrumento ng drum corp ang aming hihiramin at iaassemble na pang battle of the bands talaga. huhu. kakapagod!

sa lunes na po pala iyan. puspusan ang aming paghahanda, hindi po ba?

nywei. nakakawalang gana lang isipin na noong sinabi namin na parang imposible ang high school day ay nagfreak out halos lahat ng estudyante. ngayong ibinalik na namin, parang wala ng interesado. kakainis lang talaga kasi hindi sila nakikipagtulungan sa mga officers. kung todo effort kami, sila naman tong parang mapanghusga na akala mo kung sinong magsalita. na wala pa ring binatbat kasi dapat ganito at hindi ganyan. asus! sila kaya ang magtrabaho sa organisasyong tulad ng SBO kung makakaya nila? at kung may mga lapses at mga mali, hala sige! hindi na magkamayaw sa mga paratang na walang kwenta. na wala na kaming ginawang tama. kagaya ng narinig ko sa kantina noong nakaraang araw:

bakit puro na lang mga banda ang kumpetisyon? hindi ba pwedeng sayawan naman?

aba! eh kung alam lang ninyo? exam nyo ho ng mga panahong iyon. at kung sasabihin kong, itutuloy ang dance cool. anong mangyayari? magagalit kayo kung maglalagay kami ng penalty at fine sa mga walang participants at magwawalk out. well, sa aking pagkakatanda, naglagay ho kami ng dance cool noong december. kaso nga lang, walang may gusto kesyo ganito, hihingalin daw. mahirap magpraktis. mayor ho ng joule ang kumausap sa akin na dapat tanggalin kasi wala raw sasali. eh kung iisipin, mas bakante pa nga noon kung ikukumpara mo ngayon eh. at ngayon sa mga kakaklase niya rin nanggaling ang mga paratang na puro banda lang ang kumpetisyon. ako ho ay isang mananayaw. at hindi ho ako papayag na mawala ang mga kumpetisyon sa sayawan. pero wag niyo naman hong pagmukhaing tanga ang organisasyon namin.

hindi po ba parang unfair sa amin na kami lang ang gumagawa sa halip na TAYO? kami lang po ang mga opisyales pero tayo po ang tinatawag na SBO. kaya kung sino naman ang parang nanggagalaiti sa galit diyan sa SBO officers, nawa'y maintindihan niyo na hindi ho biro ang trabaho namin. puro na lang kayo komento at pangbabackstab pero tanong ko lang, kung kayo ho ang sa posisyon namin? makakayanan niyo rin ho ba ang responsibilidad? hindi lang ho iyan responsibilidad sa mga estudyante kundi bilang estudyante mismo. marami ho ang bumagsak sa mga opsiyales ko. kung titignan ho ninyo, parang wala na ho kaming ginawang tama. pero kung tutuusin ay iyan na lang po ang aming ginagawa. bumagsak si peyt at norman sa calculus. si kent naman sa physics at computer. yung iba ay bumaba ng husto at parang napag-iwanan na ng mga kakaklase, pero heto pa rin ho kami. walang bumubitaw. yang mga nabanggit ko ho ay dating mga honor students. matatalino ho iyan pero ng dahil sa SBO ay bumagsak. they don't deserve what they have now. pero wala kaming magagawa. ginagampanan lang ho namin ang aming trabaho.

sa mga nagtatanong kung ano ang aming proyekto ngayong taon. ipinoproseso na ho namin ang pagbili ng sarili nating lawn mower. kung susumahin ho ang budget ng SBO. kakarampot lang ho ito. 56.25 lang ang binabayaran natin bawat estudyante. ngayon kalkulahin po ninyo kung ano ang patutunguhan niyan? makakapagbili ba iyan ng lawn mower? at naisumite na rin po namin ang resolusyon sa mababang kapulungan ng lalawigan ng sultan kudarat ang panukala para sa dagdag na mga pasilidad sa ating laboratoryo. hindi lang ho iyan. yung proceeds ng late ay naipaayos namin ng ating stereo at sounds system at naipinta sa CR.

enough na po para diyan.

2. kawawang rey!

natatawa ako pero parang katakot takot ang kuwento. mayroon pong isang fixated at obsessed na babae na itatago ho natin sa ngalang "ana" ang nagpakilalang mayroon raw silang relasyon na rey! haha. pero ang higit na kagulat-gulat ay lumapit ho ang kanyang guardian na mula pa at sa kanilang lugar upang hanapin si rey. at ayun nga, ayon daw sa nakausap naming informant ay sinabi raw nitong "ana" na palagi raw silang nag-uusap at nagkikita ni rey. at hindi lang yan, na nakaplano na raw ang kanilang mga pangarap or whatever. ayon sa informant ay nasiraan raw ng bait ang babae sa kanyang pag-iilusyon kay rey. katakot takot! hanggang sa ngayon ay hindi pa rin matukoy ang tunay na dahilang ng nasabing pag-iilusyon.

imposible naman kasi ang sinasabi ng babae dahil unang-una, college na ho siya, si rey high school student pa lang. pangalawa at pinakamabigat, may katipan na ho si rey at iyan po ay si janin. imposible naman na ipagpalit ni rey si janin diba? haha.

janin on the issue: no comment. ^^,

xo,
eduardo.

18.

2009-03-18T18:34:00.004+08:00

oh my ever-living God!

mga bagay na kagulat-gulat:

may account si perxer sa face book. eh ano ngayon? wala lang. di niya kasi ako inaadd as friend eh. at isa pa, sino ba naman ang hindi magugulat noon? i mean, perxer, social studies queen turning to facebook addict? come on.

nakopo ng mga babaeng nakatim at may mga belo ang round ball ng isulan. haha. kakarating ko lang kaya hindi ko alam kung bakit ito nangyari. btw, napansin kung kanina lang siguro ito. at sa palagay ko ay isa itong malawakang rally para sa kapayapaan. na naman.

inurong ni nicole ang kaso laban kay smith. nabalitaan ko lang kay norman, kung totoo man ito, talagang kagulagulantang nga naman talaga, matapos na maipakulong ito ay agad niya na lang iuurong ang kaso. for what? publicity. at kung hindi, better. no comment na nga.

sopiz vs sharon cuneta. haha. pinagpipilian kasi namin ang graduation song eh. nywei, sopiz ang nanalo. di na siguro ito kagulat-gulat. pero kung mayroon mang bagay na parang hindi inaasahan? yun siguro ay ang pagtatapos. graduation, certified shocking.

hindi ako nabubusog. waah. hindi ko alam kung bakit pero halos hindi tumatagal ang kinakain ko ng minuto. sa katunayan ay kakatapos ko lang kumain at magdidinner pa ako pagdating sa bahay.

si babae at lalaki ay nag-away na naman. ewan ko kung bakit. basta nag-away raw sila. sana maayos na ito. pareho pa naman silang magtatapos. waah. tears. :[

nalate ang practice sa graduation ngayong hapon. ngayon lang ata nangyari na nahuli ang pag-eensayo. pero parang hindi na rin ito issue. madalas na itong nangyayari. si maam kasi, as expected, late.

maaga ang uwian. good news ito. pero ano nga ba ang kataka-taka? wala naman kasi talagang pasok kaya maagang nagsiuwian ang lahat. haha. yung iba, may exam kasi eh.

ang aking 18. bow.

haay. kagaya ng 18 ko noong enero at pebrero. wala na namang nangyari. kasalanan ko ba? o sadyang mailap lang talaga ang tadhana sa akin. hindi ko po talaga alam at wala akong idea. pero kung nangyayari man ang mga bagay-bagay na ito, naniniwala ho akong may mga dahilan. so ngayon, iginugol ko ang aking araw kasama si faith. si faith na wala ring partner sa araw na ito. pareho kasing may exams ang mga mahal namin sa buhay kaya kami na lang ang nagdadate. so mula kaninang umaga ay magkasama kami. since napag-uusapan na lang din si faith, sinabi ng guro namin na dalawa ang bibigyang parangal sa taong ito bilang SBO of the year, ako ang inatasan niyang bumili ng medalyon at saka sinabing sa amin raw iyon no norman, pero hindi ko po ito tinanggap, ipinasalin ko po ang ang medalya sa pangalan ni faith, nawa'y mabigyan ito ng katuparan.

so ganoon nga, magkasama kami ni faith. pinag-usapan namin ang mga pangyayari sa loob ng apat na taon, yung mga pagkakataong pinag-uusapan siya ng lahat at parang ayaw niya ng pumasok at all, at yung mga masasaya naming pagkakataon. ikinuwento niya rin sa akin na madalas kaming naiintriga sa SSC oofice dahil magkatipan raw kami. natatawa na lang kami. sa bagay, siya lang din naman ang palagi kong kasama eh. pero ok lang. at dahil diyan, inihatid ko na lang siya sa bahay nila pagkatapos naming magminindal sa jollibee [at pinagmalaki pa talaga. toinkx. minsanan lang kasi ako kung manlibre eh.]. kakainis lang, sana'y hindi siya ang nakakasama ko sa araw-araw at marahil ito rin ang naiisip niya. na sana yung mga mahal namin ang nakakausap namin at napagkukuwentuhan ng mga masasayang tagpo.

*itigil ang drama.*

halos isang linggo na lang at iiwan na namin ang hayskul. waah. oh kay bilis namang maglaho ng pag-ibig mo sinta, daig mo pa ang isang kisap mata. kanina lang ay nariyan lang, bigla na naman nawala. daig mo pa ang isang kisap mata.

haay.

xo,
eduardo.

sabon!

2009-03-17T11:51:00.004+08:00

eduardo labandero.

sa ulo ng mga nagbabalibagang balita:
hs gob, sinabon! mga kurtina, sinabunan!

haha. kakatawa. yan ho ang aking parusa sa pagiging huli noong aming nakaraang retreat. sa unang pagkakataon ay nakita ng mga estudyante na ang gobernador ng institusyon ay basa at puno ng mga bula dahil sa paglalaba ng kurtina ng kanilang silid. nywei. masaya naman siya. hindi lang naman ako ang naglaba eh. marami kami. mga anim? madami na buh yun? haha. pero masaya ho ang bagay na ito. ok lang to, at least bago ako nakapagtapos ay nakapagbanat din ako ng buto.

college thing.

hindi pa ho ako nakapakumpirma ng aking slot para sa UP. haha. hinihintay ko pa kasi ang desisyon kung itutuloy ko ang chemical engineering o accountancy. parang magbibigti ata ako nito, di ho buh? di ko kasi napipisil ang political science eh. masyadong. ewan. haha pero sa UP ako mag-aaral for sure. hinihintay ko na lang matapos ang mga sagabal sa linggong ito. haha. pupunta na ako ng iloilo mga second o third week ng april. ang tagal pero parang ayaw ko pang umalis sa isulan. pag-alis ko rito kasi ay siya namang pagdating ng kapatid ko para sa kanyang debut. kakainis. pero ok lang din. wala namang hindi ok sa akin eh. haha.

graduation?

ayaw ko munang magbigay ng mga pahayag para sa aming nalalabing araw bago ang pagtatapos. kakapagod. magtatapos ka na nga lang ay bibigyan ka pa ng tambak na trabaho. hay. pero ok lang din. gaya nga ng sinabi ko ay walang hindi ok sa akin.

chocolates issue.

hindi ho ako nagagalit sa kumain ng tsokolateng ibinigay ko. sumakit lang ang loob ko kasi para ho sana yun sa kanya. hindi naman ako maramot eh. parang ayaw ko lang kasi na hindi buo ang pagkakatanggap niya. natural lang naman na sumama ang loob ko kasi buong puso ko ho iyong binigay, sana ay buo niya ring natanggap.

peace po. burp.

xo,
eduardo.

the expose.

2009-03-14T17:27:00.007+08:00

say what??

the news fabricator turns into a news maker. yea right. the lies were transformed completely into truths, the gossips into facts, and it's authentic. if you're asking what am i trying to point out, it's a treaty between me, the squirrel and the wind beneath the mulberry tree. am i making sense? i guess not. haha. that makes sense.

nywei, so i missed the first part of the 2nd school exposition and that's simply because i woke up around 11:30. then i realized that i was the only person at our house so i rushed to find where's my cellphone. and there it was, in the bathroom, filled with almost 50 messages. and the contents?

aireen: "ed, malakat ka sa skul? ang iban nga papers ara sa imu, di kami makacheck. punta ka na asap."

jb: "salamat ed kay wala ka, kay kung ara ka, manosebleed naman ko sa pamangkot mo."

joann: "late na ko?"

josaiah: "ed, ara ang papers ko sa imu? hindi ko ka defend buh. txtbak asap."

etc. it's 4 out of 50. i can't enumerate all the messages. so i rushed to school without taking a bath! it's true! good thing, no one figured it out. i'm having that drop-down temperature fever. it's mild and so i neglect it. haha. and i can't imagine why no one found it out.

so the school expo? it's cool! i mean, the scientific abilities, the innovations, the displays, the presentors, and the research papers! here are some of the studies:

acetone as fuel additive.
remote controlled light bulb.
homemade emergency light.
BAS ground garbage collector.
automated round bell.
effect of increasing hydrogen peroxide to salt battery.
salt and air battery.
lemon as a source of electricity to light up a LED.
povidone-iodine deodorant.
minced paper particle board.
datura metel as insect pesticide.
etc.

the winning research is the remote controlled light bulb by guillian geronne cerdana and niña nicole auza. girl power. haha.

after the expo, i, jue and alyssa went to kozee's to have a snack. elementary friends are great friends, they give me this feeling that i'm not new to them. the company never fails and reminiscing the past happenings is a sort of a review. then, we finally had a talk about college life. this topic never ends and i am afraid i have to end this post with a smackin' thought:

"magiging masaya ka ba kung ang pagkaing ibinigay mo sa kanya
ay ipamimigay niya lang din naman pala sa iba?"

makonsensiya na ang dapat makonsensiya. :[

xo.
eduardo.,

i need rest. :D

2009-03-11T23:10:00.004+08:00

the expo finally came to an end. and as expected, we lose our sight of the track. it's ok btw. who cares about us anyway. :D

first step to graduation.

i am excited with our first graduation practice and that will be tomorrow! i had just packed my things up for me to catch up the first trip to isulan. the class secretary sent a group message telling the faraboyle to be in the gym on the 8th hour or else you'll be fined 200 pesos. that's a threat for everyone because we don't want to show up our last remaining cent. the class keep on reminding us that we should avoid the following:

1. accidents! - wee. sino ba naman kasi ang tangang ayaw makapagtapos at magmartsa sa marso? at isa pa, masyado kaming worried. baka magtatapos na ang school year eh may pahabol pa ring babayaran. diba? parang magastos na. hindi na kakayanin ng bulsa.

2. picture takings - kasi kung magkakaroon ng picture taking, sino ang kukuha? alangan namang iasa mo pa si titser na halos makipag-away na rin sa kanilang mga estudyante para magkasya na rin sa lente ng camera. eh, kung kapwa estudyante, mahuhurt ang feelings niya kasi parang hindi siya kasali sa litrato kaya mas mabuting wala na lang picture taking. oh diba?

3. inuman - ai. ito ang napakabawal, at alam mo ba kung bakit? actually ok lang naman talaga ang magpakalasing, ang dahilang kung bakit pinagpapaliban ito ay dahil wala nang natitirang mga baso o di kaya'y naibabalik na bote ng redhorse sa mga pinag-inuman. mantakin mo bang basagin ang mga baso pati na rin ang mga bote, yan tuloy. though we want to be darn sinking in a glass of beer as much as possible, eh wala kaming maggawa. mga beer house na at mga bahay ang tumatanggi sa amin eh.

4. makipag-usap sa guro - amen! iniiwasan na po namin ang pagkakaroon ng contact sa mga guro at baka mananbik pa kami sa kanila sa mga susunod na buwan. kahit na hindi nagtuturo si teacher [censored] sa kanyang asignatura, kahit na may pabor si maam [censored] kay [censored], kahit na pinapagalitan kami dahil palagi kaming nagtatanong, kahit na hindi lang talaga namin siya feel na guro, for sure, mamimiss din namin sila. huhu.

5. magchismis - ito ang pinakahuli. dahil sa chismis ay halos maghubaran na sabubutan ang mga estudyante at isa pa, parang wala na rin sa panahon di ba? kasi kung mag-aaway sila, hindi mawiwitness ng lahat kasi malamang sa bakasyon na sila mag-aaway. iwas tsismis na to kasi pagnagkaroon pa ng panibago. nakup! magpapaiwan talaga kami sa hayskul para mahalungkat lang ito.

the school expo.

well, ganun nga yun. [back to english mode].

research physics made computer shops and photocopying stations rich! this is true because our title defense - the final monster - will be on friday. in line with this, they should submit their papers ahead of time which would mean that it would be tomorrow. seniors are on their panic mode running almost 6 kilometers [from gate to building, about one half kilometer. then vice versa. then a repeat, repeat, repeat, reapeat and go home]. here are some of the list of the study, this is unofficial:

the height limits and linearity of bouncy balls
flash bulb with a timer
musical pillow
lemon as soil neutralizers
etc.

that's as of the mean time.

craving for books. ^^

nywei. i have to sustain my bookworm character. i have to feed my mind with books. so if you are reading this post, can you please send a book for me? if you could, please prioritize joshua harris books and paolo coelho. or if possible, "what matters most for teens.", "what matters msot for the heart", "i kissed dating goodbye.", etc. thanks in advance. [garapalan na ho itong pagpapakapal ng mukha.]

antok na po ako.
good night. :D

"coz we belong together now,
forever united here somehow.
you've got a piece of me,
and honestly, my life would suck without you."

ano toh?

2009-03-11T00:08:00.004+08:00

"prescript" - mayroon na ho akong comment box sa pinakababa ng post ko. sana makapagcomment kayo sa 'for closed' kong blog. dyok :D

movie marathon. bow.

things are quite predictable this day. i mean, the acts and moves seems to happen again and again. it's a sort of what they call this.. uhm. yea right. deja vu. as if history repeats itself. anyway. the movie marathon. huh? we watched "you changed my life" after "confessions of a shopaholic" and yet to be seen is "my bloody valentine". it's exhausting - watching the big screen, sitting on your seat waiting for your fellows to realize that they're just fooling their selves. i guess that's the main reason why i watch movies, to accompany others. well, i don't need to watch in the theater or cinema. all i have to do is lay on the sala's couch and grab the remote, drop by to channel 21 or the free channel and boom. movie marathon begins!

not to mention, i had seen the curious case of benjamin button, slumdog millionaire, and other foreign films before they start premiering in the country. it's quite silly coz they were ripped on the net but they don't look exactly as they are - the pirated ones. another thing is, i don't have to go to koronadal or davao just to watch movies [wala kasing movie house sa sultan kudarat, kung mayroon man, yun na yung nonoy cinema. according sa description ng mga classmate ko, ito lang ang sinehan na paglabas mo, buntis ka na. haha. kidding. :D]. the bottom line is, movie marathon is not just in theaters but also in cozy places.

[maiba naman.]

well, ngayon yung fellowship night ng inventors' league. ang guest speaker ay si ginoong jejomar binay. well, sabihin nating first time namin siyang makita kaya nagrush kami sa ecoland. pagdating namin ni elds dun, puno na ang hall, parang wala ng bakante kaya nag-abang na lang kami sa labas kay princess. pagdating ni princess, ay siya namang pagdating ng alkalde ng makati kaya yun, parang nagpanic kami para pumasok pero agad na ring nag-iba yung desisyon namin. pumunta na lang kami sa sm para sa last full show. akalain mo ba naman na naitapon ko yung buong pearl coolers ko dun sa sinehan. kakatawa talaga. masyado na akong nagiging clumsy. pero alam mo kung ano ang highlight ng pelikula? si eldridge! ginawa niyang hotel ang sinehan at natulog. haha. nagising siya ng matapos na ang pelikula. parang nagbayad lang siya para matulog. haha.

[mas kakaiba.]

ang ice cream party [ice cream galore nga buh? o inuman?] ay inireschedule sa thursday. mas mabuti nang sa gayon ay makasama naman kami kasi yun din yung araw na uuwi kami from davao. anyways. yung showing ng mga pelikula namin is kanina pala!

twaylayt.
hayskul layp.
sos! saan ako sisilong?

kakainis, hindi kami nakapanood. hay. kakaunti na lang ang bibilangin kong araw para sa aming pagtatapos. huhu. kakasakit manh isipin pero kailangan kong tanggapin na ang lahat ng bagay ay may katapusan.

xo.
eduardo. ♥

MICE

2009-03-09T22:37:00.003+08:00

woah.

"i'll make you a millionaire."

thus said by one of the expo addicts who examined our research project entitled Remote Controlled Touch Trigger Door Alarm. well, he is Jose Reynaldo Balinas, proprietor of AJAA Design Concepts. haha. well, it's OMG. he said that we'll have to see each other for the concept of touch trigger alarm sytem for his clients. it's good, whether he is giving false hopes or real truths. nywei, i'm overwhelmed when he said that i am one of those limited students who can make money at a young age.
way to go eduardo.

the mindanao invention contest and expo. bow!

damn! their studies are definitely grool. can't you imagine high school students from osamiz making that voice synthesizer? or college students from USEP and ADDU with sophisticated research works? it's very intimidating. but i am not after the trophies, coz i am about to grasp oppurtunities. haha.
we are currently at bs inn. btw, i'm with eldz, narci and honey. i'm drowned with debts. nywei, massive display of public affection is a while ago. who are they? secret.

school updates.

graduating students exams gird today. my classmate were on this somewhat panic mode. well, they, i mean we, are quite excited to surpass the monsters and take a break from the unhealthy world of academe. 3 more subjects and goodbye puliteknik. haha.

bye bye?

yeah.

ps. kasama ko and dakilang "ante" ng bayan!

what a month!

2009-03-07T19:17:00.004+08:00

toinkxing.

[hindi ho iyan bagong kasal.]

inabot rin ng halos isang buwan para makaggawa ako ng panibagong post.

ganyan ho ako ka busy. well, hindi naman talaga ganun ka busy tulad ng inyong iniisip, nagbubusibusihan lang din naman ako paminsan-minsan.

noong prom?

masaya ako noong prom namin. di ko inaasahan na ganoon ang mga mangyayari. akalain mo ba namang halos lahat ng seniors ay natulog sa bahay namin? nangyari na ang nangyari at di ko yun iwawaglit sa aking isip. ano nga ba ang nangyari?

1. nanalo si jue bilang couple of the night. [na naman 2 years in a row.]
2. nanalo si niña bilang lady of the night. [di na katakataka, nangyari na yan noon. pangalawang beses na ito.
3. nanalo si rey bilang lord of the night. [he deserves it.]
4. nanominate ako. [eh ano ngayon? at least sa pagiging lord, suit to kill at couple. haha]
5. nanalo si charlene sa suit to kill. [ito ang pinagtakhan ko, sinabi niya kasi sa akin na magduduster lang siya at siya lang ang magtatali ng buhok niya. sabi pa niya "ano bang meron sa js at ang lahat ay abala sa parlor?". pero nung nakita ko siya, ang duster na sinasabi niya, naging medieval ball gown at ang itinali niyang buhok, naging brusshed up plus my tiara pa. kakatawa talaga. pero ok lang. :D]
6. nanalo si danilo sa suit to kill. [ok rin.]
7. nalassing si katleya at alben sa bahay. [ito ang nakakatawa, si katleya, ayaw paawat sa pag-inom kaya yun, barado ang cr namin sa sloppy drunk vomiting moments niya. si alben naman, sumayaw ng husto at sinabing mahal si niña. at di lang yun. kumain ng saging - take note, ang saging na kinakain niya any saging para sa alaga naming baboy.]
8. nag-uber-da-bakod sina rey, sweet, joram at mike. [alam niyo ba ang reason? ubos na ang tanduay, gilbeys, bailleys, at generoso sa bahay namin.]
9. nagpadala ng bulaklak si mr. meluv kay meluv sa prom namin. [fresh from davao pa ho ito.]
10. nagbigay ng chocolates si "sing" kay "fixing a broken heart". [bago ho ito.]

andami pang nangyari. nakalimutan ko na nga na may nangyari sa akin. haha.

sa exam?

whhaaat? kakapagod. mantakin mo bang ngayon lang sinabi na mag-exam bukas? actually, hindi ho ngayon, nung wednesday pa ho. aurgh. gusto ko nang ibaon sa limot ang lahat. pero ok lang. college na ako - kahit na bagsak ang p.e. ko kasi namental block ako, kahit na sinabi ng english teacher ko na pinaglaruan ko lang daw ang exam ko, kahit sinabi ng computer teacher ko na hindi ako nagstudy kaya hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko at kahit sinabi ng kaklase ko na marami akong mali sa araling pagpapahalaga. hay. kakapagod.

que sera sera. whatever will be, will be.

anyways. pupunta ho ako ng SM bukas para sa Mindanao Invention Contest and Expo. God knows who's the original and authentic. they may copy everything but the idea was mine. hindi naman nila mapapantayan yun eh. i mean, yung mga nanggaya. sinabi na nga na gagamitin ko eh, ginamit pa rin. respeto lang ho sana.

nyweiss. college na ho ako. bye bye haysskul drama.

xo,
eduardo latino

prom picx.

2009-02-28T12:21:00.000+08:00

pictures speak louder than words.

18..

2009-02-18T11:26:00.002+08:00

today is my tff’s birthday. today is our, me and my gf, 14^th monthsary.

marked up for so long in my phone’s calendar, there’s no way i could fail to remember and overlook the 18^th day of february. so on this pleased day, i would like to give tribute to my friend who never failed me since i was in my elementary days and to a ‘sweetheart’ who never leaves me though i’m out of my mind and so mentally retarded.

so to my tff.

we were cheatmates back when we were still graders. i used to stop and relax at their house coz it was just few steps away from our school. i had a great crush on her [that is so me.] and i can’t and won’t deny it. who would never admire jo anne ‘jue’ duropan aujero? that girl who steals scene everytime. she’s beautiful, smart, talented and an icon. i have down pat when we were in the regional science youth camp, a guy approached her and asked from what division is she in. that is way too awesome. haha. every guy on our class had an infatuation towards her. i knew it coz i believe i’m one of them. nywei. guys who fall in love with her have to fall in line. it’s time to enumerate – jayroll, michael, dutch, david, kevin, stephen, lloyd, aris, earl, jd, dr, etc. [sorry jue. :D]. too much for a short description. she was also our chemistry president, school cheerleader, math wiz, journalist, model and what else can jue do? she can be weightlifter, her muscles were bigger than mine; she can also cook, her favorite dish is sinangag; she’s an undiscovered singer. btw, she acts like a boy more often than not.

[i said it’s a tribute. so i’ll keep my eyes on the goal.]

for almost 10 years we’ve been in company, i still can’t find the words that would perfectly and suitably define jo anne. she’s secretive. but that’s the way she is – full of mystery and profound. well, i am sorry for hurting her feelings with my jokes which she takes seriously most of the time; for ruining her jiffy when i provoke her to do so; i am sorry for backstabbing her [in front – backstabbing in front? haha]; for trying to lose her impetus. nywei, i want to thank her, for spending two hours of nonstop telephone conversation that pacifies me and alleviates my nerves when i don’t need someone to talk to; for letting me copy her notes coz she knows that i don’t jot notes in our subjects [next time ko na lang ibalik ang notebook mo sa calculus, di pa tapos eh. :D]; for teaching me how to blog and deal with codes; for telling me i am not wearing a proper dress and i’m ugly [haha.]; for cooperating with me during quizbees; for treating me in times that i don’t want to spend my money or tired of releasing my money or definitely having no money.

but apart from that, i want to thank her for having such a friend like her who is worth all the eye-popping laughs and heart-exhausting cries. thanks jue for sharing me everything. and on your 16^th burpsdei, i wish that you could reach your dreams, have a long and healthy life with your special someone, and be happy. happy birthday jue.!

to my gff.

charlene m. galenzoga.

for all the times she stood by me [parang kanta no? haha.], for all the laughs she shared with me, for all the split second she carved up just to be with me in times that i needed her the most, for everything – the love, care and affection… thank you.

for all the times i let her suffer the consequences of my cruelty, for acceding her be hurt by my ungentle deeds, for giving her the agony of waiting for me, for shedding tears just because i am unhappy, for conferring her the passion i must carry, for all the demises – her dreams, friendship and verve… i am sorry.

and i’m hoping that this could be the start of something new; for us to terminate our so-called immaturity and to establish something full-grown; for setting aside our worries and escape the lethal human race [acting surreal is baduy, but i want it to be sweet.]; for us to cherish the remaining 42 days if you’ll decide to continue; for me to show you that i care and love you coz that’s what i really know; for you to be around and feel my existence; for another flash – a day or a week, a month or a year, a lifetime…i love you.

well, as you can read, my major words are just consist of 8 letters. 8 letters, that’s all i want to say – thank you, i am sorry, i love you.

twilight..

-if all else perished and he remained, i should still continue to be. and if all else remained and he was annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger.-

-i don’t have the strength to stay away from you anymore.-

notice how all of a sudden love quotes revolved on twilight. but do we really need to seek for the impossible? we can’t be vampires as lovers, or be perpetual and immortal, or even perfect. but what we can do is to be just inspired by the story and stick to the reality. though we can’t be bella and edward, we can be ed and cha and create our own twilight love story.

happy birthday.

happy heart’s day.

love?

2009-02-17T11:53:00.002+08:00

marry me [her name], you'll never have to be alone.
i love you and that's what i really know.

love comes to those who believe it and that's the way it is.

so love. surreal. so imaginative. i always thought that love is something beyond my grasp, that it is something unfathomable and a vast ocean of pure hallucinations bringing so much frustrations into one's innocent life which makes me ponder that if love is that nonsense after all, then why enter that world? i'm deceived by the fact that it's a worthwhile experience for my peer pressures and study so i try it. and i'm right, it's a total escape from my world. i learned to forget myself and the world i'm about to take as a luggage. it's fun, i had built my dreams with her, write her name with my surname, share to her my top secrets, give advice to each other in times we are being hit by tides and most of all, to love and to feel that you are definitely loved.

that's the happiest and coolest part of all. but love, same goes with life, can't be so grool without hardships and tears and sobs and arguments and what more? i can't live with people almost around us - the buzz, the gossips, the comments - and it bothers me all the time. i want to escape it but the only way is to forget it; forgetting everything and be back to my shell. yet i realized that problems can't be solved if you won't face it, if you'll just stay in your comfort zone and let things happen without even having second thoughts is a big mistake. so i learned to face it and we had our way to the exit of the cruel world. now the parents corner. for love's sake, mothers and fathers don't want their children to be associated with the hurtful earth. they don't even let their sons and daughters be bitten by a mosquito so why let them be hurted by humans? - the agony they feel when being left behind, the pain, the endless cry-me-a-river moments. but we turned our backs and tried to be discrete and we have to tell lies. that's the hardest part of all. not just lying but gambling - laying a bet and investing to something you don't know will last forever.

now, the green eyes? it's the easiest thing to be resolved yet the hardest to deal with. i can't deal with my emotions as people try to covet her attention, divert her love into someone else. it gives me pain. how am i suppose to be happy when i'm not assured by it? bob ong once wrote to his book that - kung sa tingin mo ay hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo, puwes, tama ka. kasi kung mahal ka niya talaga, hindi ka niya hahayaang mag-isip ng ganyan. he's damn right! but i know that no matter how many guys blinked their eyes to avert her attention or how many times he had been with these guys, if we are meant to be then there's no reason for jealousy.

i love her, she loves me and what more could i wish for?

am i that odd? i'm trying to fix things. i hope that she'll dance with me on our upcoming prom. wish me luck!

p.s. the prom update.
my partner is aika neth sophia silva - my girlfriend's bestfriend and my friend's girlfriend.

today is 15..

2009-02-15T14:46:00.004+08:00

this day? it's far different from yesterday..

i had to cancel a barkada trip at kalandagan just to finish my sister's term paper on architecture. i have to email her my reaction if green archi can be considered as tropical design and if tropical design is a sustainable design. it's very "not me". first, architecture is not my field and it's very unusual for a high school student to write a term paper. second, i'm discouraged by promises. my second cousin promised me that she'll gave me a prize for writing her reaction paper on nursing. that was a year ago and still nothing happens with the present. and now? i toldmy ate not to promise me anything coz i'll just do it for the sake that we are magkapatid. silly.

so now? i'm blogging. i'm done with this emailing stuff. i search the net for a barong tagalog. i'm struggling to find the most suited barong to the vintage-concept prom. did i say that our prom will be a vintage style prom? yes. it will come to life on the near future. cotillion de honor practice will start tomorrow. i'm praying for a good dancer slashed good partner.

i want to make love right nanana. haha.
making love to booty music. :D

tell me. what's your fave disco song?

nywei. sa tingin niyo? saan ang magandang barong? haha.

sana maging maayos ang prom namin.

nga pala. kasiyahan nawa ng Diyos ang mga kalahok sa NSPC mula sa Sultan Kudarat Polytechnic State College pati na rin sa kapatid ko.

at dito po nagtatapos ang araw ko. :D

valentine's day? :C

2009-02-14T14:26:00.003+08:00

hmp? so my valentine?

i spent my 24 hours with this girl who gave everything for me to be satisfied, my prime inspiration why i never gave up when problems pour like its almost raining cats and dogs, my number one fan, the number one love of my life. well, her face was not one of those thousands and thousands of heartless zombies who resolved to play safe. she was peculiar in her own way. no wonder she captured the heart of a man who's sensible responsibility never sucks. never fails. nywei, what have we done? we eat food at the same time. drink water at the exact moment and that's it. that's love. she was happy while she was with me. good thing, her boyfriend never envied me nor turned green because i was there, almost ruining their valentine momentum.

you might be wonderin' who's this girl i spent my heart's day with. well, it's time to face the truth. that girl is my mother. haha.. :D

so the real valentine treat?

nothing. whew.

doing nothing is tiresome. aside from that? i watched the tv all day long waiting for someone to come alive and tell me "hey, it's me.. happy heart's day. lubyow.. xoxo". but i don't want to wait in vain so i busied myself in writing notes for calculus. watching my hands write numbers sucks. and what more sucks? the pain in writing it. so if you're about to ask - how's your valentine?.

for God's sake. never ever dare to ask that question. she leaves me with nothing and i'm sinking in solitary moments. this is my last high school valentine's day. the next heart's day will be different from this. happier i guess, filled with love and passion.

so what's my current status?

i need a rest. i need to withdraw myself in being hurt all the time because i choose to be hurt. now, i have to pause for a while.

not my prom.

2009-02-12T00:44:00.003+08:00

as the title implies, it is not really my prom. and because it's not mine, i should have watched the 2nd episode of one tree hill then instead of making myself at its most comfortable spot, watching couples roam around, dancing in the moon light, wearing uncomfy coats, act as i like it and denying that i'm definitely lost and out of place.

yea. it's true. and thanks to shanie. she made half of my stay worth a while. we never run out of topics to discuss and stories to share. but when the rain starts to pour like cats and dogs, the night was ruined. i can't stand the cold, it's my weakness. nywei, thanks to her, for inviting me and sharing me what it feels to have a promenade - a promenade not meant for me.

the last three music? oh God, come on! make it four or five. haha. the only girl i dance that night was paz [sebastian?], i really dunno her surname; that girl, who almost started the fight last saturday when her boyfriend envied our friend kix. so showbiz.

i've seen some of the gowns worn that eve - the common and usual formal wear for gals. i've seen a dress which looks exactly what bea alonzo had in their star magic anniversary way back i-dunno-year. others were almost the same in style, the only difference was the choice of color. they all looked good that night. everyone deserves a thumb up for having efforts in preparation for a once in a lifetime prom as a senior high school.

it's 12:44 A.M, and i'm right here in Cafe Cabana. all customers here are playing online games, including two homosexuals at my right side. and me? i'm over here, blogging. no sleep! we [roli, datz, jepoy, intsik, soy, kix, jchrix, rj, mike and me] all have to drink and get drunk for tomorrow is another day for us to face.

augh!

good thing, our pehm teacher is in CRAA! haha. i'll have to be in school in 6 hours to practice our intermission number, the booty music dance, and prepare our activity for the day - the SBO Pre-Valentine Escapade. and guess what? our highlight is the Battle of the Acoustics. that is not amazing coz it's awesome. haha. our next activity is the js prom on 26th day of love month. i'm so excited for the kasalan ng bayan/white prom. i have to find the suit-to-kill barong in chinese style with a monochromatic color from white to pale white to dirty white to cream. nyweis, double time.

just to add, we have to memorize this ecumenical prayer to commemorate the 23rd Edsa Revolution.

am i making sense?

nothing.

2009-02-08T14:33:00.004+08:00

nah..

it's time for something new.. whew!

i missed the real me. and it's fucking hard to pretend that you're okay knowing you're not..

augh.

it hurts.

no one knows me like the way i know myself. of course.

gossip girl says: what started as a fling sometimes lead to the real thing..

and so?

think about it my friend..

retreat.. ♥

2009-02-06T11:36:00.005+08:00

sa retreat.. bow.

wala lang.. andami kong narealize sa life, love at family ko..

sa life.. "life unreflected is a life not worth living.."
kinakailangang sinupin ang buhay.. iexamine kumbaga.. alamin ang mga pasikot-sikot at bigyang halaga ang mga bagay-bagay na kinakaharap.. never ever dare to turn down problems or parang ipagsawalang bahala kasi the real solution of a problem comes when it's faced.. dbuh..? next is, never under estimate others and over estimate yourself.. bakit..? kasi ho pag binababa mo ang moral ng iba ay magsisisi ka dahil sila sila rin ang mukha na iyong makikita kung sakaling nasa taas ka at naisip mong bumaba.. at kung magyayabang ka, siguraduhin mong may maipagmamayabang ka dahil kung anong taas ng mga kaangasan at kapilyuhan mo ay siyang kay lalim ng kakahulugan mo.. meron pa pa lang isa.. yung psychology of the soggy potato.. never give what you never have.. tama nga naman.. magbibigay ka eh alam mo naman wala ka nga ng ibibigay mo.. marami akong ginawa doon.. nagreflect ako bout how God intervene in my life pagkatapos yung life span plans ko para at least may goal ako.. gumawa din ako ng prayer para sa sarili ko at narelease ko na rin ang mga hurts na matagal ko nang ikinikimkim.. sa wakas.. parang may freedom na ako sa lahat na mabibigat na bagay na pasan ko.. ang OA noh..?

nyweis, sa love naman, "love is a decision and a commitment.."
tama nga naman diba? love lasts as long as the feeling lasts yet to make the yearning and feeling last you must strengthen it by choosing it.. ethics says love is a choice not a feeling.. kaya nga nasa taas ng puso ang utak para mag-isip tayo.. piliin natin ng tama.. kasi according to bro. jun, kung sa tingin mo ay parang naiihi ka tuwing nakikita mo ang crush mo, kung parang pinagpapawisan ka ng malagkit, kung parang naghahallucinate ka at kung ano pang sintomas na sa tingin mo ay inlub ka, well, hindi ka inlub, at ang dapat sayo ay magpatingin sa doctor kasi baka UTI ang sakit mo, o baka nadedehydrate ka lang, o kung gusto mo ng mas malalang sakit ay baka high ka lang sa drugs.. nywei, yun na yun.. use your mind! at kung niyayaya ka ng katipan mo nagmatanan o magtalik kayo.. nakup! maghunos dili ka.. kung babae ka, mahiya ka naman kasi masyado mong pinapababa ang sarili mo at respeto ng ibang tayo sa iyo.. kung lalake ka naman, matutuwa ka ba at sasabihin mo bang "galing mo.. idol!" kung ang kapatid mong babae ang magagahasa..? think about it.. mabilis ang karma! baka nga mapapatay mo pa ang nanghalay dun eh.. at ang last lesson.. sabi ni Jesus, "Mahalin mo ang kapwa mo tulad ng pagmamahal ko sa inyo." that's it.. no more elaboration.. ♥

sa family..? "when the world turned its back to you.. family is the only word you can lean on.."
yun na yun.. napaiyak talaga ako doon sa topic about sa pamilya.. "children obey your parents for this is right..". so my story, doon sa last na activity.. pinagrereflect kami bout sa parents pero hindi namin alam na andiyan lang sila.. eh ako, wala talaga.. tapos yung unti-unti nang pinapasalita yung mga batchmates ko na andiyan ang parents, halos mamaga na ang mata ko sa kakaiyak... ng matapos na ang lahat, yung retreat master namin ay nagsalita na kung sino man yung wala ang parents pero gusto magshare ay tumayo.. so tumayo ako.. tapos sabi ko, ako sir.. tapos nabigla ako.. sabi niya wag daw muna kasi andiyan na on the way ang tatay ko.. whaaaaat? may activity pa sila sa school eh kaya expected ko na pero siyempre gusto ko rin na andiyan sila kasi never nila akong pinaasa.. haay. panghuling pananalita talaga ako, sabi ko nga sa kanila na ayaw kong umiyak pero di pa rin napigil eh.. at kung ano man yun.. "what you see, what you hear, leave it here, don't declare..". wahaha.. pero basta.. self-actualized na ako..

so ano pang mga nangyari?

kinuha yung mga cellphone namin.. pero yung iba, nakuha talaga nila.. grabe.. may mga kung anu-anong reason sila eh.. yung isa, nag-unli call pa.. aba, ginawang call center ang retreat namin ah.. yung iba naman, ayaw talaga paawat sa pagtext sa mga nobya at nobyo.. haay. na lang.. pero ako, ginawa ko lang yung part ko.. alam ko namang retreat yun eh.. [aseh.. feeling good boi..]

at saka, my mga crying moments din kami siyempre sa mga kabatch namin.. grabe.. konting panahon na lang ang gugugulin namin at tadaa.. graduate na kami.. pano na kaya toh..? hmmp.. thankful talaga ako sa kanila, sa kanilang pag-unawa at pagmamahal [as if naman noh? emo..] tas siyempre.. sorry talaga.. nyweis, maski sa teachers din. lalo na kay mam jovy at mam edz.. wahaha.. tapos!

[last torch parade..]

[the wings.. just imagine all senior guys wearing wings..]

[niña and gelyan..]

[whaat??]

[huh??]

[no way!!]

-the end-

going crazy..

2009-02-02T15:25:00.004+08:00

february..?

it's darn good..
and becuse of it's goodness, i found myself sinking in solace..

recollection? bukas na ho..
at ano nga ba ang dapat pag-aksayahan ng panahon sa recollection..?
ewan.. wala.. ngayon pa lang ako magseseryoso sa recollection.. [as if kaytagal ko nang nagrerecollection noh..?]
at hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko.. kung iiyak ba o magpapanggap na natatawa..
haay ewan talaga.. pero kung ano man ang nandoon, mas mabuti na hindi ko alam..
nang sa gayon ay masurpresa naman ako..
buong buhay ko ay parang hindi pa ako nagugulat sa mga nangyayari..
parang animo'y expected mo na ang lahat..
at dahil na rin napag-uusapan natin ang expectation..
sa wakas, nasa listahan na ako ng magsisipagtapos..
OA buh? parang hindi talaga ako gagraduate noh..
pero nauna pa ako sa pictorial ng yearbook kaysa sa pagtuklas na magtatapos ako..
pwede buh yun..? eh kung hindi pala ako makakapagtapos, eh di napahiya na ako dahil may litrato na ako sa yearbook..
so ano ngayon..?
ang countdown.. tama, ang countdown..
nabibilang ko na sa mga daliri ko, daliri sa kamay ko, daliri sa paa, daliri ng kaklase at guro ko ang mga nalalabing araw..
so pano ba yan..? parang mahaba pa ata.. biruin mo, daliri sa kamay ko plus sa paa ko plus daliri sa kamay ng seatmate ko at titser ko.. so ilan na yun? 40? ewan na lang pag naputulan ng daliri ang isa sa amin.. haay..
parang kaybilis ng panahon noh..? bumibilis ba talaga..? o hinuha ko lang..

nywei.. sabi nila, pag maraming paa, linta daw yun..
so pano si imelda? yung unang ginang ni f. marcos..
di ba, sabi nila ang sapatos ay isinusuot sa paa..
so pag maraming sapatos si imelda, edi marami din siyang paa..
sa maikling pananalita , linta si imelda..

paano ba yan..? nababaliw na ata ako..
iinom muna ako ng gamot..
ingat..♥

super random..

2009-01-31T18:05:00.006+08:00

nah.. iv boyle traded their 'smem eco camp' for striving hard to gird their grades.. we had our first taping for our movie slash exam in filipino, others? they had to attend the battalion formation of rotc for their grades in CAT and pehm.. and that definitely sucks.. ugh..

so the taping..? haay.o it's awful.. the takes and cuts are so mean.. and they give me loads of head aches.. and i don't have to explain myself why the vcam doesn't work the way it should be and the cast can't stick on the script coz i ruined the original script.. i know i'm the one to be blame because on the first place, it's my vcam.. secondly, i was the director.. but blaming myself won't help the movie.. so, i'll just cut it off over here and move on.. :D

now, the cheezy chiz day.. that great francis joseph chiz escudero rocked the skpsc gymnasium.. for the record:
that day gave the most number of students for a simple symposium..
that day was the only day in polytechnic wherein no one ever dared to make a noise..
that day gave the least number of students who made an excuse of peeing just to escape the momentum..
and for that, chiz made a record.. whew!
i tell you, spending 30 minutes listening for sen. escudero quoting that "hope pertains to a time yet to come, hope pertains to a place yet to be reach" is worthy compared to 24 hours of killing yourself playing dota or watching 20 episodes of one tree hill.. hearing him speak brutally against the administration is a chill shot.. and what more could a fullblooded skpscean wish for..?

haay.o time is still.. it doesn't move yet it's right there..

it's me, eduardo, and i'll leave you a saying that is "tagos hanggang buto" in layman's term..

you don't need to unbutton her shirt just to see a real view of what is she inside..
you rock, mare.. :D

dodx..

2009-01-30T12:17:00.003+08:00

wala lang.. :D

ako lang ang nag-iisang lalaki diyan.. haha..

[from left to right]

azvee

anin

jue

peyt

eduardo

aire

mitch

pajama + e

quitters..

2009-01-29T11:44:00.005+08:00

i hate quitters.. aurgh!

why? mayor narchi told me that winners never quit and quitters never win.. and so..?

haay.o okay.. nainis ako kasi nagquit sa citizenship advancement training ang balak ko pa naman sanang ipasok dahil nga sa may kagalingan.. babae siya.. sa katunayan ay isa siya sa mga namumukod tangi sa kanilang tilap.. pero, what's done is done and i had crossed the line... hindi naman namin kawalan iyon.. yun nga lang ay sayang naman kasi pinaghihirapan iyon ng iba.. kawalan niya iyon dahil kailanman ay hindi siya makakakita ng ganoong organisasyon samantalang kami ay makakahanap pa ng maaring pumalit sa kanya.. *sighs*..

at alam mo ba kung ano ang karaniwang idinadain ng karamihan sa mga aspirants..? God damn it! sitting in the air lang..! well, ikukuwento ko sa lahat ang mga pangyayari noong ako pa ang aspirant at narating ang pagiging staff 5..

huli na akong pumasok sa org dahil hindi ko mapagkumpol-kumpol at makumpuni ang aking schedule.. sbo vice gov slash technic squad dancer slash ssc officer slash school scientist slash math wiz [i doubt it!] slash family man slash journalist and *what else?* [as if naman ang galing ko diba..?].. well parang ganun na nga, so paano ba ako napasok diyan? simple lang naman gumawa ako ng pangako sa second cuz ko na kaya kong maging s2.. wahaha.. so nakapasok na ako.. kinailangan kong isigaw ang pangalan ko na dapat ay marinig ng aking pinuno na nasa dulo at kung hindi ay uulit ako hanggang sa mamalat ang boses ko.. noong ganap na akong bindetadong aspi ay unang itinuro sa akin ang marching, facing at mga pihit, lihis at liko.. kakaiba toh.. grabe..! bawat mali ay kinakailangan mong magsit sa air.. tapos siyempre, kinakailangan mong makisimpatya sa iba.. damayan ba naman..? yun ang tinatawag na unity.. wag na wag mong ipaparamdam sa kasama mo na siya lang ang maysala.. so ganun na nga.. pero akala ko hanggang doon lang.. pero hindi pala, paminsan minsan ay pinagdaduck walk din kami kapag nahuhuli sa hanay..

officer: aspirants, humanay, isa, dalawa, tatlo.. late down.. sampo..!
aspi: *syon*
officer: duck walk..

yun nga.. minsan ay inaabot ako ng alas otso sa pag-uwi para lang sa formation.. haay.o pero isa lang ang masasasabi ko..

ang bagay na pinaghihirapan ay isang bagay na makabuluhan..

at hindi diyan natatapos ang paghihirap ko.. minsan pag may topak ang commanding officer of the day ay patatakbuhin ka niya hanggang sa mahingal ka at pagkatapos ay pumping na kaagad.. naranasan ko nga ang 290 pumping at one year o 365.. nakapagpush-up rin ko noon.. pero ang hindi ko malilimutan ay pagpupush-up na ang kamay ng pinuno ay nasa ibaba.. [alam mo na yun], pero ang punto doon ay para maging determinado ka na maiangat ang sarili mong bigat.. haay.0 training pa lang yan.. wala pa ang survival.. so ang survival..?

dumating ako mga 5:00 ng umaga, pero andun na ang pinuno namin gawin alas kwatro y media.. so dahil naantala ako ng tatlumpong minuto, kinakailangan kong takbuhin ng tatlumpong beses ang aming oval.. at di lang yan, nang nakapaa.. so nagkakalmot ang mga paa ko dahil nakakaapak ako ng mga makahiya.. pero ok lang.. [ok lang buh yun..?] at mga alas otso ay umalis na ako para sa awarding ng DSPC noong 2007.. yung ibang natira ay hindi ko na alam ang nangyari.. mas lala pa siguro.. so nang dumating na akong muli ay kinakailangan kong gumapang na ang kamay ay nakatali sa likod.. gamit ang balikat ko ay tatawirin ko ang magkabilang dulo ng soccer field.. woah.. pero nakaya ko.. at pagkatapos? gutom na ako.. buti na lang at walang natirang pagkain dahil kong mayroon man ay kakain ako ng kanin na hinaluan ng sili, sardinas plus gatas, tilapia at toyo tsaka kamatis.. nakalimutan ko na ang tawag doon.. bull fight ata.. ewan.. so dahil wala akong makain ay kinailangan kong lumabas para bumili.. buti na lang, nakapagpahinga ako.. pagbalik ko ay -tadaa- face the sun.. halos lumuwa ang mata ko sa sobrang init.. pero hindi ako natinag.. naisip ko kasi na ang mga nauna sa akin ay mas grabe pa ang pinagdaraanan.. pagkatapos ng face the sun..? gagapang ka sa parang kanal.. kadiri buh? siguro nga.. pero hindi ako pinagapang lang ng basta-basta, ipinalublob din ang aking mukha.. grabe na talaga to.. pero dahil pagkatapos nun ay basa kami.. kinakailangang magpatuyo kami.. so pinatakbo kami.. pinatakbo kami na ang tanging suot ay underwear.. iba ang drill ng mga babae kaya walang bosohan.. so nang natuyo na kami.. pinahiran ng pinisang sili ang likod namin.. halos napuno ang likod ko sa nakasulat na 'i love you C7'.. pero di lang yun.. pinatakbo rin kami na parang nasusunog ang likod namin.. grabe! hayop talaga.. pero okay lang.. okay na lang.. doon nagtatapos ang physical ability test.. mayroon pang drill at pagsigaw.. at pagkatapos ng lahat ng iyon ay pinakain kami ng sili.. ang anghang! pero okay lang.. at dahil pinaghirapan ko iyon ay napili ako sa top 18! wahaha.. so tapos na buh..?

[hindi pa ho..! pagiging aspirant pa lang yan, wala pa ang pagiging pinuno na may mas mataas na pinuno.. so pano ba yan..? out muna ako.. mag-abang na lang kayo sa part 2]

so, kung nababasa nyo ito quitters, wala kayong sapat na dahilan na magquit dahil hindi niyo pa ito nararanasan, at hinding-hindi namin ito ipadadanas kaninuman.. folks told me that revenge is a dish best served cold.. but i'll serve it those who provoked me to revenge..

fcuk..

2009-01-21T10:44:00.006+08:00

eduardo latino
is
having
the
fucking
times
of his
life..

>_<

it's over! :C

2009-01-14T12:13:00.006+08:00

it's over! :C

Thank you for this moment
I've gotta say how beautiful you are
Of all the hopes and dreams I could have prayed for
Here you are
If I could have one dance forever
I would take you by the hand
Tonight it's you and I together
I'm so glad I'm your man
And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
that day
but if destiny decided I should look the other way
then the world would never know
the greatest story ever told
and did I tell you that I love you
tonight
I don't hear the music
When I'm looking in your eyes
But I feel the rhythm of your body
Close to mine
It's the way we touch, it soothes me
It's the way we'll always be
your kiss your pretty smile
you know i'd die for
oh baby
you're all i need
And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
that day
but if destiny decided I should look the other way
then the world would never know
the greatest story ever told
and did I tell you that I love you
just how much i really need you
did I tell you that I love you
tonight
tonight
And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
that day
but if destiny decided I should look the other way
then the world would never know
the greatest story ever told
and did I tell you that I love you
just how much I really need you
did I tell you that I love you tonight

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Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next?
What happens next?

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before2x

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened before

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toinkxing.. :D

2009-01-13T11:47:00.008+08:00

these are my random thoughts..
the first one is.. when i was a child..
the second one is.. blah-blah stuffs..
the third is.. graduation pictorials..
the last is.. SOHA [state of the heart address..]

so the first one.. our english teacher required us to answer our activity book paged 48-51.. it was on verbs and perfect tenses.. boring.. but thinking it as boring is fun.. so here's the instruction, write a memorable childhood memory using different verbs.. everyone had a trouble of refreshing their minds.. and here are some of the funny answers..

when i was a child:

when i was a child, i never needed anyone.. making love is just for fun, those days were gone.. :D [kanta ho yan..]
when i was a child, i listen to the radio waiting for my favorite song.. and when it plays i sing along.. :D [kanta rin toh..]
when i was a beautiful child.. [sinulat ni totoy.. :D]
when i was a child, i was soaked into the deep salty water.. [haha.. nalunod ho siya, hindi binabad sa tubig..]
when i was a child, I wanna be famous
I wanna be a star, I wanna be in movies
When I grow up, I wanna see the world
Drive nice cars, I wanna have boobies.. [feeling nicole..

++++++++++++++++

i traded my study time for producing my post-Christmas slash pre-valentine slash recollection slash friendship slash slash gift.. and because of it my research physics sucked and same goes with my calculus.. i didn’t drew to close my assignments and i failed my quizzes. . i’m always out of coverage for cheating signals.. sometimes, i’m the one supplying it and i stopped.. i’m used to it but i’m very somnolent.. whew!

++++++++++++++++

btw, we’ll be having our pictorials for our yearbook on monday, january 19, 2008.. i’ll be wearing a toga, at last and at least.. at last because after 4 straight years, i’ll be graduating.. at least because it’s not what i wished for [i always dream of having pictures that will speak about my high school not just my graduation.. it’s boring..]..

++++++++++++++++

point of inquiry.. have you ever meet a love doctor?

i need to have a session with him/her.. i’m having insomnia, and some says that if you can’t sleep in the middle of the night, it means that there is someone deeply thinking of you.. is it true? or just an another bunch of myth and shushes.. another thing is, if pimples occur, then you're really in love.. why is it so? does that mean that i’m profoundly in love that’s why i’m having acne vulgaris.. the love sick? is there a genuineness behind it..? if there is, then can someone explain why i’m having this purported afternoon weakness.. there are so many questions and i need an urgent answer..

well, those are just symptoms of my undefined illness.. but my real reason behind this consultation is that.. “is it right to be jealous if someone loves the one you loved?”; my point is this so-called commitment thing and my possessiveness.. ok, here is the situation.. i have a partner [my gf], i’m a year ahead of her and then she has this classmate slash friend slash lover.. before you met each other, they’ve been going out and bonds with each other.. but then you came into the scene and you’re her love.. now the issue, is it right for you to be a little bit scallop [shellfish but i used it as a term for selfish] and demand her to stay away with her friend who recently opened up to her that she’s still the love of his life? is it right for me to be jealous knowing that i have only about 3 months to hang about our time before graduation? i’m hysterical..

we’re currently into this confrontation trying to patch things up.. and then she told me that i have no trust.. t.r.u.s.t.? haay.o i am not losing the reliance and faith because if i mislaid it, then there’s no reason to hang on coz i had stop believing and there’s no point for commitment if love is fleecing.. now, from my own point of view, the real concern here is how to manage the green-eyed mindset.. i’m invidious about seeing them having lot of time to each other while i can’t even had a glimpse of her time; i envied everything about them because i hate and i’m scared of the fact that there is someone loving the one i loved and the one i loved can’t surrender him because of their friendship.. yes, i consider that they are really friends, but what i can’t assure of myself is the fact that there is someone who can takes the advantage of taking my place.. i’m disgusted with the fact that there is someone that can replace me.. but i can’t blame them, maybe i was in the wrong side, i’m the wrong one and it’s really my fault for being the green-eyed.. how i wish i could bear the pain..

i want to set her free because i know that i just can’t take good care of her but thinking of it makes me feel that it will just make me feel worse.. it seemed that i love her but i just can’t take the consequences of loving her.. ‘alam kong hindi na siya masaya sa akin at napapaisip ako na bigyan naman siya ng laya dahil nasasakal na siya sa akin.. pero parang ayaw ko kasi parang ang sakit sa part ko.. para siyang halaman na kinuha ko ng buong-buo pero di ko naman kayang alagaan.. gusto ko siyang maging masaya pero kung magiging masaya siya sa iba ay mas mabuting magdusa na lang siya sa akin.. napakaselfish ko talaga.. alam ko ngang di ko na kayang alagaan pero di ko magawang bitiwan.. siguro nga mahal ko lang siya.. and i believe na yung love na yun is the only way to make things right.. but kung totoo nga yun, sana maayos na to..

i’m not the one you needed, i love you and i wish it won’t be goodbye..

chuelete

2009-01-12T16:11:00.007+08:00

ito ang pinagmamalaki kong pelikula..

"chueLete"

starring..

edward "ting" cullen

and

isabella "silver" swan

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nyweis, sawa na rin ako sa school.. parang pumapasok na lang ako para icomply ang 10 hours requirement para sa graduation.. parang andun ka pero parang wala ka naman.. madalas ako nananaginip ng gising.. palagi kong pinapanaginipan ang j.s. prom, ang recollection, ang graduation, ang pelikula namin, ang college life.. haay.o at biglang mapapagod na ako sa kakaisip ng mga pangyayari.. paminsan-minsan, tinatanong ko ang sarili ko, "bakit hindi na lang kaya ako umuwi?" o di kaya "try ko kayang magcut ng class.." pero parang naaalibadbaran ako.. dahil una, wala namang tao sa bahay at isa pa kung magcut ako ng class, wala naman akong kasama, boring naman kung magkaganun dbuh?.. txk..

nasabi ko na rin lang ang prom.. itutuloy ko na rin ang kuwento.. i'm having my pre-prom madness na sa ngayon.. hindi ko maipaliwanag ang excitement ko.. kung sinong partner ko at kung sino ang makakatabi ko sa table, sino kaya ang first dance ko, sino ang mga mananalo.. basta.. pero ang weirdest thing sa promenade namin is para kang ikakasal.. nakasuot ang lalaki ng barong tagalog samantalang nakaputing gown naman ang mga babae.. parang napapaisip tuloy ako na mang"gate crash" ng ibang prom para makapagsuot naman ako ng tuxedo o polo pagkatapos hindi na lang puti ang makikita ko.. meron din periwinkle at maraming colors.. haay.o pero kahit nakabarong ako noon, naggawa ko pa ring magdisco.. masaya naman talaga ang prom.. sana nga makatatlong prom ako this senior year.. sana may magsponsor mula sa montessori ng isulan at notre dame ng isulan para makasubok naman ako.. nga pala, heto yung mga naging litrato ko noong junior prom namin..

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ang pelikula namin ay mukhang nahuhuli na para sa school mtrcb.. hindi pa kami nakatapos ng script.. kakainis minsan kasi walang fixed decision ang grupo.. ngayon ay back to scratch naman kami ulit.. haay.o ang ibang grupo nakapagshoot na, kami wala pa.. pero sige na lang.. ano pa ba ang maggagawa ko niyan..

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

values is hell.. as in.. napagod na ako sa kakasulat ng mga bagay na hindi ko naman alam kung may relasyon sa topic namin.. parang nag-aaral ako ng araling panlipunan eh.. kakainis tuloy at nahihinuha ko lang, pag ang values class namin ay naging isang linggo, ang ballpen ko ay hindi aabot ng dalawang araw.. parang matatapos na ang buong taon pero naubos na ang pagpapahalaga ko at ang tanging naiwan na lang ay galit at poot.. haay.o tinawag din niya akong tamad sa gitna ng klase dahil daw ang gusto ko lang ay magpakadali sa buhay.. ewan ko ba sa kanya.. pero ok lang yan, konting panahon na lang at makakapagtapos na rin ako.. :D

latino idiosyncrasy

2009-01-10T15:12:00.001+08:00

latino idiosyncrasies

i can’t sleep with lights off..
i don't write on my notebook coz i have no notebook and i don't take notes.. :D
i like girls that are impressive and names starting in letter C and J..
i don't know how to cook.. :[[
i love the company of girls rather than being with guys..
i'm afraid of cats, dogs and mice..
i love singing songs that i don't know the lyrics..
i always ask for more even though i'm full..
i hate being alone..
i hate being the talk of the town..
when i'm sick of everything, i sleep.. i only cry for drama..
i can't sleep without a blanket..
i pretend that i know the subject though i find it hard to believe that my answers are all wild guess..
i hate the pretender behind my back when i'm in the classroom..

"i don't give any reason for anyone to hate me,
they just create their own drama of pure insecurity.."

iv boyle..

2009-01-09T11:20:00.005+08:00

maniwala ka man o sa hindi..
panalo ang estudyante laban sa mga guro.. at bakit hindi..?

walang pasok sa computer.. brown-out ang comp lab at pinlano naming magshooting sa araw na ito para sa pinananabikang pelikula namin sa ikaapat na markahan..

magkakaroon sana kami ng pagsusulit sa chemistry pero muling nagpunyagi ang aming "delaying tactics" laban sa aming pinakamamahal na guro.. hamakin mo ba namang dalawang oras naming mistulang bilugin ang parisukat na ulo niya para lamang iwasan ang kinatatakutang pagsusulit.. sa pagnanais ng mga nagtatangkang pigilin ang naturang quiz ay pinahaba ng mga iv boyle ang diskusyon mula sa mga functional groups ng hydrocarbons hanggang umabot sa usaping lasingan.. sa kabilang panig ay ipinakalat naman ng mga di kilalang mag-aaral ang isang papel kung ano ang masasabi ng iilan sa klase.. narito ang ilang nadampot na sagot:

"chemistry o chesmistry?.. drink to die, ho ho ho.." - perx..
"kapagod magpretend na alam mo ang leksyon" - anonymous..
"understanding si maam, gusto ko siyang i kiss" - rey..
"palagi akong napapapunta sa CR kung chem" - anonymous 2..
"magagamit ko ba yang 'nal' at 'nol' kung mag-aasawa ako?" - normz..

marami pa yan.. inabot lang ako ng pagkabatugan ko..

natapos ang klase na walang nangyari.. lumabas siya sa apat na sulok ng silid na iniwan ang lahat ng maaari niyang ituro pero iniwan din namin.. :D

sa paghihintay sa klase sa filipino na nauwi naman sa wala ay nagulantang ang lahat ng napasigaw si niña.. haay.o

nagulat lang pala siya sa paglalaro ng deal or no deal sa psp ni jue.. haha..

nyweis.. natapos ang araw na parang wala lang..

iv-boyle

p.s. may inumang magaganap mamayang hapon pagkatapos ng aming pagsusulit sa araling panlipunan.. last man standing ang labanan sa mga bote ng redhorse.. isa ako sa iinom.. sana nga ay matuloy ako sa drinking session.. at sana rin ay hindi malasing..

twilight and research..

2009-01-08T13:11:00.000+08:00

what..? cullen and swan on frontpage.. [as if i care that much].. well, they both deserve the limelight as of the moment.. first, for hitting the wide screen with a bang.. and the second, they are hot enough to be in every mags frontispiece, aren't they?

nyweis, this post was not intended for stephanie mayer's imaginary character..

[intro..]

gelyan brought out her PSP while having class in research physics...
tintin showed her delaying tactics to our teacher trying to save us from hell..
jue talked about illuminati and told me to consider it..
norman arranged the chairs so close to each other that you find it hard to breathe..
then.. boom..!

she entered the room..
all was quiet for the mean time..
she tried to make some intro before showing us what hell would look like..
and then.. she told everyone.. "number one.."

OMG! the quiz was a tectospinal reflex stimulator..
i wish you had seen us with heads in 360 degrees..
the murmurs, the whispers and the coaching filled the silent room..
we were in panic in almost 15 minutes..
some tried to open their notes..
some opened their notes..
some tried to stretched their neck like the giraffes..
some simply looked the ceiling as if trying to ask the flourescents "do you have the answer..?"
but the heroes..?
they tried to be heroic..
worked on their own..
and then "time's up"..

the feeling of hell was over..

and i got a perfect circle.. zero..
no, it's two zeroes..
100.. :D

2nd grading..♥

2009-01-07T11:23:00.007+08:00

my grades were finally released after a year..

the room was filled with tensions and speculations but sad to say some of my fellows didn't even had a glimpse of their report cards.. some even beg just to see their form 138.. but the rule is the golden rule: no parents, no card.. nyweis, the result of my cutting classes and not listening to my subject teachers were as follows:

2nd grading period

filipino : 94.90
social studies : 94.00
pehm : 90.58
values : 88.90
english : 94.50
chemistry : 92.80
math : 94.54
computer : 94.40
research physics : 93.20
calculus : 91.10

thanked God i passed calculus.. the honor list was down to the top 8 from top 12.. 4 students failed their calculus and so they failed the honor list.. the regrets were overflowing.. imagine, 3 months na lang.. haay.o but rules are rules..

the recollection is fast approaching.. february 2-3..
smem eco camp will be on january 31 to february 1.. [month-long, isn't it..?
lolx :D]
then the prom..
then what..?!
graduation..

i wish i could turn back time..
play more..
study less..

but it's almost over..

skool? not cool..

2009-01-06T15:26:00.003+08:00

uhm.. start of the class was yesterday.. but the official class will be tomorrow.. and today, just an another happy day for eduardo latino..

what's inside my mind..? random thoughts..

the story for our film was changed yesterday.. from hayskul layp to toga.. the story is about a mysterious killing in the BW High.. it's scary.. just imagine, being killed using a pencil while drawing something, or being dropped from a two storey building, or being burned like a piece of paper.. haha..

we'll be having a quiz on trigonometric identities tomorrow.. and then a long quiz that will serve as our assignment in Social Studies.. frustrating!

nyweis.. kung nakita niyo lang ang mga reaction ng mga teachers namin.. haha.. as in.. wala kasing nakikinig sa kanila.. yung chemistry subject namin, tinulugan lang namin.. kapagod kasi mag-isip.. pero may natutuhan din naman ako eh.. that "0.4% ang alcohol content ng beer and a bottle of beer everyday is good for the health.." aside from sucking chemistry, kakapagod din mag-isip sa math.. unholy hour kasi eh.. at ang values..? buti na lang at reporting kami.. haha :D..

so calculus..? nosebleed.. i can't differentiate the formula for rectangular and parallelogram using the normal form equation of the line.. mabuti sana kung length times width lang or 1/2 base times height lang.. kakainis.. pero still survive pa naman eh..

schedule of exams? tentatively.. 15-16.. or baka 20-21..

hahays..

that's all for now..♥

p.s. may idinagdag akong bagong post.. actually luma na toh, nakalimutan lang ipost.. yung December 18 at 24 na post.. tenkyu..

dugtungan..

2009-01-04T16:26:00.005+08:00

chika you like..?
sharing i like..

nabasa ko na rin lang sa blog ni camille.. dudugtungan ku na rin..

well, camille was absolutely right with that 'gayguy' label.. haha :D

so my story..? it was almost christmas, when i finally had glimpsed on the most talked about 'twilight'.. there was a line i quote there.. "i don't have the strength to stay away from you anymore..", i send it to everyone.. of course.. kasali xa doon.. then guess what? he retorted..

"love mo ako pare..? di tayo talo.."

i told him that it was from twilight and asked him if he had watched it.. he said yes.. so in my mind, i want to tell him.. "gago ka eh.. nakita mo man gali kag daw hangag ka.. kag isa pa, wala man ko interest sa imo..".. but do you know what's the thing i can't take..? i asked for gifts during the yuletide season.. and surprisingly, he replied..

"kiss na lang tol, gusto mo..?"

as in to my face.. i never texted him since that day.. and one thing that annoys me, he calls me "cute" though i admit that i am not.. nyweis.. i don't know if that's his game.. he planned to court jue but then he asked someone.. "bakla ko aw..?" haha.. it's quoted..

the end..

2009..

2009-01-04T15:37:00.006+08:00

life is too short..

i'm in hermitic mood.. the new year..?

it sucks.. no fire crackers, no fire works..
it's great.. bottomless wines and foods..

so my new year's resolution..?

nothing as of the moment..

what do i want for 2009?

a proper posture..
a good body buildup..
a diploma..
a good card passport to college with no grade below my standards..
a notebook/laptop..
admission slip for UP and ADDU..
scholarship from DOST-SEI..
two picture-filled albums, one with high school life and the other is a secret..
attendance in ILC..
motorcycle..
a good movie..
my own house in iloilo..
a college grade of 1..
new friends..
sony cybershot phone..
marriage.. [seryoso ho ako]

what do i want to get rid for 2009?

M.N..
and this blog..
[that's all..]

so?

was that a good start for 2009..?

i guess..
i wish..♥

the eve..

2008-12-24T15:23:00.001+08:00

What a day.. I mean, it’s a supercalifragilisticexpialidocious.. haha.. exaggerated a bit.. today’s december 24, and it’s an unusual day for me.. bizarre? i guess, it’s exasperating..? now I’m playing again with my vocabulary.. I’m the family’s wordsmith.. and so what? So what’s the other term that best suits my mood? Devastating? Frustrating? oh.. gardamit.. (it’s my ate’s bad word..) well, any way this irksome feeling is bugging me.. my lil sis is having her 12^th burtdei, my parents are on their i-dunno-year anniversary.. all are panicking.. I’m on the girl’s room, and I’m writing how damned the day is.. i dunno what to say.. it’s Christmas eve.. what..?? yes it is.. [sigh.. just an intro]

Nyweis, I’m having ice cream while my throat suffers from cough.. I’m sick.. not with my life but I’m just terribly sick – having that doctor’s term afternoon sickness.. it’s like you feel good all through out the day and then tadaa.. you’re lying in your bed at sunset begging for your mother’s alms.. yet this post is not all about how sick I am.. this is all about Christmas.. so then what is Christmas..? it’s a pajama you only wear at night, isn’t it..? as an observation to this generation, I’ve seen so much evolution slash transformation slash total makeover of the past traditions.. I remember when I was a kid, just about 6, I joined our neighbors caroling houses nearby and even baranggays.. and even though the all souls’ day has just ended, lights were almost at the street leaving no time for ghost busting.. so what’s the bottom line? My point is, it’s dilapidating.. maybe just here in isulan, I have no idea with the flipside of the earth or in some part of Philippines.. i can’t feel the spirit of Christmas in town.. I dunno why, it’s hard to find the reason at all.. and a fast fact.. some of those who are in church for the misa de gallo are just completing 9 mornings to make a wish without even listening to the homily.. others were there to meet their textmates.. what’s their point after all? For me, more than insulting Christ, they are just embarrassing their selves.. shame on them.. I guess no matter how the priests preach that Christmas is in our hearts, no matter they try to persuade that everyday is Christmas, it’s just the same.. it’s a pajama you only wear at night.. I’m mad with the fact that it’s seasonal.. it’s like a cloudy day in Wednesday.. Thursday’s cloudy day is not the same as Wednesday’s cloudy day.. I’m over this stuff..

Yepee.. I had just finished reading m.j. rose’s 330 paged sheet music.. the story was unpredictable.. from a scandalous expose of a chef’s life to being inclined to a cellist.. then being involved in a crime, the journalist turned into a detective.. it’s fun.. as my second-cousin used to describe it, it’s for adults only.. haha.. I mean the terms their.. the scenes.. they’re x rated.. and guess what? It’s a girl’s book.. but I had read all of it.. it’s gross discussing here on this site how some girls try to seduce men.. it’s part of the book, how to describe life using foods and cooking or the body likened to a cello..

Haha.. I want more books.. more, more and more.. I haven’t craved for books this much.. I’m finishing martha grimes’ stargazey and after it, barbara kingsolver’s the prodigal summer, then case of lies, and more..

“you can’t walk away from who you are..” the wind is blowing and the snow still obliterates the view of the skyscrapers.. “no matter you deny, think or block, you still go to sleep at night and dream the dreams that have always haunted you. if only there’s a way to change your dreams.. now, that might make a difference..”♥

December 18, 2008

2008-12-18T15:17:00.001+08:00

December 18, 2008

Woah.. guess what? the anniversary.. it was fun and very memorable.. reminiscing 365 days of being on a relationship.. the tears shed perfectly, the laughs, the peevishness, grumps and tantrums, the kiss-and-makeups, the green-eyed mindset, the bears, the bracelet, everything.. it all started with one glimpse..

it was valentine’s day.. i was a sophomore then, she was new for me.. i mean, I have no idea that she would exist.. when I was running for the school org, my party was close-up, hers was jam.. i dunno what’s the meaning of the party anymore.. well, i was in the room when they were having their campaign and I said to myself “ano buh toh lahat ata ng mga kapartido ni ate rona may sira sa mata” [I’m referring to michelle’s close-open eyes – it’s a disease; and her eyes, it’s unusual, ‘kirat’ was the term for it – it’s also her talent, my sister told me that her eyes can do things others can’t.. but above all, it’s her asset, and that’s the reason why I fell in love with her..] nyweis, it’s not about her eyes.. back to the valentine.. as I was saying, i dunno her.. i was giving flowers then to my girl friends – my girl classmates, I mean.. and then one flower was left.. it was anthurium.. i met kikay in the hallway, her classmate.. she asked “kay sino mo na ihatag..?”, I replied, “ambot..ihatag na lang didto sa kirat oh.. haha”.. she said, “pagsure.. gingaan man siya ni kuya al sang white flower”.. I answered, “ah ok.. wala man takun balak ihatag ni sa iya..” then hurled the flower to the trash can.. but marking that day, it was the start..

summertime was almost there, my sister’s graduation was upcoming .. the heat.. i was then a first-time user of my phone.. I’m fond of having textmates then.. ada, her batchmate was one of them.. i asked her for new buddies, she gave me cha’s number.. haha.. i was stupid then, i was courting informally a girl from a notre dame school.. [her initials was CCP, from Isulan.. btw, my crushes have names starting letter C if not J].. so the first topic? the name, and everything which includes favorites and crushes.. i was asking her who’s her crush.. she told me, rey.. i said “ah.. ako di mo iask? si c*****n”, I was kapal that moment.. and from ultimate crush we switched to top five crushes.. she told me, first was rey, then kuya al and no more.. i replied her the names of c*****n, jue, anin, alyssa and no more.. but i was intrigued with her answer, why two when I asked five, she sarcastically responded with returning the question, why four when the issue was about five.. so I told her that she’ll be the fifth just to complete the list and she did the same thing, putting my name on her list.. haha.. that was the start..

i was in trouble that time, i am supposed to be committed with C but what am I feeling towards her? infatuation.. duh? acquaintance party was over and I was outside the school waiting for a ride when my classmates teased me.. she was there.. we had a pic.. so much for this.. starting that day, I began weighing things… august 17, 2007, I talked to her.. told her that I have an unfinished business with someone.. and guess what? I asked her if she could wait.. and she said yes.. ‘say you’ll never go’ by erik was playing that moment, we were in the gym, there were badminton players, the stage was occupied by the teatro..

that was it.. it was a long wait for a girl.. then, the feeling started to fade.. it was only revived by the RSPC ’07 in mlang.. i was desperate to console her, about being ashamed for not giving back to her parents what they deserve [she was the first place in photo journ in DSPC, her father bought her a camera for the regional SPC but she failed to be triumphant..].. then december 8, I asked if we are all on this together.. she said yes and explained to me that “ge uh.. tayo na.. laro-laro lang”.. i was annoyed by it.. so I waited for the right time to formally voice out what I feel.. ten days after it was december 18.. the Christmas party.. i was wearing a shirt printed with 18, and then I entered their classroom – no students, no chairs. empty [they were having outdoor party].. she pierced the room with her high-cut shoes suited for her jumper.. I gave her my gift, gryxia, and then she told me that the one she’ll give is the one I’m wearing.. that moment I realized that there is ‘destiny’.. i had her hands with my hands and told her the reason why there are gaps behind the fingers.. so that when the right man comes along, it will perfectly go with the gaps, locking it and walk with you forever..

corny, ayt..? that was the before and during december 18, 2007..

and then, trials come along with us – her parents, my friends, her immaturity, my schedule, her suitors, my attitude.. whew.. counting all the moments we’ve shared? it’s one fourth of the whole year.. the only time we are meeting each other was during our monthsary.. 18, kung minsan nga ay wala pa.. this year’s acquaintance party, was not like last year.. i was crying the whole night.. intrams was not like last year.. i was busying myself to work just to avoid her.. but then i realized.. what’s my point? to let myself suffer? O’cmon.. fucktardish.. so I gave up on my childish behavior.. and here is the fact.. we only talked to each other because of RSPC, december 15.. the contests were about to start and I approach her, “galingan mo ha.. good luck”, she replied.. “kaw rin” then yun lang.. she went home after her competition.. and that night, I realized that I’m sorry for myself.. for my attitude, I guess.. I apologized to her and then tadaa.. awarding time.. [I am not victorious], when her name was called for the second place.. I told myself, thanked God hindi siya minalas, malas na nga siya sayo.. and then shouted as if I’m the one winning.. janin even requested me to get cha’s medal since cha was the one receiving my medal in DSPC, but I refuse.. so that was it..? nope, I congratulate her.. and she said.. thank you.. that was the before december 16.

december 17 was Boyle’s Christmas Party.. only Boyle [meron pa palang Einstein pero madali lang sila sa school].. it was lunch time.. we were giving gifts then when joann told me that cha was waiting in the study area [nauna pa dito, ininform na rin ako ni gerique na sa taas daw si cha naghihintay..], I hurried up, and there she was.. my whole perception was we are not in good connection.. but we talked as if we are fine, she said “merry Christmas”, I retorted “tani bwas na lang.. malakat man ku house niyo.. nabilin ko bi regalo ko..”, she replied, ok lang.. she also said that I should leave because it will be my last class party.. but before leaving her, I whispered “I love you, advance happy anniversary..”.. she grinned..

so the 18?

It was late afternoon.. I was riding a cab.. people were curious about what’s in the paper bag.. that moment I become conscious of my cellular.. when I opened it, there were messages of greetings. I was in tacurong.. i have to take a ride from jollibee to 7^th block of new rosario..and then, there I was, standing in front of their house.. she went out, I told her that here is my gift and I’ll have to leave.. but she insisted to let me in.. and so I did.. she introduced me to her cousin, her sisters.. her classmate rue was also there scanning pics of their party.. and so we talked for a while, she had her hands on my neck.. she told me that I was sick and she was right.. it was a smooth conversation.. about everything.. she showed me her pics in the RSPC, her contest piece.. it was amazing.. the title was “it’s done and it’s gone”.. her pics was peculiar.. even the rejected ones – the calendar marked on it’s 18^th day of the last month, the converse shoes of jhed at the top of the stairs, the notebook with a girl writing what she wants this Christmas… it was all breath taking.. and then her cousin offered us ice cream, she scooped and gave it to me but I declined because I have coughs.. so she ate it by herself.. that moment, I formally gave her my gift.. she wanted to open it, I told her that I’m ashamed of it.. after giving me havaianas, wouldn’t I be ashamed of giving her another bear?.. we named it yuri.. our third child.. haha.. gryxia, exactly one year ahead of him, and jouve, born last august 17, 2008 was her siblings.. nyweis, I decided to leave.. I’m afraid her father will catch us.. so I bade goodbye.. I was about to get across the tricycle when I whispered her thanks, and more years to come.. 43!♥

That was it.. and it’s not the end of it..

the last christmas party..

2008-12-17T16:49:00.000+08:00

the Christmas Party..!

yepee..

straight ahead after the RSPC, the Christmas Party of the IV BOYLE had its grandest celebration in its fourth year of existence.. i mean, hello.. the last christmas is the most extravagant.. as being flashed in the "the Boyleteen's Board", IV boyle's official class paper - bracket b, miyur narci raised 9k as the fund of the party.. it's too much for a class of 38 students.. well, one thing, for sure, will not be excluded for the reason of having the celeb.. the search for the ultimate wardrobe queen and king.. as for my own judgement, the most sizzling attire goes with michelle rose, the broken one.. his partner? uhm, whose the gorgeous of the guys.? let's say dutch.. haha.. uhm, my dress was inspired by a geek.. haha,

so the party?

it's fun after all.. the rap showdown.. seeing the girls wearing urban hip clothes is a joke.. i mean, just try to imagine? and my most awaited part..? porscher singing 'lando'.. haha.. it's a day full of laughters.. the winning team, niña's team..

next?

the guessing game, it's a test for the ultimate friends.. how far do they know about each other, there were no prize given but the fact that you had answer all the question regarding your friend is a priceless thing.. emote..

so then is the exchange gifts slash party slash trivia..

the rule is, the mayor will start the exchange of gifts but before giving her gift, she'll have to answer first the questions prepared by everybody [the questions were objective, it's a sort of refresh of the past happenings, dates, place and memorable lines..].. if she didn't get the answer correctly, she'll have to pick the consequence.. haha.. so my turn, the question was when was the last open forum in second year.. i have no idea at all.. but the answer was, august 30, 2006.. now i remember after that forum is princess' burtdei.. so my dare? i'll have to sing and dedicate it to my special someone.. i sang "your call" and of course, dedicate it to my gf.. hmmp..

so my gift? katleya gave me a pillow slash stuffed toy plus patches of "C+E" inside a heart.. i was overwhelmed.. anin gave me a book entitled, the prodigal summer.. azvee gave me a letter.. and guess what.. my gf gave me a pair of slippers.. the havaianas.what did i give? for joann, a cd of violin classical songs which includes one of my favorite - romeo and juliet, and a lamp, it's personalized.. for my gf..? another teddy bear.. i'm fond of giving her bears.. the first one was gryxia, who'll turn 1 year old tomorrow, the other was jouve.. and the recent? it's yuri..

hmmp.. tomorrow is our anniversary.. whew!
nyweis, it's not yet over..

we throw icing on every face.. mine was like a clown.. see that? it was from jue.. an unprotected file of her..

ekis-oh, ekis-oh
eduardo latino♥

rspc.

2008-12-16T16:12:00.007+08:00

what to say..?
the RSPC..♥

jam, aire, eduardo, jue, peyt, narci, anin, norman and honey

well, the yearning for the RSPC was over.. haha... and i'm over it.. but still, i'm having some regrets.. first, i could have done better.. second, i did not stick to the guidelines [having the word "at" in the headline is a mortal sin according to narci..] and the last..? my girlfriend is going to the national level.. and so? oh c'mon.. naga is a good place to date, ayt.. nyweis.. my sister is going to naga.. they were the champ in the broadcasting elementary level.. no time to weep.. it's time to laugh..

the school paper had its good start in the media industry.. yep.. we won.. not as champs but in our right.. we deserve it.. i mean.. it's OUR school paper.. proud to say that we made it without the help of the mean teachers who only wished to criticize our work.. good thing we didn't have any awards for the feature page, coz if we do have, we'll slap to our teacher in math that we don't need any of her criticisms.. here are the list [as if naman ang dami..] of the the achievements..
tadaaa..

english..
1st place in photojourn - janin lou billano
2nd place in photojourn - charlene galenzoga.. ♥
4th place in photojourn - jeleena denisse jimenez
6th place in feature - johanna lyn malicad

filipino
3rd place in sports - xerxes john valdez
4th place in photojourn - dan jared samson
4th place in feature - rea jean barroquillo
4th place in cartooning - jonah panangguilan

broadcasting
best in technical application - anin "tuyok girl" billano

school paper bracket b english..
layouting - 5th place
editorial page - 6th place
sports page - 9th place

haha..
well..
that's all for now..♥

p.s. minalas talaga akuh dun.. nawala ang envelope kuh.. andun usb ku, id, manual ng radio natin, mga forms at files ng bawat org na sinalihan ku.. at andun ang pic ni cha.. huhu..

ekis-oh, ekis-oh
eduardo latino♥

sheet music? not a shit.

2008-12-10T15:57:00.015+08:00

i'm in the bravado of writing today.. after sleepless night of reading m.j. rose’s sheet music, i felt the feeling of how it is like to be a bookworm [even though I had just read the first five chapters.. lolx..] uhm.. it senses as you’re self actualized of a completely fictional story.. it’s a foolishness.. nyweis.. this post is not all about “justine” and “henri”, it’s all about me; for horses – horseflies… for humans, shame..

whew.. the mourning over my father’s uncle who i used to call as lolo was over.. he was sent to peace yesterday.. i wasn’t there.. i was in this division seminar for RSPC participants.. well, it’s quite good.. yes, the practice in the radio broadcasting is good.. but for news writing..? that would be an endless question mark.. i mean, no offense to the mentors but they should master what they teach.. it’s not because they marked my work wrong, it’s just that they don’t even know the subject.. enough for this..

i have my lil cousin at home.. she is charming and she used to kiss me before she goes to sleep.. [sweet, isn’t it..?] but then, since my sisters taught her to call me “yuck” because of my pimples..? i started to hate her.. not as much as i hate any other cousin.. haha.. still, she’s one of my favorite cuz.. having my cuz home is good, but having a house boy..? no way.. i wonder why my father decided to have him.. my father told me that he’s good in school and at work so he adopted him, will send him to school and at the same time to help in house chores.. anyhow, his intentions were good yet i dunno.. maybe i can’t have myself adjust for him..

status quo tomorrow.. i have loads of school work to comply.. assignments in calculus.. and the script in our film in fil101.. haha.. well, with regards to the film, as entitled hayskul layp, the story will focus on the friendship and rivalry of two girls and the people behind their back.. the tensions will turn in a sudden weeps as the story reveals the truth behind each conflicts.. and the amazing part..? having the lead killed…haha.. it’s a camp in katunggal where in we’ll have to shoot for more or less than a week..

i’m not only into school, i have to facilitate the papers and vouchers regarding our travel in kidapawan for RSPC and the payment of our school paper [we haven’t paid even a single cent.. shame on us..], i have also to check the schedule of our Christmas party.. it was set on december 16 but since we will be having RSPC from dec. 14-16, we’ll reschedule it on the 17^th.. it would still be fun.

uhm.. i’m having love problems nowadays.. i don’t know how can I face it... it seems that she’s getting tired and weary of me.. she’s fed up with the away-bati relationship.. our anniversary will be on dec. 18, yet i have signs telling me it wouldn’t reach the 18.. would that mean that it’s no more C+E=♥? then it would be, C+E=?.. not a good idea..

ekis-oh, ekis-oh
eduardo latino♥

kambuniyan.

2008-12-05T17:15:00.008+08:00

uhm... i guess our kambuniyan festival is the hottest topic in the school vicinity.. perpetually contemplating things on so vast scales, made me think that "does it really matter a hoot nyweis..?" i mean.. hello.. it's a thing that i should say must have sense in it.. well.. there were good news on foundation anniversary dated december 3-5.. but then.. of course, bad slash creeping slash hair-straightening news..

we'll have to savor the sweet before the spice..

it all started with a rainy night.. the torch parade.. haha.. the seniors agreed to dress theirselves up with colored jeans and pink/gray shirt then wings.. some of us were butterflies.. others..? bats.. and i..? twilight's edward inspired costume.. it's fun.. the mercury torch, as what we used to call it.. the rain.. the disco.. and my favorite part..? having a date with my gf.. [we have been suffering from our own defined illness.. emotional immaturities.. time management.. whew..] the night were filled with laughters.. silly laughs and giggles almost endless.. it's nice.. she teases me because we have a forbidden love.. "VAMPIRES in PINK never fall in LOVE with DRIVERS playing XYLOPHONE." haha.. nyweis.. it's not all about us.. we also garnered two out of five awards.. the BEST IN TORCH and the MOST COLORFUL..

so the spice?

my mother wants me to leave our house because i didn't sleep there after the torch parade, instead, i have my nap at the SSC office.. whew.. she keeps on nagging.. and then the day after that night..? she said that she'll deliver all my clothes so i'll have to stay in that office forever.. this is the message:

hoy gwapo mapuli ka pa diri? daw wala ka kabalo nga may ginikanan ka nga gahulat sa imu ba.. kanami sa imu, dira ka nalang pag-istar.. (hey, are you coming back home? it seems that you don't know that you have parents waiting for you.. good, have your house there..)
and so i have to stay there to refresh my mind..
whew.. so much for this.. tears, tears, tears..
ekis-oh, ekis-oh
eduardo latino♥

Monster Teachers Incorporated.

2008-11-25T11:53:00.008+08:00

Monster Teachers Incorporated.

that’s the best word I can describe the school faculty.. they’re ogres! as in! i don’t know why did the human resource management hired them at all.. it’s a question mark for me.. they’re completely student-eating beast.. and honor-killer.. they’re serial eradicators and assassins.. once you are hit.. omg! you are totally lifeless.. i mean “bang”.. i’m dead serious.. i love teachers, they were my foster parents since then.. but imagine life as if you are like a robot – no heart and mind – and just following strict orders.. here’s the list of the monster teachers from the level 1 up to the highest level..

monster teacher # 5:

she’s definitely good in English.. i mean, it’s forte.. yet there something i hate about her.. it’s her mouth that keeps commenting without shrewd that it hurts.. she once told me that “anong klaseng governor ka..? hindi mo alam kung ano ang gagawin..?”.. well, that’s sucks grandma dame.. wear my shoes and you’ll see.. maybe she’s just an anti-eduardo coz she wants another ‘governor’.. it’s a sssshh.. haha.. and one more thing.. she also told me that she don’t like my girlfriend because we are not in level.. it’s too much..

she’s a three-star ego-destroyer swine..

monster teacher # 4:

he is the newest teacher in shiny flecks rooms of faraboyle…he is not good in Filipino according to my sis who happened to be his student.. i used to call him Garfield but my classmates would rather call him mike enriquez because of the way he talks.. as if he was telling us “at hindi ko kayo tatantanan..mga kapuso”.. that was even shoddier.. haha.. and the greatest thing i hate about him.. he is a monster in disguise.. he wants me to cut my hair.. and what? resemble it to a rizal-hairdo.. no way!

he’s a eerie, terrifying, creepy brute..

that thug had a tie with an another monster teacher..

monster teacher # 4:

she’s 100% perfect way back into the first day i stepped into the school but then, i realized that i was wrong.. yeah, she’s a versatile teacher but of all the things she would rather avoid, why bad words? i mean, she’s too old to tell us that “ayoko sa mga mango! i’m telling you frankly.. damn it.. olayt..?” or “bakit ayaw niyo magpraktis..? papresiyo pa kayo.. putang ina niyo..!” or “bullshit! sa kadami ng time na magpraktis bakit sa time ko pa..?”… see..? it’s inappropriate.. teaching values..? omg! and one more thing, she denied it..

she’s an old creature of monstrous attitude..

monster teacher # 3:

she’s the most hilarious and comical teacher ever.. the way she talks and pronounce.. it’s fun.. everyone can cheat on her period and have their books open while having a quiz or just chat whenever they are fed up.. it’s a nice thing though :].. i cheat, i admit but not opening books.. yet still, it’s good.. i mean, having no class every time it rains or just telling us that “wala munang pasok kasi hindi maganda ang katawan ko” is a student’s freedom.. it’s justice from other creatures.. but she’s still monster! and why..? she deducts 1 point on my quizzes every time she hears my voice.. let’s take it as an example.. it’s already checking time.. and she asks someone to answer the question from the quiz.. but is it right to withhold a point because i recited..? it happened two times already.. and that’s the only reason why she’s my top three monster…

at number 3 is mademoiselle score-withholder monster..

monster teacher # 2:

she’s our research adviser…she’s the annabelle rama of the high school department.. and one more thing.. she loves to give instant quizzes not within our lessons and topic.. and when she can’t control us, she’ll yell at us “hindi ako nagkulang ha, number 1 na”.. quiz agad..? hmf.. aurgh.. and she’s reprimanding us this way.. “oh sige, hindi ako magklase basta hindi niyo sabihin sa iba na hindi ako nagkaklase kasi nagkaklase ako..” drama.. and aside from her tantrums.. she’s a money-eater monster..

she’s the greedy bus conductor slash emo slash self-explanatory monster teacher ever…

monster teacher #1;

she’s the top monster.. first, she asks her student if there are any questions but in the end she’ll give you loads of nag for asking questions.. secondly, she gives loads of works whenever she’s out.. she want us to answer all the exercises on the book in just two-weeks span.. third, she’s the mother of all complaints.. she keeps on grumbling us why are things like this and not like that.. like why did the boyle reigned in the acquaintance party or in the bebotilicious.. she makes things so complicated.. she also said that why are the pics in the school paper were almost seniors.. well, to tell her, her student was on the frontpage… it wasn’t our fault if her students were not honor-bearers.. good thing she’s not our advisor.. she’s takaw away.. haha.. fourth, she’s emo.. haha…

hail to the monster of monsters…

halt.. if they’ll read this.. they might sue me for moral damages.. but it’s the truth.. i’m no born fraud.. enough for this.. want to know more about them..? see them in person and you’ll have your knees shaking as you fall and cry.. blown up and embellished? there’s a need for overstating citation.. haha..

ekis-oh, ekis-o h
eduardo latino♥

bob ong's words of wisdom.

2008-11-24T12:05:00.003+08:00

Ayon kay Bob Ong:

"Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya.."

"Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba."

"Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."

"Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."

"Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin."

"Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din."

"Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."

"Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa."

haha.. ala lang random thoughts from bob ong.. sarcastically inspiring ayt..?

btw.. we have our new teacher in filipino 101... he's mr. ramos who is now on post of our previous teacher, madame sinoy... his full name is mr. avelino herman/german ramos.. i hate him.. haha.. he is requesting us, boys, to have our hair cut or else he'll trim it with a gardener's trimmer like he always do with the bushes in the campus.. he's a college faculty that's why i hate him.. he'd rather chose to teach us el fili instead of basic filipino.. aurgh.. good thing he retained our expected output for the fourth grading - the movie... *

now.. the film..? we are planning to entitle it with "hayskul layp" and shoot it in señerez.. the concept was about friendship, romance and death all in one camp.. haha...

[new topic]

i won't post my journal entitled "night with the stars" unless pics will be uploaded.. haha.. evidence is a must or else i'll be embarassed.. what i'm referring to is the christian-rachel show plus kitchie's band performance live in sultan kudarat.. haha.. maybe tomorrow..

haha...

til hur..

ekis-oh, ekis-oh
eduardo latino♥

one, two or both..?

2008-11-22T17:03:00.007+08:00

one, two or both..?

what's with the question that keeps on bugging me everytime it crosses my mind..? i really don't know after all what makes me confused.. woah.. the catch-22 is scratching my nerves... is this the feeling as they call it mixed emotions..? hmmmp... i'm having pumps-and-pants moment everytime i try to answer the question.. do i need to elaborate everything..? it's vague, right..? i'll give you a hint... priority over living or both..? oh.. don't say you don't get it.. [as if anyone is reading this post]..

my life is a shaping mess, that's why i hate everything... it started with me, then those who loved me, then those who loved those who loved me and so on... i'm the greatest weightlifter.. though i'm not trying to carry a dumb bell at all, i mean i'm having the world at my shoulders... it's heavy enough loaded with the greatest weightlifter of all times, the heaviest mammal, the tremendous thousands of elephants and what more could i say..? the bird's nest, the petronas tower..? what? i'm out of the topic... it's not with the load anyway... it's with the pressure that's behind my back...

i have to choose between the so-called 'one, two or both' of my life though being hurt is indeed a certainty.. i want to be in my human form with head over heart cause whether i feel the greatest hurt and pain or the greatest love and care, sheer bliss or flood of tears, on the top of the world or at the very bottom of the damned chain, it's still the same... i'm beating fervently.. i'd rather risk the pleasures or the punishments of life for choosing among the options rather than to be on the side of those millions creepy zombies who resolved to play safe.. i'm denuded..

so after all what i had written, what's the bottom line..? i mean what's my point..?

i dunno...

tsar-tsar lang siguro...

haha...

kaw kasi, since binasa mo na rin... itutuloy ko na lang hanggang dulo...

now my day..? it's fun... the kalimudan fest was about to end and i had the last minute cravings after all.. i'm with my two closest kaberks... anin and jue.. well, they're aiming for the fishes on the vast seas.. the milkfish and the lapu-lapu.. haha.. they're gals, and you know what i mean.. that is if your a man too.. nyweis.. we had difficulties on penetrating the provincial capitol.. but still, we managed to overcome those stupid guards who keeps on explaining to us that no one is allowed to enter the hall.. that was the order.. but as far as what i'd heard, they were hiding sen. bong revilla from the crowd.. oh lala.. still, i had the glimpse of one of the respected highest officials in the country.. and then when had invade the capitol, we were craving for airconditioned rooms.. until we had extended beyond the provincial e-library.. woah.. we had fun reading childish story books which ending is quite predictable.. we also shared the same window overlooking the street dancer.. and [chaaaaraaan] the city of tacurong brought home the bacon with cheese on top of it amounting to php150, 000.. when the sun was about to set, we hurried to the fountain.. and catch the drops of it until we were soaking wet.. hyperbole, was it..? nyweis, we keep on fooling ourselves that it was a rain.. haha..

then.. boom! i'm writing this stuffs after we had granted anin's wish.. to tour her in the most spectacular "mall" [ehem] in the town of isulan.. the isulan central plaza.. wahaha...

and i'll just end it up right here..

ekis-oh, ekis-oh,
eduardo latino♥

hip and hop

2008-11-20T12:15:00.006+08:00

wahaha...

i'm eating as of the moment... and i'm having hard times of fitting my costume... i have this high cut shoes and i folded it so it will look like a puppet shoe then warmers for my skinny arms and legs... it's awful... i'm a walking skeleton... oops, sorry... it's not walking, dancing rather.. haha.. my checkered shorts and my shirt? they're tight-fitting...aurgh..

now, back to the contest.. i'm meditating.. hours and minutes will be a suffering for me.. i'm afraid that my system will falter tonight... steps were changed last night... the positions were altered.. rush.. rush.. rush...

and, we are 26 in our category... omg! the council told us that it is only open for high school... but then to my surprise.. some were almost college-aged... woah.. as we traverse our path to the contest area for markings, ogre-faced so-called dancers followed us.. i thought that they were college students so i ask the committee chairman if college were allowed and he did reply no! and i said.. thanks... but again i was strucked knowing that they were from l*****n nat'l high... aurgh.. they were competing for koronadal chapter as a crew according to kuya marfs..

disqualification is indeed a need for them..

woah...

stop right here..

i'll have to wear my costumes...

November 18, 2008

2008-11-19T11:23:00.006+08:00

nah... looks like the 18th day of november is missing... ayt?

it's a complete mess... rawr.. it's aching, the pain and the memoirs plus the expectations... i've been absolutely under disturbia for almost 24 hours, still comatose... the tight-fitting suit is not worth at all of her smile; the miles of walking and exhausting myself is far from what i expect will happen on that day.. it's a nightmare.. and i can't wake myself up... funny to think that i am struggling.. identity crisis, i guess... i can't explain it...

move over here...

one tree hill season finale yesterday was a bit confusing... the scenes were vague for me... well, it's still good.. i lurve peyton - the notes on the basketball court with the splashing comet effect; wahaha.. =]

well... this post is for all tose lost souls who had forgotten to believe in the immensity of love...am i lucas? nawp.. definitely not..

haha..

i'm going crazy...

SOS..

ekis-oh, ekis-oh
eduardo latino♥

moment of truth

2008-11-17T12:28:00.009+08:00

Here we are, in the best years of our lives.
With no way of knowing, when the
whee'll stop spinning cause we don't
know where we're going...
and here we are, on the best day of our lives.
And it's a go, lets make it last, so cheers you
all to that, 'cause this moment's never comin' back

I used to know her brother, but I never
knew I loved her, 'till the day she laid her
eyes on me. Now I'm jumpin' up and down,
she's the only one around, and she means
every little thing to me

I've got your picture in my wallet, and your
Phone number to call it, and I miss you more,
Whenever I think about you,. I've got
your mixed tape in my Walkman, been so
long since we've been talkin' and in a few
more days, we'll both hook up, forever and ever

And here I am, on the west coast of
American and I've been tryin' to think for weeks of
all the ways to ask you, And now
I've brought you to the place, Where I've
poured my heart out, a million times, for a million
reasons, To offer it to you
I used to know her brother, but I never
knew I loved her, 'till the day she laid her
eyes on me. Now I'm jumpin' up and down,
she's the only one around, and she means
every little thing to me

I've got your picture in my wallet, and your
Phone number to call it, and I miss you more,
Whenever I think about you,. I've got
your mixed tape in my Walkman, been so
long since we've been talkin' and in a few
more days, we'll both hook up, forever and ever

I used to know her brother, but I never
knew I loved her, 'till the day she laid her
eyes on me. Now I'm jumpin' up and down,
she's the only one around, and she means
every little thing to me

I've got your picture in my wallet, and your
Phone number to call it, and I miss you more,
Whenever I think about you,. I've got
your mixed tape in my Walkman, been so
long since we've been talkin' and in a few
more days, we'll both hook up, forever and eve..

whew... busy again..?

i'm having rush moments coping up with my subjects... nah.. that stupid teachers who wants to control my life in an instance... and i want to share to everybody how i wish to kill (i mean, i won't kill her it's just a hyperbole of how i hate her..) this teacher... well, i'm havin' ears even though i'm out.. my national-competitors for sci-fair had this so-called meeting, and they told me that this "ante" keeps on talking about my misfortunes for national levels... she keeps on telling my classmates that i've been in regionals for almost four years but i had never had this glimpse of national level... since first year, i've been competing for regional competition but sad to say, i'm stucked on that level.. aurgh... but then, last year i told myself that i was lucky and so did i, i won two regional level contests.. the sci-fair and camp.. the fair was set on palawan and that would be great and then the camp would be somewhere here in mindanao.. but i guess i'm not lucky with nationals.. it was postponed... xet...

i'm a retarded and frustrated national contestant... [in my dreams]....

now, i'm busy for a hiphop competition.. it's province-wide... it's amazing.. i had all the excuse to rest instead of making mind-buggling assignments... haha.. and we'll atend the children's congress tomorrow.. it's cool.. and tomorrow will be the last month of my life.. exaggeration..? well, definitely coz one more month, lot of things will shape up and it will be a one new world for me and for her...

the papers were almost done.. thanks to anin.. the sbo is working hand-in hand and it's amazing... the cheerdance is upcoming! whew! glan fest is fun.. we'll be there soon... 27 i guess.. hmmn..? rspc..? no way... i can't pass it.. i'm over it.. haha.. all i want is a little rest and then college!

i wonder how it feels to be college... well, i don't know where to school.. maybe in iloilo.. or davao or anywhere.. txk..

[new topic..]

i'm ashamed with my family.. their expectation last competition made me down.. i don't know why.. maybe because i had stepped into the runner-up spot if i could have done better or even for the best in interview.. and one more thing, all of them hailed me but the least they expect to bring the bacon made it... my sister won a gold medal for regional math trail for elementary... and a gold medal in DSPC... copyreading.... huhu...

i'm totally dethroned...

that's it for now..

ekis-oh, ekis-oh,

eduardo latino..♥

math olympics

2008-11-13T23:31:00.004+08:00

grr...

post ahead of you, fella...

wahaha.. sa wakas, natapos na rin ang kalbaryo kuh.. at least kahit di akuh nanalo, i had prove my worth... haha... tas ang dami kuh pang pera.. kitams..? napagkikitaan kuh pa... haha...

and quick update, i won a silver medal according to my peers in news writing.. not bad... hahaha... and then 4th in editorial, 1st in broadcasting and 1st in quiz... see...? i learned...

and then... i 'll just stop here...

til next time..

tsup...

eduardo latino..♥

tandaa.

2008-10-27T16:58:00.003+08:00

nananananananananaman.........

la lang... naglagaw akuh kaina sa TANDAA... kag nadula akon kwarta...

tapos ang mga nagpalakat sa akon didto, ala kuh man japon nakita... kurugot...

haha... pers tym kuh mag-ilonggo diri... at least hindi wrong grammar...

nyak nyak...

uhm.. iniyawan gid kuh kapangamas kamas kapangita sang resibo sang SBO... haha

(nusblid..?)

ara man lang sa filipino teacher namon... toinkz

tas gali... naglagaw kami ila peyt bakal dayon fishball... wala bi lingaw...

kulang na pa guid ang articles sa symmetry...

kay ang iban ala gahulag.. maski akuh... (daw tanga noh..?

uhm... sem break... lagaw ta...

hahaha...

nov 3 kami mabalik... ti ano karon..?

ala lang.. xeir..

geh malakat na kuh...

babay...

exams.

2008-10-24T16:11:00.004+08:00

huwaat..?

tapos na ang exam! hahays...

sa wakas...

buhbye na rin dito sa basurang ito dahil ibabasura ko na talaga siya....:(

hahaha...

til hur...

eduardo is out...

til nxt time...

live...love...and laugh!

balisa

2008-09-15T12:16:00.001+08:00

uhm, paano ko ba sisimulan ang isang bagay na walang katapusan..?
paano ko ba tatapusin sa di ko malamang dahilang ang isang gawain ang isang bagay na hindi ko sinimulan..?
paano nga ba..?

ang magpanggap na hindi ka nasasaktan pero ang katotohanan ay nagsasaning kailangang umilag para hindi ka matamaan..

ang magkubli sa isang kapirasong papel nang sa gayon ay di ka makilala na kung pakakaisipin ay di ka magkakasya..

ang manahimik sa isang sulok na parang tanga at hayaang gumalaw ang mundo salungat sa teorya ng grabiti..

ang ngumiti na naimo'y walang poot pero nagtatago ang isang luhang balot ng apoy..

ang gumising sa isang panaginip na umaasang matatapos ang lahat sa isang iglap..

ang matulog sa buhay na marangya na di alintana kung ika'y makakabangong muli sa kinahihigaan..

paano nga ba..?

ako'y galit,
ako'y masaya,
ako'y malungkot,
ako'y naiinip,
ako'y balisa,
ako'y ako...

hindi talaga ako nauunawaan ng iilan...

palaging may nagtatanong kung galit raw ba ako...

aba, malay ko..

malay mo,

malay nating lahat...

hindi dito nagtatapos ang isang karimarimarim na ugat ng lahat..

[ang bahaging ito ay hatid sa inyo ng isang ulila.. nawa'y walang makaintindi dito..]

c2

2008-09-12T12:38:00.001+08:00

presenting...

the wonderful C of my life...

CHRIST
Campus EO EDALIDO
Cashier ROSE ALIDO
Cheerful sis TIN ALIDO
Crazy lil si WENA ALIDO
Computer addict JAMES ALIDO
Corp member WINNIE ALIDO...

Clan of PABALINAS
Clan of ALIDO...

Classmate JAN
Classmate REY
Classmate MIKE
Classmate ESTRE
Classmate NORMAN
Classmate ELDZ
Classmate DUTCH
Classmate DAN
Classmate PJ
Classmate XERXES
Classmate REA KRIS
Classmate ALYSSA MAE
Classmate JUE
Classmate NIÑA
Classmate PERSHER
Classmate ANIN
Classmate JOY
Classmate GELYAN
Classmate JELYN
Classmate CHRISMA
Classmate PEYT
Classmate MANILYN
Classmate MAILYN
Classmate ANNALITA
Classmate AIREEN
Classmate AZVEE
Classmate JAMAICA
Classmate NARCI
Classmate MIK
Classmate ALYSSA ROSE
Classmate KATLEYA
Classmate DYNA
Classmate TIN-TIN
Classmate MITCH
Classmate MICAH
Classmate LEANNE
Classmate JOANN...

Classroom BOYLE
Classroom neighbor FARADAY...

CHARLENE...

..and all others C's not mentioned over here..

they always make my day happy..♥